Happens to us all, at some point
[QUOTE=Mongger;3699914]Appreciate the helpful information but a happy ending remains important in my book.
Today I had a bad experience (my own fault). Went to my normal spot on Golf. Got some great teasing and on the flip things started out very well. For whatever reason, I developed a mental block and couldn't blow a load. It had nothing to do with the MT or her technique. To her credit she kept working but I simply couldn't finish. I even gave her a break and started working it myself but to no avail. After 15 minutes of both her and I trying, I started to lose wood. I wanted to kick the shit out of myself. What the fuck that has never happened to me. I still left the standard 40 because she deserved it. I left pissed off, embarrassed and frustrated. Maybe I'm burning out on the AMP scene.[/QUOTE]Or, welcome to my world!
Definitions: Concern -- finding out for the first time you can't do it the second time. Panic -- finding out for the second time you can't do it the first time.
Seriously, it's OK to beat yourself off, but no need to beat yourself up. . .
This may sound seriously strange, but I see my ATF every week or two and visit many others at alternate times. Sometimes I hope that I don't finish with her; then I go yet somewhere else right after, and almost always complete the mission. With my ATF, I get a lot of emotional satisfaction with her regardless of the outcome. Some years ago I visited a very experienced tantra provider and she showed me that even if I don't have an ejaculation, I can almost always have one or more orgasms first.
By the way, you showed a lot of class (unusual within the overall monger population) when you tipped your provider appropriately. As you said, it wasn't her fault. Most importantly, there is no need to be embarassed about it; it happens!
Don't dwell on it; move on and enjoy.