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[QUOTE=Croppyboy;4243382]Not sure where to put this so I'm throwing it here. Admin, move if needed.

My question: Has anyone tried self milking their prostrate or just self tickling it?

I tried it once but I think that my finger might just be too short. I did not feel anything that was described on a web site.

I did find a few web sites that give advise but a lot of them are geared toward a partner doing it.

If you have done it, what was your experience? Did you use a toy? Was it worth it?

PM if you do not want to go public.

Thanks.

CB.[/QUOTE]I have given it a try with no luck. Even tried with expensive toy. I'm starting to think it is a myth to sell toys. If I ever find a professional provider that knows how to do it I will try that.

[QUOTE=BobSteel;4244718]I have given it a try with no luck. Even tried with expensive toy. I'm starting to think it is a myth to sell toys. If I ever find a professional provider that knows how to do it I will try that.[/QUOTE]If you go to the asian massage place on Capital. It's in the 200's can't remember name or address. It's on top of the hill on the right and there is a State Farm insurance place next to it. They do prostate milking. She broke my cherry there. It was amazing. It took my 3rd time for her to offer it to me, she would put on gloves and lube and do it. Super weird but kind of liked it.

It's not to difficult to find the spot, especially if a girl is doing it to you. It's moreso their willingness to do so. And frankly very few are willing to do it.

[QUOTE=BobSteel;4244718]I have given it a try with no luck. Even tried with expensive toy. I'm starting to think it is a myth to sell toys. If I ever find a professional provider that knows how to do it I will try that.[/QUOTE]

I have to ask because what comes to my mind when you guys mention this is the scene from Road Trip when they're donating sperm and one of them wants to have the hot nurse help him. She proceeds to shove fingers up his ass to make him cum. Is this what it is? It seems a lot of you guys are into this. I don't like my a hole played or touched. I've had my ex try a finger in there during sex when I was about to cum. It made me stop immediately and was very uncomfortable. She then said it's not your thing. Second question is, did you guys get bored of the hobby and thought hey, a finger in my ass might be something I like?. I'm not being funny about this. I'm serious. Am I headed in that direction when this hobby gets old??

[QUOTE=SnowBnnyLvr;4245928]I have to ask because what comes to my mind when you guys mention this is the scene from Road Trip when they're donating sperm and one of them wants to have the hot nurse help him. She proceeds to shove fingers up his ass to make him cum. Is this what it is? It seems a lot of you guys are into this. I don't like my a hole played or touched. I've had my ex try a finger in there during sex when I was about to cum. It made me stop immediately and was very uncomfortable. She then said it's not your thing. Second question is, did you guys get bored of the hobby and thought hey, a finger in my ass might be something I like?. I'm not being funny about this. I'm serious. Am I headed in that direction when this hobby gets old??[/QUOTE]Many years ago at a now defunct AMP on Hwy 100 I was getting a table shower from one of the ladies. She soaped and lubed my bundhole and penetrated until she touched it. I was relaxed and it felt pretty good. A lot better than my doctor saying bend over and cough. A HE followed the nice massage. The good old days. My only experience with that kind of thing. I would do it again if I could find the right provider.

INTERNET. Has screwed up the world and my ability to have a little fun once in awhile. Prices, quality of service have all gone out of control. I am resigning from the games these ladies play.

Last post. Too old for this shit. HB.

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it's a fight thread, it's not a "don't post shit on the forum because some bad thing is going to happen thread."

FYI, there is no place in Milwaukee that is selling pussy that the cops don't know about. When some Asian applies for a license to open a MP who do you think the clerk who takes the application calls before they are even out the door?

It's always the guys who post once a month telling guys not to fucking post. If it was up to you dbags the forum would have died 15 years ago.

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[QUOTE=AssMan475;4245904]It's not to difficult to find the spot, especially if a girl is doing it to you. It's moreso their willingness to do so. And frankly very few are willing to do it.[/QUOTE]If you like some prostate twiddling during a DT BBBJ check her out.

[URL]http://racine.skipthegames.com/female-escorts/caucasian_w/cum-play-with-me-im-wet-and-re/577175536156[/URL]

[QUOTE=HornyBald341;4263112]INTERNET. Has screwed up the world and my ability to have a little fun once in awhile. Prices, quality of service have all gone out of control. I am resigning from the games these ladies play.

Last post. Too old for this shit. HB.[/QUOTE]I hear you. Yeah, it's barren as a the desert here lately. Nasty bloated cows charging $150 for a half hour of their miserable rushed company.

