One more thing I should state if it isn't obvious like the occasional typo in my last post. I love black girls, I don't mess with them much but I love them. It's just the type of black girls I like, none of them are ghetto. A girl has to match up with me on a number of levels, and all that rap and bling blang hocus pocus stuff just has nothing to do with me. Actually I like, humble down to earth sweet girls, like I said though your chances of experiences what I'm talking about depends on if you are into the younger girls in the 18-28 year range. You are just not going to get what I am talking about from some girl that has been out there, for years. A girl that's been beat down and raped countless times. Boy those girls well's are dry. They don't even know who they are anymore, and yes I'm going to keep on going not only that they are not likely to remember even if you told them it takes time.
One of the sweetest most beautiful girls I've ever been with was a petite red bone girl. She was beautiful beyond compare with a capital be. I could not believe what she said she did and did to me. You have to understand something the world comes with a lot of baggage, not much of it's anyone's fault, it's kind of a perpetual motion type thing you fall into kind of like a like a song but, after a while if you don't take care of yourself and keep your focus on brighter things, constantly make a point to do it, then your senses dull and before you know it, you are the one that becomes hypnotized by it's melody. You never know what hit you until it's too late, that's why I'm telling you guys now, what I think before I dissappear again. I think you are into a certain type of girl not knowing you could be into a girl that could change everything. Your view of the world, the reason you wake up, the stopping and taking that extra minute to appreciate a flower etc.
Not only that. Imagine this see it for what it is and realize it's actually true. I have a girl, I've had girlfriends in the past, I just like to play on the side but here's the thing. You might not ever get where you really need to go unless you stop messing with a certain type of girl and move the bar for the type of girls you mess with to another level. In other words things will never change. Do you really think someone like me want's a repeat a repeat of 2009 or 2013. It's this stopping everything and having a more complete understanding of all things and their innate relations which has kept me from a load of trouble. My current state is this, In fact I see looking for girls as a trap I'd like to free myself from one day completely, but the thrill of messing with new girls and the dynamic-ism's of some of the experiences of the past keep me want to experience the thrill again. Not much has changed for but the type of girls I will allow myself to mess around with and that is changing everthing. It's like this. If they are spiteful, I leave them. If they are complete addicts gone, I give them the best advice I can and leave them. If I even get a hint of evil about someone I stop seeing them.
Bottom line is nobody want's trouble, It's out there in tremendously cached believe me I've not only experienced it myself but had to deal with it first hand. From kicking girls out of my car, having girls try to rip me off, thugs jealous of me making threats because they think I'm going to steal 'their' girl, all the bums, thugs and punks trying to ask me for 50 cent. Not to mention a real pimp who has one eye closed and peeking at you the way a real pimp does when their girl keeps on running up to you just because your walking by and their girl see's more in you than them. Why would I want anything to do with that again.
Anyway. You have to understand I don't make appearances like this often perhaps once a year, but my message to you if you still want to do this is this. Do other things so I can see other things and be exposed to other greater things without getting that massive whiplash of Karma in the end. Question, will I continue probably, I probably will pick up a girl here and there like I do but I only dabble and It's become less frequent. From reading your posts I do almost almost everything different from anyone I've ever seen here. I'm not being egocentric because I'm up to the same thing on occasion it's just I have learned and decided to do things different, learn and move on. I am no longer desperate, I do not live by any of these rules, nor will I die by them as I set my own. Nothing cryptic about, nothing special about me I'm just a thinker with who's adept at extrapolating exactly how things are. You want to know how things are with me now I'll tell you. It has taken all the desperation away, all the feeling of being propelled to do something I don't really feel like doing (which usually ends up being trouble anyways), and saved me a lot of money. I can't say everyone will be able to do this, even understand but I just learned to relax. That opens the doors for things I want to come to me, I don't worry about much, but what does anyone think they are actually going to get out from a state of desperation, the answer is nothing. Desperate people filled with more desperation. You have to learn to know and align know what the difference is between specific things to experience the difference. I've had some young tender fall into my lap out of the blue, and you know who got the things I used to get before, someone else. I apologize I was just in a writing mood.
Happy hunting...
JS.
