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[QUOTE=Member #3973; 1354566]But, it appears to me that if a customer gets busted and convicted a third time it is now a felony:

[url]http://www.capitol.hawaii.gov/hrscurrent/Vol14_Ch0701-0853/HRS0712/HRS_0712-1209_0005.htm[/url]

AMPs are the least likely place to get in trouble. I have never heard about any AMP customers getting busted in HNL at least. Personally, I stay away from SWs and BP-ads.[/QUOTE]I missed that one but three times in ten years would be a stretch considering how tough it would be to set up the reverse sting as detailed by our visitor from mainland.

[QUOTE=FunTrust; 1354495]View from the mainland. I have heard of two reverse stings. First was at an Asian AAMP in Costa Mesa. 15 yrs ago, a city with tons of AMPs. They turned the MS, and she set up the customer with voice / wire and got for solicitation. Why they went to the trouble I don't know, as it the area there were other AMPs over the years.

The other was in the last two years in Fountain Valley, a city not tolerant of any funny business. They replaced the whole staff with decoys, both Asian and white for a few days and got about 10 mongers. They were sending a big message, be very low key.[/QUOTE]Hopefully our local LE would not go to this kind of trouble. Notice this was 15 and 2 years ago and in different jurisdictions, hardly frequently. It also sounds like there may have been some other agenda in the Costa Mesa case. I really think there is some kind of tacit tolerance of AMP's in our Vice Div."Out of sight is out of mind."

I agree that reverse stings in AMPs are very rare. Mostly the activity in AMPs are fairly discreet and does not offend the public. The commentary in the law seems to acknowledge that:

[url]http://www.capitol.hawaii.gov/hrscurrent/Vol14_Ch0701-0853/HRS0712/HRS_0712-1200.htm[/url]

Most LE activity is targeting streetwalkers since they are offending people who lives in the neighborhoods where they operate.

[QUOTE=Ocolumbo; 1354501]When my reservoir is full, meaning I have not busted a nut for 5, 6, or 7 days, it is very hard to have stamina. And if I don't want to beat off and I am not getting freebie, it is not as much fun going to AMPs once a week or once every two weeks and come prematurely or quickly. Does anyone have any suggestions in fixing this problem. I have to take the pill on an empty stomach anyway. Would stronger dosage on a really empty stomach make a difference?

Thanks[/QUOTE]If you are having stamina problems it is your body telling you that you are out of shape. In fact it is because you have a bad heart. Probably one of the reasons you have to take Viagra in the first place. The only thing that will increase your stamina is to improve your overall health and exercise. Of course people don't want to hear that because improving your overall health requires hard work and discipline. Lazy people would just rather pop a pill. Do a lot of aerobic and anerobic exercises at least 3-4 times a week and your stamina will improve guaranteed. Stay away from fast food and greasy local food also. Eat a high protein high fiber, low saturated fat / low cholesterol diet and your stamina will improve. But most of all exercise. Nothing has increased my stamina more than exercising. Nothing, no drugs, no ripoff supplements, no beating off before etc. In fact I am the exact opposite of Hypo. I last way way longer when I don't beat off before I go to the AMP.

Not trying to lecture you or anything but it is just the facts that your doctor or urologist (who prescribed your Viagra) will / should eventually tell you. If your doctor doesn't tell you these things you should replace him / her.

Good Luck.

[QUOTE=Mipene77; 1354750]If you are having stamina problems it is your body telling you that you are out of shape. In fact it is because you have a bad heart. Probably one of the reasons you have to take Viagra in the first place.

Hmmmm I just had to comment on this. I sometimes have this problem as well of not lasting long enough in my books. Alcohol (excessive amounts) and beating off seem to be be the only things that help this. Beating it before seeing a provider however has back fired on me a few times though in me losing interest and start thinking with my real head.

Anyhow back to the out of shape part. I am not out of shape. In fact I do excersise almost everyday. My regimen includes surfing (as big waves Hawaii can offer) , crossfit, and yoga. I just did the marathon without running more than 8 miles the entire year and finished it in 5hours. I'm not saying all this to boast or anything like that, I'm just giving you my background. I feel that my mind is strong and most times I get caught up in the moment and get too excited, splat. Other than that I've been trying those kegal excersises out only time will tell.

Be safe all.

