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01-25-21 09:20 #669
Posts: 15The truth
The only reason the pandemic has stopped me is the fact it has robbed me of legitimate excuses to be out of the house.
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01-24-21 20:13 #668
Posts: 439Originally Posted by WhyOhWhy [View Original Post]
I will probably always have occasional trysts in the hobby for the rest of my life, but I'm reaching a point where more and more, seeing providers usually isn't worth the trouble. Maybe I'll change my mind in a few months when it's shorts and bikini season, but right now, I'd be content with seeing a provider 3 or 4 times a year. Maybe you'll get to that point too when you get older.
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01-23-21 03:28 #667
Posts: 621Do I have a problem?
So. I've been mongering since I was 18. (horny bastard). I always told myself I would stop but I can't. Its not really hurting my financial situation because I'm single. I've on the forum since 2008. (I delete my account several times out of guilt). I'm 36 now and my plan is to save money to retire in Thailand or vietnam so I can fuck all day everyday. I enjoy it but I'm buzzin from the alcohol and wondering if I have problems because I love fucking prostitutes. Can anyone relate?
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01-19-21 12:53 #666
Posts: 2090Personally I am addicted to chase rather than the act itself. For myself I find looking for a hotter SW at a reasonable to be exciting. These days I cruise much less since there fewer good looking SW's where I live in SD. I tend to stick to TJ at least for now. I also enjoy reading other guys adventure on this forum.
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01-07-21 12:31 #665
Posts: 519Here's my advice to you as someone twice your age who didn't have the internet when I was your age, or I probably would've done the same thing. I was too cheap though to pay for sex that I could get on my own. I did spend some time overseas and the legal prostitution was just too good and too cheap to pass up, so I did enjoy a few BJ's.
My advice is to sow your oats as much as possible before you settle down and get married. My biggest misfortune in life was not doing this before marriage. I married for love. The sex was "good", but I didn't know what "great" was yet. Enter kids, wife loses interest in sex, the internet, and now I'm an official monger stealing money from the family funds and sneaking behind everyone's back. Now I know what great sex is, and it sure as fuck isn't happening at home.
Do not follow this path in life. I wish I was not a monger and a cheater.
Hate to tell someone to dump your gf if she's not good in bed, but let me put it another way: dump your girlfriend if she's not good in bed! Love will come again. You need to find a partner that you love and that absolutely rocks your world and every fantasy you have. Discuss porn. Discuss escorts. Discuss that sexual wants and needs cannot go unfulfilled. Explain that if guys (not all though) don't get really good pussy at home on a regular basis, they're going to find it elsewhere. Women don't respect this. It's just how some-to-most of us are wired.
Originally Posted by LustCaution [View Original Post]
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01-06-21 22:43 #664
Posts: 4Thinking about seeing someone
Hey why'll.
I got into the game very early. Around when I was 20/21 years old? I had / have pretty low self esteem in the past so I guess the thought of having sex easily appealed to me greatly. To add to that, the thrill of backpage was something else. Anyway, I used my parents money to see girls and when I graduated and got my own job I started trying to quit. For me its like once the feeling latches on, I'm doing nothing but scrolling forums, calling girls. I feel very much helpless when I get in this phase. I have been doing very well though. The last time I saw someone was like at least 7-8 months ago? Since then I have contacted an escort and cancelled on my way twice. I have convinced myself naturally that the lying and mental damage the game will do to me (as I view it, no dig on people who view mongering differently), will be irreparable and when I do get intimate with a girl one day, this will be an issue. So that's how I stop myself, another way is to imagine the damage it would do to my mom and my family. The disappointment would be immense. Also I think its easier to start thinking about quitting after you start to feel intense guilt on the way back home. Even easier if the experience itself was nothing special or bad in some way.
Recently, I have been perusing this site and my go-to agencies in my area. However, I am managing to kind of stop myself a bit, but ngl if this one provider texted me back right now, I'm not sure what I would do. I'm in a weird head space where I have quit on the way multiple times but somehow feel I am ready to fuck up 2021 for myself by doing this.
On another note, how linked do you think your hunger for escorts is to porn? I feel like maybe pornography is maybe the thing that always leads my mind wandering back.
Nice to see some other people's struggles though, thanks for posting, I am looking into some authors that have been mentioned like Rob Weiss, maybe can find some inspiration to keep my streak going.
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10-29-20 12:02 #663
Posts: 270Thanks
Originally Posted by Csheen [View Original Post]
Outside of the lingering feelings of shame and guilt, I still feel optimistic that I can come out the other side of this and get it out of my life for good. I just need to get past this recent episode. Thanks for those words.
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10-28-20 16:29 #662
Posts: 38Originally Posted by DjHunter [View Original Post]
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10-28-20 08:59 #661
Posts: 270I Failed
Can't sum up my feelings any better than that. I failed last night. Over the past two years, I'd managed to dial my habits way back, to the point where I would mostly get a handjob from an SW and even then it was very infrequent. The last couple times I got full service I realized I didn't have much more stomach for the immediate shame and guilt. However, last night, a bunch of life stresses forced me to venture out for relief. Met up with an old provider I used to see, got a BBBJ and finished off nutting with my tip barely inside of her. The shame, guilt, and fear hit me immediately. I ran home, did my bleach protocol (few drops of bleach diluted in warm water, soaking my knob in it) and sat depressed and ashamed. What was I thinking, fooling myself that I could be on the other side of this?
Overall, I still feel like I'm coming out the other side of my addiction. I've had less than ten encounters this year, most no more than kissing and a HJ, and I'm even trying to curtail those. Maybe I needed this experience to reiterate why I need out of this thing. I still can't shake the guilt, shame, and other feelings, and I think I just bought myself a trip to the clinic for a screening. Fuck this hobby. I seriously want out of this shit.
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10-22-20 01:01 #660
Posts: 1797Originally Posted by TailHunter69 [View Original Post]
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09-22-20 17:42 #659
Posts: 332Just have to chime in with my two cents here. After my back to back nightmares (which you can read in my post history), I'm beginning to wonder what happened to the hobby, and what the answer to this problem is.
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09-16-20 15:00 #658
Posts: 182Word
Originally Posted by Bozoner [View Original Post]
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09-12-20 09:26 #657
Posts: 14What Me Worry?
I don't miss the lying, the discomfort of possible discovery, and the health hazards. I do miss the rush. So much.
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09-11-20 08:09 #656
Posts: 2688Amen
Originally Posted by Vbenny [View Original Post]
Am I a addict?
Fuck Yaaaa!
Stay safe.
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09-06-20 22:57 #655
Posts: 182Spot on
Originally Posted by Vbenny [View Original Post]