Rants and Raves

[QUOTE=DjHunter;7132580]I feel like I'm personally coming to the other side of this addiction, affliction, whatever best defines it. It's been almost a year since I've visited an escort, well over a year since I've received anything more than a HJ, and I can count on one hand the number of SWs I've picked up this year. Do I still find myself circling the loops from time to time? Yes. Can I break myself free from the hypnotic loop circling? Yes, much better than in the past where I could easily circle the loops for hours. I still browse escort sites and I obviously still browse this forum as well, but I don't feel nearly as compelled to act on anything.

It's been a lot of work to get to this point. Therapy, deep introspection, and journaling helped me understand why I do this and why I no longer need to do this is much as I've deluded myself into believing. Also, after a while I was no longer getting what I thought I needed and instead would spiral into immediate post nut depression and worry. I'd fear being caught by my wife, catching something, asking what the fuck I'm doing in a rundown motel with a drug addicted woman I'd probably never interact with otherwise, just all manner of worry and bad thoughts. Before every date, I'd convince myself that I'd partake and pick up the pieces later, but I'd be so disgusted at myself and who I was seeing in the mirror once the date was over.... Yeah. It's a hard road to get to a point where you feel like you have the tools to put this behind you. And that monkey is still on my back, but the difference today is that I now know what is driving the monkey and I don't feel so compelled to feed it.[/QUOTE]You my friend, have hit the nail on the head. Reading this made me feel like the preacher was talking to me at church. What you explained in the 2nd paragraph is exactly how I feel. I am no where near where you are at mentally, I think I'll get there eventually. Maybe. (Shrug).

[QUOTE=FaceDownPro;7134893]You my friend, have hit the nail on the head. Reading this made me feel like the preacher was talking to me at church. What you explained in the 2nd paragraph is exactly how I feel. I am no where near where you are at mentally, I think I'll get there eventually. Maybe. (Shrug).[/QUOTE]Brother I'm glad something I said was helpful. Its been a long, painful fucking journey to get to this point and yet there's so much longer to go. I still fight back urges a lot. The fight is a bit easier now than it was in years past, but its still a fight. However, this whole process kicked off an overarching journey of self reflection which is how I now know that the things I thought I was getting and needing from this hobby was and is a lie. Honestly, I'd suggest to anyone who has regrets about being in this hobby to challenge yourself on what's really behind their desire to participate. What do you think you need from it and what do you want to get out of it? What do you like and dislike about it? Just start asking questions. Get beneath whatever bullshit you've been telling yourself to justify your actions. The answers may not be immediate but slowly reveal themselves over time if you persist. Getting a grip on what got me here really helps.

Anyway, on the rant / rave side of this, the game is increasingly more expensive to boot and the dropoff in quality of ladies since the fall of BPage has been tremendous. All around, its just not as much a worthwhile venture these days. I don't even get the almost equally addicting dopamine hit that would keep me circling the block hoping to find a catch. The thrill just isn't the same.

[QUOTE=DjHunter;7135744]Brother I'm glad something I said was helpful. Its been a long, painful fucking journey to get to this point and yet there's so much longer to go. I still fight back urges a lot. The fight is a bit easier now than it was in years past, but its still a fight. However, this whole process kicked off an overarching journey of self reflection which is how I now know that the things I thought I was getting and needing from this hobby was and is a lie. Honestly, I'd suggest to anyone who has regrets about being in this hobby to challenge yourself on what's really behind their desire to participate. What do you think you need from it and what do you want to get out of it? What do you like and dislike about it? Just start asking questions. Get beneath whatever bullshit you've been telling yourself to justify your actions. The answers may not be immediate but slowly reveal themselves over time if you persist. Getting a grip on what got me here really helps.

Anyway, on the rant / rave side of this, the game is increasingly more expensive to boot and the dropoff in quality of ladies since the fall of BPage has been tremendous. All around, its just not as much a worthwhile venture these days. I don't even get the almost equally addicting dopamine hit that would keep me circling the block hoping to find a catch. The thrill just isn't the same.[/QUOTE]Props to you Dj Hunter for at least recognizing it's a vicious never ending circle until you realize it's sinister addiction. You really do have to invest in other things in life that bring you joy besides pussy.

Not sure what is up with so many doing nipple piercings. They get in the way. I like the suck on the nipples, I don't want to tasting metal in mouth.

[QUOTE=Mpduration;7138230]Not sure what is up with so many doing nipple piercings. They get in the way. I like the suck on the nipples, I don't want to tasting metal in mouth.[/QUOTE]Same as seeing most chicks with the tats between the tits. Prolly trendy among them or some hoe shit. Can’t they take out the piercing tho?

[QUOTE=CollegeParkBoy;7139406]Same as seeing most chicks with the tats between the tits. Prolly trendy among them or some hoe shit. Cant they take out the piercing tho?[/QUOTE]Its painful to put them on. So they just keep them on all the time.