Phil-

[QUOTE=Mipene77; 1354750]If you are having stamina problems it is your body telling you that you are out of shape. In fact it is because you have a bad heart. Probably one of the reasons you have to take Viagra in the first place. The only thing that will increase your stamina is to improve your overall health and exercise. Of course people don't want to hear that because improving your overall health requires hard work and discipline. Lazy people would just rather pop a pill. Do a lot of aerobic and anerobic exercises at least 3-4 times a week and your stamina will improve guaranteed. Stay away from fast food and greasy local food also. Eat a high protein high fiber, low saturated fat / low cholesterol diet and your stamina will improve. But most of all exercise. Nothing has increased my stamina more than exercising. Nothing, no drugs, no ripoff supplements, no beating off before etc. In fact I am the exact opposite of Hypo. I last way way longer when I don't beat off before I go to the AMP.

Not trying to lecture you or anything but it is just the facts that your doctor or urologist (who prescribed your Viagra) will / should eventually tell you. If your doctor doesn't tell you these things you should replace him / her.

Good Luck.[/QUOTE]Are you referring to fitness relating to being able to get hard and needing viagra, or stamina not to pop quickly? Because I can tell you that I have been supremely fit at various times, and still had problems lasting long. Age has seemed to have tempered that significantly as I last much, much longer now. Anyway, I could see fitness relating to ability to get and maintain erections, but personally haven't seen it affect the stamina issue.

[QUOTE=Hypo Luxa; 1354593]I never go anywhere "loaded" unless it is with a provider with guaranteed multiple shots. Usually "prepping" myself once or twice before seeing a provider does the trick. But two providers have actually shot that to Hell. Every time I used to see Choi at Kool's, she'd milk me quick! Something about her makes me pop no matter what. And more recently Viet Lily. I prepped "three" times throughout the day before seeing her last week and she still made me pop twice in 30 minutes!

Why are you not willing to beat off before going? For me, except where noted above, it has been bullet proof preparation! Sooooo glad I don't use alcohol anymore like I used to.[/QUOTE]Have not beat off since started mongering. Not once. Not going to do it. If I did I won't be able to pop off again the same day. Even as a younger man I could not pop off more than once a day.

Don't know Choi or Kool's. Don't know KB. But this reference piques my interest.

There is some special magic to Viet Lily at Roses. I have to admit. But I am concerned. She seems to be very cavalier about BBFSCIP. Other providers with whom I have done that were very concerned about cleaning up or using spermicide very quickly after exposure. Viet Lily did not seem to have this urgency. I am not sure why.

[QUOTE=Mipene77; 1354750]If you are having stamina problems it is your body telling you that you are out of shape. In fact it is because you have a bad heart. Probably one of the reasons you have to take Viagra in the first place. The only thing that will increase your stamina is to improve your overall health and exercise. Of course people don't want to hear that because improving your overall health requires hard work and discipline. Lazy people would just rather pop a pill. Do a lot of aerobic and anerobic exercises at least 3-4 times a week and your stamina will improve guaranteed. Stay away from fast food and greasy local food also. Eat a high protein high fiber, low saturated fat / low cholesterol diet and your stamina will improve. But most of all exercise. Nothing has increased my stamina more than exercising. Nothing, no drugs, no ripoff supplements, no beating off before etc. In fact I am the exact opposite of Hypo. I last way way longer when I don't beat off before I go to the AMP.

Not trying to lecture you or anything but it is just the facts that your doctor or urologist (who prescribed your Viagra) will / should eventually tell you. If your doctor doesn't tell you these things you should replace him / her.

Good Luck.[/QUOTE]I have been exercising. Lost 15 lbs before mongering and another 15 lbs since started mongering. Been lifting weights and gotten into good muscular shape better than anytime in the last ten years. Providers have noticed and made flattering comments. All a middle age man can hope for. But I get your point especially when I have trouble doing aerobic and cardio exericse. Just cannot do cardio like I did as a younger man. Probably some heart / lung problem. Once in a while I get irregular heartbeats. Medical stress tests on the heart don't show much. But I get winded quickly. Can walk briskly on the treadmill at the gym but really cannot run and don't even try. Just cannot do spinning bike classes the way other people can. I guess they are as good an indication of cardiovascular fitness or lack there of that would have consequences on ED, if not on stamina. Taking the fake viagra on an empty stomach takes care of the ED problem. Mongering sessions on consecutive days or with few days in between will normally allow for acceptable stamina. But I am projecting for this year with longer streches between mongering sessions and I worry about coming to soon.

