Rants and Raves plus Stupid Shit

[QUOTE=WillJohnson;7609903]I understand, but what attempts have you tried at finding a regular girlfriend? Have you tried dating apps or any of the other sites? I get your joke about finding out about providers the "hard way. ".[/QUOTE]Don't get me going on dating apps. They fail and cause more stress and feelings of hopelessness. The ratio of girls to guys is imbalanced and you get no responses. Message 200 girls and your lucky it you get one response. I did an experiment once and made a fake dating profile posing an attractive female and right away I had 20 guys hitting on me. This confirmed my theory as the gender ratio is imbalanced with too much competition from other guys and females being overwhelmed by their messages. Then in turn guys get no responses from girls leading to further anger and hopelessness. Dating apps are incel factories in my opinion.

I was doing well until my fallout with Jackie after her boyfriend threatened me.

Not just Jackie I had another utr named Tara who also did me dirty. She had ended up in the hospital at Albany Med and was letting me do dates with her in her hospice room using take out food as payment. Like many others Tara played me by telling me she wanted to be my girlfriend. She even presented me as her boyfriend visiting to her nurses and doctors. After being discharged, she Dickey's me into giving her a ride to drug rehab center in Vermont under the false promise that she will see me for dates at her rehab center (like we were at Albany Med). Of course I should have known better that dates are not possible in drug rehab. But I fell for it and as soon as I drop her at rehab, her phone goes off and she's gone. I didn't even make back to New York before o cried having to call mental crisis and spent next few weeks in emotional wreck over this.

Now I'm in limbo and to move fwd, I want a new regular provide to replace Jackie and Tara and thus asking for help.

[QUOTE=Bagboy87;7609946]Don't get me going on dating apps. They fail and cause more stress and feelings of hopelessness. The ratio of girls to guys is imbalanced and you get no responses. Message 200 girls and your lucky it you get one response. I did an experiment once and made a fake dating profile posing an attractive female and right away I had 20 guys hitting on me. This confirmed my theory as the gender ratio is imbalanced with too much competition from other guys and females being overwhelmed by their messages. Then in turn guys get no responses from girls leading to further anger and hopelessness. Dating apps are incel factories in my opinion.

I was doing well until my fallout with Jackie after her boyfriend threatened me.

Not just Jackie I had another utr named Tara who also did me dirty. She had ended up in the hospital at Albany Med and was letting me do dates with her in her hospice room using take out food as payment. Like many others Tara played me by telling me she wanted to be my girlfriend. She even presented me as her boyfriend visiting to her nurses and doctors. After being discharged, she Dickey's me into giving her a ride to drug rehab center in Vermont under the false promise that she will see me for dates at her rehab center (like we were at Albany Med). Of course I should have known better that dates are not possible in drug rehab. But I fell for it and as soon as I drop her at rehab, her phone goes off and she's gone. I didn't even make back to New York before o cried having to call mental crisis and spent next few weeks in emotional wreck over this.

Now I'm in limbo and to move fwd, I want a new regular provide to replace Jackie and Tara and thus asking for help.[/QUOTE]I know this does not help, but when someone goes into a rehab, they cannot use their own cell phone - 'her phone goes off'. The best they can do, is sign up on a scheduled call list to use a monitored phone.

[QUOTE=TonyTF;7610179]I know this does not help, but when someone goes into a rehab, they cannot use their own cell phone - 'her phone goes off'. The best they can do, is sign up on a scheduled call list to use a monitored phone.[/QUOTE]I know this now but at the time I did not. Tara was well aware of this and maliciously lied to me. She's someone who's a pathological liar and has done similar stuff in the past. Oh and the story doesn't end there, after she got out of rehab she lied saying she conjugal visits used to be allowed, but they changed the rules and she did not know. All a bunch of crap lies.

Other mongers in the past have claimed I've ruined providers lives. Well they failed to take in mind stuff like this is what causes me to go off and do so. I don't just attack providers for no reason, each one of them did something to cause it (like long time ago Violet suckered me into sending her $300 for airfare under a false promise to visit me) and now this.

[QUOTE=Bagboy87;7609946]Don't get me going on dating apps. They fail and cause more stress and feelings of hopelessness. The ratio of girls to guys is imbalanced and you get no responses. Message 200 girls and your lucky it you get one response. I did an experiment once and made a fake dating profile posing an attractive female and right away I had 20 guys hitting on me. This confirmed my theory as the gender ratio is imbalanced with too much competition from other guys and females being overwhelmed by their messages. Then in turn guys get no responses from girls leading to further anger and hopelessness. Dating apps are incel factories in my opinion.

I was doing well until my fallout with Jackie after her boyfriend threatened me.

