[QUOTE=CantB1;3232500]I have been trying to get away from this hobby. I realized I spent more time last year with hookers than I did my real friends and family. Why do I have an SO when I am constantly looking for other places to stick my dick. Who am I kidding I am living a double life. Both lives met a few times but never nothing I couldn't handle.
The man and the monger in me are in a power struggle. When I started in this hobby monger me started bullying the man in me. After a while the man just stayed out of the monger's way. This year the man in me has decided to put up a fight. I've decided to give the SO her walking papers. She can't be who I want to be with if I spend so much time looking elsewhere. We mongers say how these providers are thieves, liars and not trust worthy. Then we still time from our lives to creep with them same ladies.
I read more BP ads than I did books or magazines.
Mongers are pay a pretty penny for hookers I got for cheap or free. I did a BP tour last month as a XXXmas gift to myself. I was able to see 5 newbie BP girls that were around a very short time. I think members would have loved to been able to sample them. All were young a fresh to the game. I didn't review them because I didn't want to open the flood gates. BP is a toxic. The fast money is inspiring and the lifestyle is damaging young ladies. With the lose of so many girls this past year I don't feel too good about my contribution. The saddest part is that some of them may have lived if the low lifes around them were prompt in trying to save a life instead of worrying about getting caught up. They letting girls go for days without seeking medical attention. And dropping these girls bodies off on the side of the road instead of calling rescue. They don't want the police in their mix. But what they don't know is the Good Samaritan Law keeps them from having worry about their involvedment. It even keeps them from getting arrested for possession when the cops arrive. The medics only ask questions. Police write it off when it's a drug overdose. They ask no questions. I found myself in one of those situations last year. This law is good for mongers to know too. How many times have we read a review of a provider being in the bathroom for a long of time during a date. No telling what any of these girls have taken before you go into their rooms. Providers seem to have two alternate fates. Jail or death.
I haven't done much P4 P the past month or so. I have yet to feel the urge to hunt SWans. And that was a big rush for me. But what I forgot about is how much more of a rush it is to spend money to be with a lady that doesn't have to get high to feel normal. The majority of Jax providers are heroin addicts. That drug makes slaves to it. This hobby can also if you get in too deep. But I have been trying dig myself out of it. So far, so good.
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I probably won't be doing too many reviews if any in the future. But I will be sharing a few stories from my monger life. I will try not to burn any bridges. If I do torch one then so be it.[/QUOTE]I can relate to much of what you said, been there done that. I actually took time off a while back and tried to live the straight life, steady girlfriend, concentrating on working hard every day. But "the life" has a strong allure and I found myself dreaming of young pussy again, before you know it there was no girlfriend and I was back fucking young providers with a vengeance. It's a very tough demon to control and I must admit I didn't do a very good job of it last year. I very much like your analogy of monger vs the man inside, though these two beings are not mutually exclusive. Both can and do exist in close proximity to one another. The man and the monger are one in the same, it's what the man decides to do that's determines how you will live your life. You can control the monger with in but doing so requires extreme determination and will power. Good luck and remember, it's one day at a time and falling off the wagon doesn't mean you've fallen off the cliff. JD.