I wish I had started mongering decades ago. I just was not aware of the option. I thought streetwalkers were the only option. And with the exception of a couple encounters in the early 90s with streetwalkers in Waikiki done through a drunken haze that were not fulfulling, I did not try again. And I did not go to KBs. Had I been aware of the AMPs option and its predecessors in the 00s. 90s and before, the course of my life, not just sex life, would have been very different. Certainly the motivation to earn more money to sustain a mongering habit would have affected educational and career choices and paths in a productive way. And there would have been self-control and discipline accrued over time and tempered with other activities and temptations that younger people had. There would have been alcohol. There would not have been viagra. For the life of me I just did not get the information about AMPs from a few hints friends dropped that would have led to more inquiry and investigation of AMPs five, ten, and fifteen years ago.

The reality is late introduction to mongering, timed coincidentally with midlife crisis, led to a mongering binge that has led to financial distress. I could have had a blast with a small fraction of mongering that I did, but I did not control myself. And the realization of an addiction has come only when the financial distress could no longer be ignored. Some friends privy to what was going on tried halfheartedly to talk sense into me, but I did not listen as I should have in the beginning. I felt that I needed to catch up. The fun was just too great. I had viagra. I had quit drinking and golf and started working out to gain confidence. I thought I would cut back next week or next month, and I can binge now. And next week and next month would be put off and put off again as long as there were immediate funds to play. And now with the reality of a broken piggy bank and the realization of an addiction, I am thinking along the lines of budgeting mongering. This may work, but most likely just more dysfunctional rationalization. Most likely I would have to abstain for a period of time so the urges are completely gone and I finally get a good grip on my affairs, financial and otherwise, that have been badly affected by binge mongering. There really is no other way, is there? There is nothing else counseling or therapy could tell me that would work, is there?

I wish I had listened to others on the board and not do repeats more than a couple of times max with any given provider. Fuck them and run. Move on. As others have said, the whole point of mongering is to avoid mind games and strings attachment that plague real relationships. How ironic and self destructive, then, would it be to look for connections with the pros beyond the transient pleasure of renting for the hour in a business transaction? Only someone who is pathetic and emotionally vulnerable would fall prey to the smoke and mirrors of the AMPs girls and their marketing. Repeats are a double edged sword. Both parties may benefit from rapport and discount, but the risk of feelings coming into play gets higher and higher as time goes on, despite best intentions from both sides.

The reality is that I did an insane number of sessions with the ATF of the ATFs. The one I was with the very first time at an AMP and who gave me big discount to come back to see her. Yes, there may have been some comfort and rapport that led to the discount and my using the discount. Regardless, the sheer number of encounters with one provider led to lines being crossed in the business relationship. I became emotionally involved. I thought we were friends and would be friends outside of business and after business would be over. Found out after nine good months that we really were not friends. I was just a customer and a wallet. Then the business relationship blew up in the most rediculous kind of way involving a misunderstanding with another woman in the same AMP. Lack of communication led to a series of further misunderstandings and hurtful messages that could not be retracted. And despite my last ditch effort to salvage the business relationship, I am 86ed. I can think of ten reasons why the ending of this relationship now is a blessing in disguise, but they do not ameliorate the acutal hurt and regret and pain and scarring. This relationship should have never happened, happened the way it did, or ended the way it did, much worse than it had to be.

When I first stared mongering I was all concerned about bogus issues there were exaggerated or never came to pass, like LE raids, trafficking and coercion via organized crime, the passage of HB-240 into law. The real issue all along was in my head but I ignored it. How to monger in a fiscally and emotionally responsible manner? The binge happened. The emotional attachment and scarring happened. Cannot go back and change. Just got to learn from my mistakes and go forward, and hope that the fiscal damage would not be permanent. Hopefully I do not have to go without for long to learn discipline and budgeting and can partake what is available in Honolulu for many years to come