Not just Jackie I had another utr named Tara who also did me dirty. She had ended up in the hospital at Albany Med and was letting me do dates with her in her hospice room using take out food as payment. Like many others Tara played me by telling me she wanted to be my girlfriend. She even presented me as her boyfriend visiting to her nurses and doctors. After being discharged, she Dickey's me into giving her a ride to drug rehab center in Vermont under the false promise that she will see me for dates at her rehab center (like we were at Albany Med). Of course I should have known better that dates are not possible in drug rehab. But I fell for it and as soon as I drop her at rehab, her phone goes off and she's gone. I didn't even make back to New York before o cried having to call mental crisis and spent next few weeks in emotional wreck over this.

Now I'm in limbo and to move fwd, I want a new regular provide to replace Jackie and Tara and thus asking for help.[/QUOTE]I see your point, and yes, rehab is usually in a "lock-down" setting. Right or wrong, they seem to feel it's more effective that way. And I get what you're saying about dating apps, but are you sure that it's not the posting that you make that might be off-putting? Have you tried different profiles with differing emphases, to see how they perform? And of course, past online sites, have you tried any more interactive, interpersonal approaches, finding avenues for social interaction with people in traditional settings, outside activities, non-work-related pursuits, etc. ?

I was a late bloomer. Didn't lose my virginity (really) until my early 20's. My buddies even bought me three different walkers while on road trips- which I was usually too drunk to get it up. A point in my life, I stopped giving a crap and would just start conversations while ensuring I wasn't coming right out and hitting on them, and then I'd walk away. I started making it a game, a challenge AND having fun while I did it- up-beat, confident, not giving a shit- the BANG- I was getting laid! They key is don't give a shit and have fun with it! My brother is two years older than me (65) and he's still gawking at them all, falling in love at first site, tripping over himself- I swear he is still a virgin.

These are two separate issues. Me wanting a girlfriend and me wanting a reliable regular. I've already accepted I'll never have a girlfriend and at least I've had this hobby to cope. But now I'm struggling where I am trying to find a new reliable regular. You noticed I disappeared for a while, that's because I had reliable regulars. When I find myself in limbo, I come back.

The other issue I'm having is finding a reliable regular who engages in BBFS / cip. Since nobody will help me, I guess as usual I'll have to do it on my own and take my chances. I'll hit up every girl on STG knowing I risk getting robbed or caught in police sting (all could be avoided if someone pointed out which providers are good). And in my mental state, if I get robbed, it won't be good. I might try to fight back or refuse to leave forcing the provider to call LEO.

Also on a different note, my former UTR Tara (the one who had me give her ride to drug rehab promising dates there then screwed me over) - she had let me take a nude video of her. To get revenge I shared her nude video with her friends and family and was considering posting it on pornhub. Could I get in trouble for that?

[QUOTE=GoneFishing;7610754]I was a late bloomer. Didn't lose my virginity (really) until my early 20's. My buddies even bought me three different walkers while on road trips- which I was usually too drunk to get it up. A point in my life, I stopped giving a crap and would just start conversations while ensuring I wasn't coming right out and hitting on them, and then I'd walk away. I started making it a game, a challenge AND having fun while I did it- up-beat, confident, not giving a shit- the BANG- I was getting laid! They key is don't give a shit and have fun with it! My brother is two years older than me (65) and he's still gawking at them all, falling in love at first site, tripping over himself- I swear he is still a virgin.[/QUOTE]Everything you say makes absolute sense to me (other than I have no idea about your brother's continuing virginity).

[QUOTE=Bagboy87;7610890]These are two separate issues. Me wanting a girlfriend and me wanting a reliable regular. I've already accepted I'll never have a girlfriend and at least I've had this hobby to cope. But now I'm struggling where I am trying to find a new reliable regular. You noticed I disappeared for a while, that's because I had reliable regulars. When I find myself in limbo, I come back.

The other issue I'm having is finding a reliable regular who engages in BBFS / cip. Since nobody will help me, I guess as usual I'll have to do it on my own and take my chances. I'll hit up every girl on STG knowing I risk getting robbed or caught in police sting (all could be avoided if someone pointed out which providers are good). And in my mental state, if I get robbed, it won't be good. I might try to fight back or refuse to leave forcing the provider to call LEO.

Also on a different note, my former UTR Tara (the one who had me give her ride to drug rehab promising dates there then screwed me over) - she had let me take a nude video of her. To get revenge I shared her nude video with her friends and family and was considering posting it on pornhub. Could I get in trouble for that?[/QUOTE]My man, there are so many red flags in the behavior you're outlining, there's no way anybody here is going to share their UTR contacts.

[QUOTE=TheDeliveringMonger;7610998]My man, there are so many red flags in the behavior you're outlining, there's no way anybody here is going to share their UTR contacts.[/QUOTE]Geez are all you newbies. This is Bugleboy.

