Epiphany And Revelations Part 1 Of 3
I just had one last night, I went against what I vowed not to do, because I know it could never work out, even despite the fact that I'm never clingy, needy, give rules, orders, and give them freedom to do whatever they please just to please there needs, I could and I know deep down I am capable of being like that in every single relationship I've ever been in, maybe that's why I'm still single I give them to much freedom, to them it seems like I don't care, and that the longest relationship I've have lasted only a mere 3 weeks, that's sad, but relationships aren't for everyone, certainly not for me, I've made it this far, had many relations but no relationships, so I had to do something about it, 5 years ago I ditched my old phone with numbers of temptation, just waiting for a dial, just call, hook up, maybe make them spend the night, and she'll be gone when I wake up, perfect yeah, well until your biological clock starts to tick, LOL.
So I decided to ditch the phone along with my long time FWB as well, it's best that we moved on and let me tell you, the last time we hooked up, was like the absolute worst iv'e ever had, it felt so simulated, I am even embrassed to even have any rare collection of it ever happening, and I could allude it to the fact that I was drunk and feeling lonely, she couldn't be there that night, so we settled for the next morning, meanwhile she just found a BF, and that I respect the fact the she came through for me cause I was horny, she was my longest relationship of 3 weeks, but became FWB for 5 years all because we felt that it would work out best that way, this was in 2009, fast forward two years later, I couldn't take being a goodie goodie, so I decided to monger as they say, being single with no one to mingle sucks, but at the same time taught me discipline and strengthen my self control, that two years really molded me. I always wondered why I have never been swept off my feet, no girl has ever done that to me, and to say that I don't have feelings, I'm a very sensitive person, I know I get hurt easily, I cried to a lot of movies, some of which is embarrassing to mention here, so I know I feel something. I thought of myself of being a bonafide MGTOW, until the 27th, yesterday, before I left, I felt my heart stopped, and If I had a few more minutes to say what I needed to say, I would have broken down to tears of finally coming clean, and confessing how I feel or atleast felt at that very moment, all I know is that I've never had a person sweep me off my feet till now, is this just a dream? An epiphany? A revelation? All I know is that my feelings are real. The only question that I have is am I the only one, I certainly don't want to be strung along for a ride that leads to never never land.
Question. Pushing the "boys" out
One of the common scene in Japanese pron is that when the guy shoot it inside the J-girl, the end scene will show the girl pushes the sperm out of her V.
Question. Does this technique will help the girl from getting pregnant?