[QUOTE=Hypo Luxa;1354806]Are you referring to fitness relating to being able to get hard and needing viagra, or stamina not to pop quickly? Because I can tell you that I have been supremely fit at various times, and still had problems lasting long. Age has seemed to have tempered that significantly as I last much, much longer now. Anyway, I could see fitness relating to ability to get and maintain erections, but personally haven't seen it affect the stamina issue.[/QUOTE]Actually I have been doing a lot of reading and research about sexual performance lately especially since I have gotten older. Sex is actually another form of exercise. You can actually burn a lot of calories during a vigorous sex session. And sex is believe it or not considered an aerobic exercise. Therefore your heart and your blood vessels in your body need to be in good condition. Especially the blood vessels in your penis. I have also read from many sources that the simple fact that a man needs Viagra is usually the first sign of heart disease. Now granted that research is not conclusive but still it is something to be concerned about. I have also read that as you age (40 and greater) your testosterone levels drop 3-5 percent or more per year. Lower testosterone also leads to decreased stamina. I have discovered that two exercises in particular have increased my stamina dramatically. Those two exercises are Squats and Deadlifts. And I don't mean just a few, I mean a lot. When I do squats I use over 250 lbs and I deadlift over 300 lbs. I do five sets of 20 reps each. I do these every week at least twice a weak. Nothing makes my heart beat faster and nothing increases my testosterone levels better. The next day I feel like screwing everything my "T" is so high. Another good idea is to do the same exercises those UFC guys do. Try going five rounds of grappling and you will see what I mean. That takes a good heart. Of course another thing that really helped me was staying away from the standard American diet (SAD). I never eat plate lunches and I eat a lot of fish / fruit and vegetables and a lot of oatmeal. I never never do Mcdonalds / Burger King etc etc. Those places are guaranteed artery cloggers.

Your blood vessels / veins in your heart and penis are just like any other hose. It is all about blood flow. If the hose (your veins) is all clogged up with fat and cholesterol then it makes it harder to keep up the blood flow and maintain an erection. That is why young guys do not need Viagra. They don't have enough accumulated crap in their arteries as we older guys do. It is that accumulated crap that lowers the blood flow and makes it hard for us old guys to keep an erection and maintain that stamina.

I see a urulogist every year whether I need it or not and he has told me the same things that I just wrote above. In fact I have gotten more than one urologists opinion on this. They see enough guys everyday to know. Stamina is related to your cardio conditioning. Cardio conditioning is not directly related to how muscular you are though. You can be very muscular looking and still be in bad cardio condition. So don't let those nice six pack abs and bulging pecs fool you.

Hypo, I would recommend just seeing a urologist to answer your questions specifically. I was a little "embarrassed" the first time I saw one but I am really glad I did. Now so far I am lucky and I don't need Viagra but he told me that one day I will, eventually. As all men will. Getting old sucks!

[QUOTE=Mipene77;1355175]Hypo, I would recommend just seeing a urologist to answer your questions specifically. I was a little "embarrassed" the first time I saw one but I am really glad I did. Now so far I am lucky and I don't need Viagra but he told me that one day I will, eventually. As all men will. Getting old sucks![/QUOTE]Well, as it is now, in the last few years or so my stamina has gone up to where I am very controlled. No issue anymore. It's only been a certain girl or two that make me blow early! But on the plus side, I still haven't lost my ability to have multiple (sometimes up to 5 or 6 a night) pops and have no problem getting, or in some cases "staying" hard after I cum and can keep going.

On my recent trip to the Philippines, I would have all night sex sessions where I'd pop a minimum of six times. I'd do it over again the next night and the next. I have to report it. Four of the girls allowed for pictures!

Anyway, thanks for the info, but for now at least, no problems for me.

[QUOTE=Mipene77; 1355175]Actually I have been doing a lot of reading and research about sexual performance lately especially since I have gotten older. Sex is actually another form of exercise. You can actually burn a lot of calories during a vigorous sex session. And sex is believe it or not considered an aerobic exercise. Therefore your heart and your blood vessels in your body need to be in good condition. Especially the blood vessels in your penis. I have also read from many sources that the simple fact that a man needs Viagra is usually the first sign of heart disease. Now granted that research is not conclusive but still it is something to be concerned about. I have also read that as you age (40 and greater) your testosterone levels drop 3-5 percent or more per year. Lower testosterone also leads to decreased stamina. I have discovered that two exercises in particular have increased my stamina dramatically. Those two exercises are Squats and Deadlifts. And I don't mean just a few, I mean a lot. When I do squats I use over 250 lbs and I deadlift over 300 lbs. I do five sets of 20 reps each. I do these every week at least twice a weak. Nothing makes my heart beat faster and nothing increases my testosterone levels better. The next day I feel like screwing everything my "T" is so high. Another good idea is to do the same exercises those UFC guys do. Try going five rounds of grappling and you will see what I mean. That takes a good heart. Of course another thing that really helped me was staying away from the standard American diet (SAD). I never eat plate lunches and I eat a lot of fish / fruit and vegetables and a lot of oatmeal. I never never do Mcdonalds / Burger King etc etc. Those places are guaranteed artery cloggers.

