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[QUOTE=Jsmw1980;2526587]After having been in this hobby for 10+ years and a member of this board for around 2-3 years, I know you should never fall for or develop any personal feelings for these girls. I've been seeing my ATF for around 3 years. We've had countless meetings. Usually when I text her, I'm at her place in about an hour. I've seen others while seeing her but not many. She never brings up $. I don't always give her the same amount; it just depends on what's on me at the time. Once, we got so much into the fun and I was so out of it afterwards, I forgot to lay my money down. She acted like it wasn't any big deal. I came back on my own later to pay her. Our meetings have gotten better with time. The last few times, it's been more sensual instead of kink. We both enjoy kink, but it's been different. That gaze in the eyes and half smile. Anyway, I can't get her out of my mind. I know that I don't need to go down that road. I'm sure she's just playing the role, I'm probably another business transaction, but man it's gotten to me. I know she's into smoking pot but I don't see any signs of other drug use.
So my quandary is. Do I need to just get out of the hobby? Or just quit seeing her? I know pursuing her seriously isn't a good idea. What's everybody's take on this?[/QUOTE]Ask her what she thinks. You never know until you ask. You will find your answer asking her.