[QUOTE=EddiesPickle;4279564]If you like some prostate twiddling during a DT BBBJ check her out.

[URL]http://racine.skipthegames.com/female-escorts/caucasian_w/cum-play-with-me-im-wet-and-re/577175536156[/URL][/QUOTE]Well, at least the one of her tits is fake. I ran it through tineye and got several different hits. Does she look anything close to those pics?

[QUOTE=GoPack;4279686]Well, at least the one of her tits is fake. I ran it through tineye and got several different hits. Does she look anything close to those pics?[/QUOTE]I didn't have the same results as you but the pictures look to at least resemble her if not her, still has nice looks, super easy to get along with and service is you letting her know what you want and consider it done.

[QUOTE=EddiesPickle;4280338]I didn't have the same results as you but the pictures look to at least resemble her if not her, still has nice looks, super easy to get along with and service is you letting her know what you want and consider it done.[/QUOTE]Here's what I found:

[URL]https://tineye.com/search/9552c702cf4e2db4f0f1ff779c6aaf0e19d73f90?page=1[/URL]

[QUOTE=GoPack;4280348]Here's what I found:

[URL]https://tineye.com/search/9552c702cf4e2db4f0f1ff779c6aaf0e19d73f90?page=1[/URL][/QUOTE]Maybe she didn't have any one to take a picture like that LOL does look close though, I never bother looking at her ad since I've known her 10 years.

I just wanted to take a min to share how funny I find it, that those who want to hold numbers hostage and only share with the beloved "Senior Member".

1. We are all here for the same thing. To share information and to help each other stay safe. Having some sort of pompous attitude about how only some are deserving of your information, makes you sound like a jerk with inferiority complex. Probably still wear your high school Letterman jacket and talk about the glory days.

2. If you want to be selective on who you share your "find" with. That's obviously your right. But maybe do some research and see who contributes valuable content instead of who can trade you another girls number.

Using her to gain for yourself. Hmmm. Sounds like a pimp. Maybe pay it forward and stop thinking only of yourself. It's not your obligation to be some sort of gatekeeper. The girls can refuse seeing anyone they deem to be uncomfortable with.

3. Using something as arbitrary as "Senior Member" is so shallow. In my particular case (and I'm sure there are others) I created a new screen name when the new version seas server was set up. My old screen name was just saved on the site and I didn't know the login information or if the old names even still worked on the new site. It's fine. I've never had a problem earning my stripes. But to say I am all of a sudden not deserving of your precious info because of that. You're as simple minded as some streetwalkers you critique.

Lastly. It is what it is. Just wanted to point out how rediculous you sound when you say dumb things like "digits for Seniors only" or "she said I can share her number with those who will trade me a number". Om keeping a list of all your screen names so I know who to never provide info to! I hope others do as well so you can all have your own little fraternity of number hoarders.

Why would any new members want to provide information to a bunch of schovanistic chest pumping jerks?

Whatever. I digress.

[QUOTE=Kjh28;4285330]I just wanted to take a min to share how funny I find it, that those who want to hold numbers hostage and only share with the beloved "Senior Member".

1. We are all here for the same thing. To share information and to help each other stay safe. Having some sort of pompous attitude about how only some are deserving of your information, makes you sound like a jerk with inferiority complex. Probably still wear your high school Letterman jacket and talk about the glory days.

2. If you want to be selective on who you share your "find" with. That's obviously your right. But maybe do some research and see who contributes valuable content instead of who can trade you another girls number.

Using her to gain for yourself. Hmmm. Sounds like a pimp. Maybe pay it forward and stop thinking only of yourself. It's not your obligation to be some sort of gatekeeper. The girls can refuse seeing anyone they deem to be uncomfortable with.

3. Using something as arbitrary as "Senior Member" is so shallow. In my particular case (and I'm sure there are others) I created a new screen name when the new version seas server was set up. My old screen name was just saved on the site and I didn't know the login information or if the old names even still worked on the new site. It's fine. I've never had a problem earning my stripes. But to say I am all of a sudden not deserving of your precious info because of that. You're as simple minded as some streetwalkers you critique.

Lastly. It is what it is. Just wanted to point out how rediculous you sound when you say dumb things like "digits for Seniors only" or "she said I can share her number with those who will trade me a number". Om keeping a list of all your screen names so I know who to never provide info to! I hope others do as well so you can all have your own little fraternity of number hoarders.

