Thanks for the feedback gentlemen
[QUOTE=HairyMonger;4699087]Don't beat yourself up for things others have done. We have our own stuff we need to come terms to. Cheers.[/QUOTE]In retrospect I see my post does suggest there's some self-flagellation going on; when truth be told I've either personally experienced or know someone who's experienced the shi**iest aspects of Hobby Life and it hasn't stopped me from coming back for the good sh* If anything, I keep on the lookout for small things I can do to avoid having to see the bad sh** because I know if I see enough of it that's when it's likely my guilt will start to fire up and I will start beating myself up. A buddy of mine who was well known for never leaving a good indulgence alone once told me "[I]Self-awareness has never been a problem for me; self-discipline on the other hand. . . . "[/I]. I know I'm a hobbit / pooner / monger (personally, I prefer the term "[I]Orgasm Enthusiast[/I]") and have no problem being labeled a sexaholic so long as the word functional is used as the preceding modifier. Anyone can be a sexaholic. Being a functional sexaholic, however, is hard f**king work. Earning date money, dealing with flaky girls, keeping everything confidential from the Normals that surround you in your daily life, etc. Etc: it takes mad skills to maintain that over time. For me, I have to also do the little stuff (like the envelope / bathroom charade) as one part of the dance that helps to keep the value of the busted nuts greater than the hassle of keeping burner phones, destroying a career with a single run in with Johnny Law, etc. So far, so good. . . But damned if it can't sometimes be exhausting.
[QUOTE=BodyToBodyBri;4699767]Knowing my soft hearted self, I probably would have covered her loss. I have openly admitted to being a sucker for a story or situation because I hate the thought of other people suffering. While it's true that she should have inspected the envelope prior to doing her job, she was clearly just a little too trusting. And before anyone ask, yes, I apparently have "SUCKER" written all over my face.[/QUOTE]You are not alone, my friend. I've gotten to know a number of providers over time on more than just a P4P level. Each one could name at least 3 or 4 "suckers" they keep in touch with in case they are ever in a bind. Multiply the number of providers that the active participants in this forum see on a regular basis by 3 or 4 and you've got an estimated membership of well over 100 for the Sucker Society's Atlanta Chapter alone. Yours truly is a card carry member as well. The only thing that stopped me from covering the counterfeit loss is that I have had to scale back my benevolence for financial reasons. In the boom times I would have covered the loss, provided a donation for my visit and still had room in my monthly [I]Enthusiasm[/I] budget for enough follow-on visits to keep Mini-Me content. These days when Sucker-Me wants to come out and run the show Mini-Me is there to give him a beat down while looking over his shoulder and reminding me I can't satisfy them both and I can only live without one. And, if that weren't enough he usually starts playing mind games by saying stuff like. . [I]"and she's still making $. Off you, right"[/I] . . . Damn his logic! Damn him to hell!