You Got A Ton Of Good Advice
Many Mongers shared good advice concerning your situation.
You definitely need to slow down and I would recommend that you stop collecting evidence too.
Don't keep ANY pictures or vids on your phone, don't keep any numbers, or notes. They are just evidence waiting to be found.
I wouldn't conduct any hobby business outside 8-5 weekdays. Doing it at home around her as you learned is dangerous.
Don't have any bare sex if you fuck your partner bare. What other mongers do is their thing.
You're way to excited about this hobby and you're getting careless and even reckless.
Your most important tool to doing this hobby while having an important partner in your life is her trust. If you have her trust you have a whole lot of freedom. Loose her trust and suddenly she'll be come a stalker watching and suspecting your every move. Or worse.
Should she even start suspecting you, things will change.
When they trust you they don’t think about what you’re doing, when they don’t trust they ONLY think about what you are doing.
Trust lost can never be fully regained.
I didn't see anyone touch on this but is she one day going to ask you where all that money went?
And lastly, make sure you keep fucking your partner like you always have. If your sex life changes at home, women notice and immediately start suspecting that something is up. They think if you dont get it from them youre getting it somewhere else.
[QUOTE=DeadAzz;6043530]LOL it's called "Calculator# Hide Photos Videos" on the Apple App Store. I have it on my phone and my iPad. Dude it's fucking awesome! You can hide photos, video, notes. There's also a setting to add extra security where when someone else open the app a window pops up that says "Error Occurred. App not Working" or something like that. If they click okay it exits the app. But if you tap twice outside the pop up and then tap okay it opens the calculator. You then have to still enter your secret 4 digit pin to get in. The app automatically locks every time you swipe out of it. Also when you import video / pictures in it, it automatically asks you after the import if you want to delete it from your camera roll. You still got to empty your deleted items folder though so don't forget to do that.[/QUOTE]
In the Hobby World Sooner or Later Someone is Going to Leave
I suppose my concerns about falling in love with a provider were as much a caution to myself as to everyone else.
Yes, it is happening, my ATF, GFE, GF3, DFK, DATY, PSE, CIM, CIP, NSA, LTR, UTR-FS provider has told me she's moving back to China!
Apparently she's admitting there is no future with any of her clients, including me, the business, or her life in SD. For years she's grown to be a blend of provider, mistress, friend, and Masseuse. Because of this amazing combination I've grown very close and quite attached to her. Once we connected she never denied me anything I asked for from her.
She's been amazingly fun, and I'm going to miss her physical beauty, sexual talents, and her attractive personality. She's one of the rare types I connected with the first time I met her. She's the only provider I gave my number to after our first massage session, and I was happy to see her first text to me by the time I got to the car. Being involved with her was as easy as falling down.
Over time I broke the cardinal rule. I grew attached. In fact, I've grown very attached. Okay, it may or may not be love, but feels damn close. I'm not talking puppy love, or being fuck struck. We have been involved for a long time, and it grew from a massage with a happy ending to anything goes. She wasn't the first, or last, Massage Girl I allured up to FS, but she's definitely my ATF. I literally got everything from her I wanted when I wanted it. And I felt she enjoyed it all as much as I did. She is a lucky find. She for me is one of those magic unicorns we speak of in this hobby. You guys who have had a long term unicorn know exactly what I'm talking about.
She's been a fun secret, and the main reason I Hobby moderately.
She is both a blessing and curse, and you only feel this way when you know you've grown too close. Her charms and talents are so captivating, I actually avoided her over periods of time knowing two things. One that I really liked her, and two, that one day one of us would break it off and I knew deep down it would not be me.
I had a warning sign I was too close once before when she mentioned moving away, and I recall how much it bothered me. Since then I knew the day would come when she would leave, and very likely leave forever. I didn't like that feeling, but I just couldn't resist her and kept up the fun figuring I should enjoy it as much as I can before the inevitable day.
The reality is that she is smart and beautiful, and knows as a provider there is no real future with clients beyond business. Sure some Mongers date girls out of the Spa, but it's rare for a provider and client to become a true couple. They know you're not going to make them your official girlfriend and hang out with them with your friends. They know they'll never meet your family, move in with you, and it's very unlikely a client will marry them and raise a family together. Sure all those things can happen, but not very often. The women in this business know they are forever the hired help. This is one reason the girls rotate between spas, change their names, and sometimes leave altogether. Knowing that clients come and go is why they keep clients at arm's length, and avoid getting emotionally involved. It is wise for clients to take the same approach.
Now that I have fair warning to her departure you can guess I'm selfishly spending as much fun time with her as I realistically can. This of course is to enjoy all her charms before she leaves, but I want to give her extra relocation funds that I know she'll appreciate.
There is some potential joy in the future after she leaves. She has told me I can come visit her, or that if I'm ever in China, I can come see her. Makes me feel good she wants to stay in touch, and makes me feel really good she would like to see me again.
Whether I seen her again someday or never again, I'll always appreciate her and wish her health, happiness, and wealth.
I know you experienced Hobbyists know exactly what I'm talking about. A unicorn will mess with your head and your heart but you'll always be happy you found them.
If you got this far in this post, thanks for reading this sentimental saga. There is a lesson in there somewhere. Oh yea, don't fall in love with a provider.