Why would any new members want to provide information to a bunch of schovanistic chest pumping jerks?

Whatever. I digress.[/QUOTE]You are painting with some broad strokes, brother. While there are going to be pompous posters on this (or ANY) message board, I don't think the concept of sharing with Senior Members is necessarily a sign of pomposity. You are right in that the senior status is a somewhat arbitrary method of sharing. I've also seen guys say "contributing seniors". I think the motive is safety more than pomposity. And I also am not fond of the "trade digits" method of sharing. But I don't hold either of those things against the guys that do them. To each his own. But I would like to point out that having SOME discernment as to who to share information with is pretty important, IMO.

Maybe I don't read the exchanges closely enough, but I don't really see many "schovanistic (sp) chest pumping jerks" on the board. Mostly guys trying to help each other navigate waters that can otherwise be pretty dangerous. In the course of discourse, sure there are harsh comments. They actually make me laugh as much as anything.

[QUOTE=CrackerJack77;4285484]You are painting with some broad strokes, brother. While there are going to be pompous posters on this (or ANY) message board, I don't think the concept of sharing with Senior Members is necessarily a sign of pomposity. You are right in that the senior status is a somewhat arbitrary method of sharing. I've also seen guys say "contributing seniors". I think the motive is safety more than pomposity. And I also am not fond of the "trade digits" method of sharing. But I don't hold either of those things against the guys that do them. To each his own. But I would like to point out that having SOME discernment as to who to share information with is pretty important, IMO.

Maybe I don't read the exchanges closely enough, but I don't really see many "schovanistic (sp) chest pumping jerks" on the board. Mostly guys trying to help each other navigate waters that can otherwise be pretty dangerous. In the course of discourse, sure there are harsh comments. They actually make me laugh as much as anything.[/QUOTE]Valid points, and perhaps I may have been the victim of a poison pen and a third glass of Templeton! Regardless, I read a post and just couldn't resist the opportunity to vent about the ridiculousness of the merit.

Happy hunting to the team players.

[QUOTE=Kjh28;4285330]I just wanted to take a min to share how funny I find it, that those who want to hold numbers hostage and only share with the beloved "Senior Member".

1. We are all here for the same thing. To share information and to help each other stay safe. Having some sort of pompous attitude about how only some are deserving of your information, makes you sound like a jerk with inferiority complex. Probably still wear your high school Letterman jacket and talk about the glory days.

2. If you want to be selective on who you share your "find" with. That's obviously your right. But maybe do some research and see who contributes valuable content instead of who can trade you another girls number.

Using her to gain for yourself. Hmmm. Sounds like a pimp. Maybe pay it forward and stop thinking only of yourself. It's not your obligation to be some sort of gatekeeper. The girls can refuse seeing anyone they deem to be uncomfortable with.

3. Using something as arbitrary as "Senior Member" is so shallow. In my particular case (and I'm sure there are others) I created a new screen name when the new version seas server was set up. My old screen name was just saved on the site and I didn't know the login information or if the old names even still worked on the new site. It's fine. I've never had a problem earning my stripes. But to say I am all of a sudden not deserving of your precious info because of that. You're as simple minded as some streetwalkers you critique.

Lastly. It is what it is. Just wanted to point out how rediculous you sound when you say dumb things like "digits for Seniors only" or "she said I can share her number with those who will trade me a number". Om keeping a list of all your screen names so I know who to never provide info to! I hope others do as well so you can all have your own little fraternity of number hoarders.

Why would any new members want to provide information to a bunch of schovanistic chest pumping jerks?

Whatever. I digress.[/QUOTE]Of everyone's safety and security before going to harsh. There is no way to stop Uncle from reading and even registering on the site which has been pointed out before. There have been posts in other cities linking articles that confirm they pose as members to gain the information. Many will use the "senior" or "contributing senior" status as a way to verify that they are not uncle. Yes, they can also get that far but it is at least a little more safe.

I'm not trying to call you out or anything but as some have posted before, if you were a senior before and made a new account, say what your old profile name was. Maybe others will remember, maybe not, but it may help.

Some of these utr aren't even worth the hassle just saying you're not missing out much unless you really are interested in basic. And they most likely come from SA so just go make a membership they have a 25 $ trial for 7 days and text as many women as possible. Just use paypal or google play store and it's very discrete doesn't even mention dating or escort services on your bank statement unless you pay directly to the site, and you can use fake information such as a name.