[QUOTE=Dejanero;7136051]Props to you Dj Hunter for at least recognizing it's a vicious never ending circle until you realize it's sinister addiction. You really do have to invest in other things in life that bring you joy besides pussy.[/QUOTE]Treat it like a fishing trip with the boys. Never sure what you might catch. Some gals are moaners, some are groaners but we all know they enjoy our boners. Feed them with some quality bait and they'll make your holidays feel great.

Happy holidays! May your days be merry, bright, and filled with joy! Here's to good times, great memories, and all the festive cheer!

Side note:

I sold some crypto at a gain, which isn't an easy thing to do, but it had to be done because that was the whole purpose.

Preacher man caught hiv going bare and chick didn't tell him she had hiv.

[URL]https://youtu.be/B4kySJcpIP4?si=G5Mp0-HdazvLVrLr[/URL]

[QUOTE=Mpduration;7145694]Preacher man caught hiv going bare and chick didn't tell him she had hiv.

[URL]https://youtu.be/B4kySJcpIP4?si=G5Mp0-HdazvLVrLr[/URL][/QUOTE]Very few men get HIV from bare back sex with women. Per CDC, the risks of getting HIV per 10,000 exposures is:

Receptive anal intercourse:138.

Insertive anal intercourse: 11.

Receptive penile-vaginal intercourse: 8.

Insertive penile-vaginal intercourse: 4.

Receptive oral intercourse: Low.

Insertive oral intercourse Low.

[URL]https://www.cdc.gov/hivpartners/php/riskandprevention/?CDC_AAref_Val=https://www.cdc.gov/hiv/risk/estimates/riskbehaviors.html[/URL]

[QUOTE=Mpduration;7145694]Preacher man caught hiv going bare and chick didn't tell him she had hiv.

[URL]https://youtu.be/B4kySJcpIP4?si=G5Mp0-HdazvLVrLr[/URL][/QUOTE]Made in the USA is important.

Literally made in the USA, not funny business.

Just saying.

[QUOTE=Mpduration;7145694]Preacher man caught hiv going bare and chick didn't tell him she had hiv.

[URL]https://youtu.be/B4kySJcpIP4?si=G5Mp0-HdazvLVrLr[/URL][/QUOTE]While the message is great, and while many, especially in our SW thread need this message, I believe that YouTube Channel, like many others is one that post faux / fake stories for entertainment purposes only. Actually I'm pretty certain.

But on another note, Baltimore in itself has quite a few people with HIV and some girls I know who work as Pharm Techs tell me you would never suspect most of them because they look totally healthy. Not sure how many of is do it, but hey we need to watch our 6's!! As the saying goes, we can laugh now, but when the time comes we can cry later with the one and only one life we have to live.

She post on Listcrawler in the Baltimore area. She has very bad communication when trying to book an appointment. This might be the best thing about her. If you get through all the BS and are able to see her the girl on the room is not the one on the post. That is not completely true. She is the girl but "life" has taken a toll on her. Some "usage" is definitely showing. Body is nothing like the pics anymore. Weight lose and missing teeth. Wish I would have never went. She is staying at a hotel off of resisterstown road. Not the Ramada the other one. So if you know you know. Avoid this one unless you have a thing for the type I described. Only wished someone would have warned me.

[QUOTE=ThatBooredOne;7146920]While the message is great, and while many, especially in our SW thread need this message, I believe that YouTube Channel, like many others is one that post faux / fake stories for entertainment purposes only. Actually I'm pretty certain.

But on another note, Baltimore in itself has quite a few people with HIV and some girls I know who work as Pharm Techs tell me you would never suspect most of them because they look totally healthy. Not sure how many of is do it, but hey we need to watch our 6's!! As the saying goes, we can laugh now, but when the time comes we can cry later with the one and only one life we have to live.[/QUOTE]I was going to post something else, but just for clarity, we were all taught different things before the increase in people, you know, in general. However, I feel displaced about that topic ever loving good good thing because I know (shaking my head, look at the women's profiles; you shall see, no matter the color). But then I remember, you know.

All due respect.

I've drastically cut back on paying for pussy. From seeing a different provider 1 to 2 times a week, to now only seeing one once a month. I was amazed at how much money I saved in making that adjustment and it sickens me to think back on how much money I have spent over the last 15 or so years on pussy, half of which, were not worth my time or money. I typically see ladies that advertise on P411 and through numerous agencies I'm registered with and I'm shocked at how much the prices have skyrocketed. You have providers who want $. 8 who have no reviews, want deposits, have edited pics, their faces blurred out, plus expect you to send them PII as if they have the only vagina in town. I can count on one hand the number of encounters I had on 2024 out of about 40 or so meet ups where I actually thought it was worth it.