None of you remember me? This is Bugleboy. I had all that drama with Jada. Tootorrid and Scoot used to debate me. Then there was that troll impersonating me making all the peanut butter / dog posts.

If one of you longtime members could maybe fill these newbies in about my past. Just scroll to pages 10-60 in this thread (rants and raves).

I am saying this with all due respect, brother. If you're not yanking our chains, please, get yourself some help.

[QUOTE=Bagboy87;7610890]These are two separate issues. Me wanting a girlfriend and me wanting a reliable regular. I've already accepted I'll never have a girlfriend and at least I've had this hobby to cope. But now I'm struggling where I am trying to find a new reliable regular. You noticed I disappeared for a while, that's because I had reliable regulars. When I find myself in limbo, I come back.

The other issue I'm having is finding a reliable regular who engages in BBFS / cip. Since nobody will help me, I guess as usual I'll have to do it on my own and take my chances. I'll hit up every girl on STG knowing I risk getting robbed or caught in police sting (all could be avoided if someone pointed out which providers are good). And in my mental state, if I get robbed, it won't be good. I might try to fight back or refuse to leave forcing the provider to call LEO.

Also on a different note, my former UTR Tara (the one who had me give her ride to drug rehab promising dates there then screwed me over) - she had let me take a nude video of her. To get revenge I shared her nude video with her friends and family and was considering posting it on pornhub. Could I get in trouble for that?[/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=Bagboy87;7611022]Geez are all you newbies. This is Bugleboy.

None of you remember me? This is Bugleboy. I had all that drama with Jada. Tootorrid and Scoot used to debate me. Then there was that troll impersonating me making all the peanut butter / dog posts.

If one of you longtime members could maybe fill these newbies in about my past. Just scroll to pages 10-60 in this thread (rants and raves).[/QUOTE]Your statements fail to make a point. What is your point? How does it matter what former handles you chose to go by? Most importantly, why should anyone care?

[QUOTE=WillJohnson;7611417]Your statements fail to make a point. What is your point? How does it matter what former handles you chose to go by? Most importantly, why should anyone care?[/QUOTE]His former handle matters because he was previously banned from the site for being an asshole.

[QUOTE=BMoreDog69;7611060]I am saying this with all due respect, brother. If you're not yanking our chains, please, get yourself some help.[/QUOTE]Maybe when you've exhausted all other avenues and your pushing 40 and the only reason your not a virgin is because of this hobby.

You would understand why I've reached my breaking point and snapped. To top things off my bank account isn't the size of Texas so if I get robbed or ripped off by a provider taking what little disposable income I have and then leaving me hopeless and alone. I respond with anger. Fight or flight. Get bullied and battered enough, I chose to fight back. It's like if you continuously beat a dog, eventually the dogs going to turn on you and bite you. That's like me.

[QUOTE=Bagboy87;7611494]Maybe when you've exhausted all other avenues and your pushing 40 and the only reason your not a virgin is because of this hobby.

You would understand why I've reached my breaking point and snapped. To top things off my bank account isn't the size of Texas so if I get robbed or ripped off by a provider taking what little disposable income I have and then leaving me hopeless and alone. I respond with anger. Fight or flight. Get bullied and battered enough, I chose to fight back. It's like if you continuously beat a dog, eventually the dogs going to turn on you and bite you. That's like me.[/QUOTE]Who is, or had been, bullying and battering you? Against whom are you then fighting back?

In my limited experience, an abused animal. Dog or otherwise. Doesn't eventually bite the abuser, generally, they just give up, suffer, and accept perishment. I've seen a few animals who were the victims of abuse, horses, dogs; but I've never actually ever abused an animal, or anything else for that matter, other than myself.

Isn't it possible that you've overemphasized the sexual aspects of a successful male / female relationship, and that's why your efforts have failed, inside and outside of this "hobby?" In my time, I've known 4 or 5 providers who chose to marry a client. So it IS possible.

[QUOTE=WillJohnson;7611796]Who is, or had been, bullying and battering you? Against whom are you then fighting back?

In my limited experience, an abused animal. Dog or otherwise. Doesn't eventually bite the abuser, generally, they just give up, suffer, and accept perishment. I've seen a few animals who were the victims of abuse, horses, dogs; but I've never actually ever abused an animal, or anything else for that matter, other than myself.

Isn't it possible that you've overemphasized the sexual aspects of a successful male / female relationship, and that's why your efforts have failed, inside and outside of this "hobby?" In my time, I've known 4 or 5 providers who chose to marry a client. So it IS possible.[/QUOTE]Are you a retard or something? You can't even understand a metaphor and take things literally. Ugh stop wasting my time. I'm no longer going to respond to you. As for solving my problem I am just going to hit up every girl on stg and take my chances.