But the 80$ for one month isn't really a bad deal if you manage to get dozens of good looking women since you're inevitably bound to waste 80$ on shit services in the street. Just let them know you're looking to be a regular and help them a long time and they'll make deals with you

[QUOTE=RandomG123;4286100]Some of these utr aren't even worth the hassle just saying you're not missing out much unless you really are interested in basic. And they most likely come from SA so just go make a membership they have a 25 $ trial for 7 days and text as many women as possible. Just use paypal or google play store and it's very discrete doesn't even mention dating or escort services on your bank statement unless you pay directly to the site, and you can use fake information such as a name.

But the 80$ for one month isn't really a bad deal if you manage to get dozens of good looking women since you're inevitably bound to waste 80$ on shit services in the street. Just let them know you're looking to be a regular and help them a long time and they'll make deals with you[/QUOTE]This is the kind of gold I come on this board for. Pure Gold Jerry!

[QUOTE=HornyBald341;4263112]INTERNET. Has screwed up the world and my ability to have a little fun once in awhile. Prices, quality of service have all gone out of control. I am resigning from the games these ladies play.

Last post. Too old for this shit. HB.[/QUOTE]Your not alone, its becoming more hassle then anything.

I'd like the opinion of some senior members who post actual reports. We all know through sad and frustrating experience that many adds are fake. In your opinion, how many reviews are straight up BS. Not just a difference of personal preference. I'm thinking it has to be close to 50%.

[QUOTE=Ranger51;4291329]I'd like the opinion of some senior members who post actual reports. We all know through sad and frustrating experience that many adds are fake. In your opinion, how many reviews are straight up BS. Not just a difference of personal preference. I'm thinking it has to be close to 50%.[/QUOTE]I'm going to presume you're talking about reviews on this site. I may be naive, but I think the majority of reviews here are legit. If someone posts a fake review, it usually stands out as such. A lot of these ladies are seen by multiple guys here and while individual experiences can vary, the end results mostly follow the same lines.

To ask the question, you have to specify where the adds are comming from. When STG started, a good 60-70% of adds were fake. Now it is mabye 25 to 30%. Cityx, is another story. They started with mabye 50-60% fake adds. Now, it is 60-70% fake.

[QUOTE=Ranger51;4291329]I'd like the opinion of some senior members who post actual reports. We all know through sad and frustrating experience that many adds are fake. In your opinion, how many reviews are straight up BS. Not just a difference of personal preference. I'm thinking it has to be close to 50%.[/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=Ranger51;4291329]I'd like the opinion of some senior members who post actual reports. We all know through sad and frustrating experience that many adds are fake. In your opinion, how many reviews are straight up BS. Not just a difference of personal preference. I'm thinking it has to be close to 50%.[/QUOTE]I'd expect most are legit, although often (from what I've found), exaggerated. Sometimes I see a post on a girl saying the pics are real, I go to see her and they are clearly not real, they are just similar-looking. Not sure if that means the review was fake or it's just some old guy with shitty vision LOL. It can be hard to pinpoint at times when the reviews are sometimes very minimal. Not sure why that is. Wish we had threads organized differently: for example, by escort, then individual threads for providers. Would make searching and sifting through reviews of one person easier. Easier to track down providers who switch names or kill their ads too. Lots of reviewers don't even leave a link and just say a name, which I've seen create confusion on this board numerous times.

[QUOTE=Ranger51;4291329]I'd like the opinion of some senior members who post actual reports. We all know through sad and frustrating experience that many adds are fake. In your opinion, how many reviews are straight up BS. Not just a difference of personal preference. I'm thinking it has to be close to 50%.[/QUOTE]Based on comparing reviews I've written to reviews I've read of the same provider and the almost unanimous consensus on other providers from review to review I'd say the vast majority (90% +) are legit.

HS.

[QUOTE=Ranger51;4291329]I'd like the opinion of some senior members who post actual reports. We all know through sad and frustrating experience that many adds are fake. In your opinion, how many reviews are straight up BS. Not just a difference of personal preference. I'm thinking it has to be close to 50%.[/QUOTE]From my standpoint, I believe most of the reviews are legit. Just because a certain service was given to one, it may not be given to another. Comfort, being a regular customer OR. $$ being the key factor. There is a share of these ladies that are users and when they are using, chances are, your time together will be less than memorable (in a good way).

Good luck out there!

Hi, I am a new posting member.