Your blood vessels / veins in your heart and penis are just like any other hose. It is all about blood flow. If the hose (your veins) is all clogged up with fat and cholesterol then it makes it harder to keep up the blood flow and maintain an erection. That is why young guys do not need Viagra. They don't have enough accumulated crap in their arteries as we older guys do. It is that accumulated crap that lowers the blood flow and makes it hard for us old guys to keep an erection and maintain that stamina.

I see a urulogist every year whether I need it or not and he has told me the same things that I just wrote above. In fact I have gotten more than one urologists opinion on this. They see enough guys everyday to know. Stamina is related to your cardio conditioning. Cardio conditioning is not directly related to how muscular you are though. You can be very muscular looking and still be in bad cardio condition. So don't let those nice six pack abs and bulging pecs fool you.

Hypo, I would recommend just seeing a urologist to answer your questions specifically. I was a little "embarrassed" the first time I saw one but I am really glad I did. Now so far I am lucky and I don't need Viagra but he told me that one day I will, eventually. As all men will. Getting old sucks![/QUOTE]Probably a stretch for me to start doing squats much less deadlifts. They just have never been part of my lifting routines. Genetically, I am built with strong lower body and weak upperbody bone structure wise. Always easier for me to build muscles on the legs than on chest and arms. So, I have neglected legs in favor of upperbody over the years. But once in a while I would do a full circuit of the leg machines. I suppose the leg presses would be the closest thing to the squats and their benefits. I am taking choleterol medication and the numbers look ok now. There is nothing I would like more than be able to do hard cardio, but I am afraid of killing myself in the process. But I may kill myself quicker if I did not try. LOL.

When you say 5 sets of 20 reps each, do you mean 5 sets of squats with 250lbs each working set and then 5 sets of deadlifts with 300lbs each working set for 10 total sets? A total of 200 reps with that kind of heavy weights? Even at my heaviest (weighing about 260lbs) I don't think I could have done that kind of workout! That is a very impressive combination of both strength and endurance for anybody. I agree with you about junk food in theory, but I am a junk food addict. I rather give up pussy then plate lunches and fast food (not forever mind you, but for extended periods of time).

[QUOTE=Mipene77; 1355175]Those two exercises are Squats and Deadlifts. And I don't mean just a few, I mean a lot. When I do squats I use over 250 lbs and I deadlift over 300 lbs. I do five sets of 20 reps each. I do these every week at least twice a weak. Nothing makes my heart beat faster and nothing increases my testosterone levels better. The next day I feel like screwing everything my "T" is so high.[/QUOTE]

Drove by paradise the other day and noticed a few aggressive for sale signs. Does anyone have intel if penny sells where she might end up? Is she retiring?

[QUOTE=Hilifter37;1355401]When you say 5 sets of 20 reps each, do you mean 5 sets of squats with 250lbs each working set and then 5 sets of deadlifts with 300lbs each working set for 10 total sets? A total of 200 reps with that kind of heavy weights? Even at my heaviest (weighing about 260lbs) I don't think I could have done that kind of workout! That is a very impressive combination of both strength and endurance for anybody. I agree with you about junk food in theory, but I am a junk food addict. I rather give up pussy then plate lunches and fast food (not forever mind you, but for extended periods of time).[/QUOTE]Yep that is what I do. It takes me about two hours to do the whole routine. Of course it took me years to get there. Actually that is nothing. You should watch videos of what some of the UFC guys do for cardio training. Remember Rick Franklin of the UFC? His workout routines went on for 5-6 hours per day in 2 hour sets. Arnold (my hero) use to work out 3 times a day everyday at 2+ hour intervals. Your body can do it if your mind is strong. I am super disciplined. That is why I can trade for a living and not have to depend on a "job". Because I am disciplined. Life takes discipline. It is all in the mind. If your mind says no your body says no. My mind always says yes. Simple enough.

Of course, dealing with women, a strong mind can actually work against you. Especially strong minded Amercan women (beeaches!). That is why I bang Asian girls.

