There's something about Mary
It had been more than a year ago when my SB, named Mary, quit me for about the 5th time, as she was living with her parents and under some kind of surveillance, allegedly. Still, we stayed in touch by email. We had dinner twice and she asked me for money twice; I said "no" and didn't explain why but basically I'm not going to be a platonic SD, I have already too many platonic benefactors. I can barely afford to be a SD anyway, much less platonic! I like her, though, because she is intelligent, complicated, and a little weird like me. I'm a good listener and she likes to talk. Although I didn't explain it to her, I felt like she was a kind of therapy for me.
So I didn't think too much when we had our 3rd dinner in 13 months. But then I knew something was different when she came up to me and kissed me on the lips and hugged me. During dinner she told that she had moved out from her parents, had some random roomates, was struggling in a low-wage job, and was eager to be intimate with me. I guess she needed money and was too scared to place an ad on SD4 M (where I had met her) or SA. So, we've been together for a month now. I'm a little better off financially, having recovered. I'm not as enthusiastic as the first time. She also seems to be more modest and calm this time. I like her, but it won't bother me too much if she ends it again. It either continues on terms I can afford, or it does not. Like the Jim Morrison lyric: the future is uncertain and the end is always near.