When the cost of service is something like $30 for 30 minutes; $50 for 1 hour and $160 for overnight. Does this really mean $300 for 30 minutes. $1600 for overnight OR is it a fake?

Thanks for any advice.

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Click on the Abbreviations button and you can find your answer.

[QUOTE=SpuriousPuck;4298925]Hi, I am a new posting member.

When the cost of service is something like $30 for 30 minutes; $50 for 1 hour and $160 for overnight. Does this really mean $300 for 30 minutes. $1600 for overnight OR is it a fake?

Thanks for any advice.[/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=SpuriousPuck;4298925]Hi, I am a new posting member.

When the cost of service is something like $30 for 30 minutes; $50 for 1 hour and $160 for overnight. Does this really mean $300 for 30 minutes. $1600 for overnight OR is it a fake?

Thanks for any advice.[/QUOTE]Totally fake!

[QUOTE=Wanttoknow67;4300418]At the top of the page there is "Front Page, Forum, What's New?, Photo Gallery, Abbreviations, .

Click on the Abbreviations button and you can find your answer.[/QUOTE]While this is true and a good place to start, different girls and mongers use different abbreviations all the time which is dumb as hell. Standardize our system!! LOL.

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Never fool yourself about a provider. They don't care. They make you feel like you're special (well some of them) but that's their job. That's all it is. Just a means to an end. If you ever feel close to these ladies stop seeing them immediately. Once they catch on that you have a place in your heart for them they will take every advantage of you that they can. You are just a cash cow. If you're looking to these girls to be your companion, quit fooling yourself and get a dog.

[QUOTE=AltereEgo;4308074]Never fool yourself about a provider. They don't care. They make you feel like you're special (well some of them) but that's their job. That's all it is. Just a means to an end. If you ever feel close to these ladies stop seeing them immediately. Once they catch on that you have a place in your heart for them they will take every advantage of you that they can. You are just a cash cow. If you're looking to these girls to be your companion, quit fooling yourself and get a dog.[/QUOTE]Spot On advice right there!! I need a dog, much cheaper and in some cases cuter!

Lest you be judged. We all have our preferences vices fetishes whatevers. A story was shared with the group, not to be criticized or critiqued, but just to share. Try not to be annoyed or repulsed over the story, but be appreciative that someone felt comfortable sharing a big chunk of their adventure filled life.

[QUOTE=Ranger51;4308027]Do you have any self respect?[/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=BigMilwaukee;4308135]Lest you be judged. We all have our preferences vices fetishes whatevers. A story was shared with the group, not to be criticized or critiqued, but just to share. Try not to be annoyed or repulsed over the story, but be appreciative that someone felt comfortable sharing a big chunk of their adventure filled life.[/QUOTE]I agree. If you read his whole post you can understand where he's coming from on it. Been there, done that, it sucks!

Your words are damn true regarding providers.

But addicts are even more untrustworthy if possible.

And in the OP's story they were providers and addicts.

I am sorry he started using and lost years of his life. But you can't trust providers, can't trust junkies and NEVER can trust junky providers.

[QUOTE=AltereEgo;4308074]Never fool yourself about a provider. They don't care. They make you feel like you're special (well some of them) but that's their job. That's all it is. Just a means to an end. If you ever feel close to these ladies stop seeing them immediately. Once they catch on that you have a place in your heart for them they will take every advantage of you that they can. You are just a cash cow. If you're looking to these girls to be your companion, quit fooling yourself and get a dog.[/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=SafeNsaFun;4308193]Your words are damn true regarding providers.

But addicts are even more untrustworthy if possible.

And in the OP's story they were providers and addicts.

I am sorry he started using and lost years of his life. But you can't trust providers, can't trust junkies and NEVER can trust junky providers.[/QUOTE]Nobody can be that slow if someone charges you to be friendly (in better terms) they clearly don't care about you like you may want.