[QUOTE=Ocolumbo; 1355066]I wish I had started mongering decades ago. I just was not aware of the option. I thought streetwalkers were the only option. And with the exception of a couple encounters in the early 90s with streetwalkers in Waikiki done through a drunken haze that were not fulfulling, I did not try again. And I did not go to KBs. Had I been aware of the AMPs option and its predecessors in the 00s. 90s and before, the course of my life, not just sex life, would have been very different. Certainly the motivation to earn more money to sustain a mongering habit would have affected educational and career choices and paths in a productive way. And there would have been self-control and discipline accrued over time and tempered with other activities and temptations that younger people had. There would have been alcohol. There would not have been viagra. For the life of me I just did not get the information about AMPs from a few hints friends dropped that would have led to more inquiry and investigation of AMPs five, ten, and fifteen years ago.

The reality is late introduction to mongering, timed coincidentally with midlife crisis, led to a mongering binge that has led to financial distress. I could have had a blast with a small fraction of mongering that I did, but I did not control myself. And the realization of an addiction has come only when the financial distress could no longer be ignored. Some friends privy to what was going on tried halfheartedly to talk sense into me, but I did not listen as I should have in the beginning. I felt that I needed to catch up. The fun was just too great. I had viagra. I had quit drinking and golf and started working out to gain confidence. I thought I would cut back next week or next month, and I can binge now. And next week and next month would be put off and put off again as long as there were immediate funds to play. And now with the reality of a broken piggy bank and the realization of an addiction, I am thinking along the lines of budgeting mongering. This may work, but most likely just more dysfunctional rationalization. Most likely I would have to abstain for a period of time so the urges are completely gone and I finally get a good grip on my affairs, financial and otherwise, that have been badly affected by binge mongering. There really is no other way, is there? There is nothing else counseling or therapy could tell me that would work, is there?

I wish I had listened to others on the board and not do repeats more than a couple of times max with any given provider. Fuck them and run. Move on. As others have said, the whole point of mongering is to avoid mind games and strings attachment that plague real relationships. How ironic and self destructive, then, would it be to look for connections with the pros beyond the transient pleasure of renting for the hour in a business transaction? Only someone who is pathetic and emotionally vulnerable would fall prey to the smoke and mirrors of the AMPs girls and their marketing. Repeats are a double edged sword. Both parties may benefit from rapport and discount, but the risk of feelings coming into play gets higher and higher as time goes on, despite best intentions from both sides.

The reality is that I did an insane number of sessions with the ATF of the ATFs. The one I was with the very first time at an AMP and who gave me big discount to come back to see her. Yes, there may have been some comfort and rapport that led to the discount and my using the discount. Regardless, the sheer number of encounters with one provider led to lines being crossed in the business relationship. I became emotionally involved. I thought we were friends and would be friends outside of business and after business would be over. Found out after nine good months that we really were not friends. I was just a customer and a wallet. Then the business relationship blew up in the most rediculous kind of way involving a misunderstanding with another woman in the same AMP. Lack of communication led to a series of further misunderstandings and hurtful messages that could not be retracted. And despite my last ditch effort to salvage the business relationship, I am 86ed. I can think of ten reasons why the ending of this relationship now is a blessing in disguise, but they do not ameliorate the acutal hurt and regret and pain and scarring. This relationship should have never happened, happened the way it did, or ended the way it did, much worse than it had to be.

When I first stared mongering I was all concerned about bogus issues there were exaggerated or never came to pass, like LE raids, trafficking and coercion via organized crime, the passage of HB-240 into law. The real issue all along was in my head but I ignored it. How to monger in a fiscally and emotionally responsible manner? The binge happened. The emotional attachment and scarring happened. Cannot go back and change. Just got to learn from my mistakes and go forward, and hope that the fiscal damage would not be permanent. Hopefully I do not have to go without for long to learn discipline and budgeting and can partake what is available in Honolulu for many years to come[/QUOTE]Hey Mr. Ocolumbo-

Man that was pretty HEAVY & PROFOUND! (and DEEP too!)

I have pretty much enjoyed your posts and can always relate to your topics, well just like alll the other posters, except for a few wacky one (Hi Playboy54, Excellent Dud). Sorry for the rambling.

It seems that almost everyone goes thru those times, especially in the beginning, when the small head has completely taken control. Then as time goes on then, and things happen, then the head (the big one starts thinking clearer).

As my father always said- "The truth will set you free"

Then you will be divorced from you SO, break-up w / GF whichever the case may be, poorer in your pockets but rich and wise in expericence.

Just my 2 cents.