But I don't regret a single thing I did. I was with a provider who had an addiction to opiates. I knew her for 8 years. She was my best friend and lover for 7. We lived together in my house on and off for about 2 years. I definitely knew she loved me, after about 6 years of being together and her being heavily into drugs, she sacrificed $100 of her own money to buy me a cologne and a hoodie from store during a summer. She said it was a birthday present for me even though my birthday is in December because she didn't know if she would have some money by then. All of you guys here know all their money goes directly to addiction even when they are starving. She wanted to show me that she sincerely loved me. However, she got worse with her addiction and started boozing on top of the opiates. I couldn't keep going with her. I smoke weed and drink. Nothing else. I made the hardest decision of my life and left her for 6 months. That's when I started this hobby on this forum. Banged all the classic hotties in Milwaukee, but missed my girl after every session. Her birthday came up, got in touch with her to meet for her day, we never missed our b days together for 8 years. I was not prepared for what I saw next. She was in a wheel chair with a diaper and bright yellow skin and peeling off dead dry skin from every where. I lost it there. Broke me like twig. I put my self together as best as I could took her to hospital and she started to look better, but was still bed ridden. On my weekends of for about a month I helped take care of her. Changed her diaper, fed her, change her. The person I knew was gone. But she was so happy to see me. I could see her face lit up again when I took care of her. This is hard to type with tears running down my face. LOL. Anywho, she wasn't able to stay at my place because she needed some one to take care of her 24/7. Wasn't long before she started getting yellow skin again and went to hospital by caretakers order I spoke to her from the hospital phone because her immediate family wanted complete privacy. Even from me, but kept me posted. I was ok with that, 2 weeks later I get a call from her step dad and mom she passed away. They unplugged her because she was brain dead. I last spoke to her when she was being put on a medically induced coma. She said she dreamed everyday she's been in the hospital of us 2 driving her from her place all the way to the city to do our regular weekend fun time together, we'd spend 2 or 3 days at a motel partying and trashing motels. Got kicked out of 3 or 4 different ones too! LOL. Good times. I still miss her every day to this day. I don't regret a single thing I did. I met the most important and beautiful person, inside and out, of my life. I love you and miss you so much princess, Rest In Peace.

It had become clear that we all have different reasons for doing this. Some just want a nut and are done, some have fetishes on size, height, skin color, boob or ass size, some of you are some truly depraved motherfuckers. Just saying. There are others that enjoy the time spent. The closeness and connection, real or percieved. It is what it is. I would not ridicule those of you that like to dress up like a pony and get wipped with a riding crop by a hooker in a cowboy outfit. To each his own.

[QUOTE=SafeNsaFun;4308193]Your words are damn true regarding providers.

But addicts are even more untrustworthy if possible.

And in the OP's story they were providers and addicts.

I am sorry he started using and lost years of his life. But you can't trust providers, can't trust junkies and NEVER can trust junky providers.[/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=SnowBnnyLvr;4308518]But I don't regret a single thing I did. I was with a provider who had an addiction to opiates. I knew her for 8 years. She was my best friend and lover for 7. We lived together in my house on and off for about 2 years. I definitely knew she loved me, after about 6 years of being together and her being heavily into drugs, she sacrificed $100 of her own money to buy me a cologne and a hoodie from store during a summer. She said it was a birthday present for me even though my birthday is in December because she didn't know if she would have some money by then. All of you guys here know all their money goes directly to addiction even when they are starving. She wanted to show me that she sincerely loved me. However, she got worse with her addiction and started boozing on top of the opiates. I couldn't keep going with her. I smoke weed and drink. Nothing else. I made the hardest decision of my life and left her for 6 months. That's when I started this hobby on this forum. Banged all the classic hotties in Milwaukee, but missed my girl after every session. Her birthday came up, got in touch with her to meet for her day, we never missed our b days together for 8 years. I was not prepared for what I saw next. She was in a wheel chair with a diaper and bright yellow skin and peeling off dead dry skin from every where. I lost it there. Broke me like twig. I put my self together as best as I could took her to hospital and she started to look better, but was still bed ridden. On my weekends of for about a month I helped take care of her. Changed her diaper, fed her, change her. The person I knew was gone. But she was so happy to see me. I could see her face lit up again when I took care of her. This is hard to type with tears running down my face. LOL. Anywho, she wasn't able to stay at my place because she needed some one to take care of her 24/7. Wasn't long before she started getting yellow skin again and went to hospital by caretakers order I spoke to her from the hospital phone because her immediate family wanted complete privacy. Even from me, but kept me posted. I was ok with that, 2 weeks later I get a call from her step dad and mom she passed away. They unplugged her because she was brain dead. I last spoke to her when she was being put on a medically induced coma. She said she dreamed everyday she's been in the hospital of us 2 driving her from her place all the way to the city to do our regular weekend fun time together, we'd spend 2 or 3 days at a motel partying and trashing motels. Got kicked out of 3 or 4 different ones too! LOL. Good times. I still miss her every day to this day. I don't regret a single thing I did. I met the most important and beautiful person, inside and out, of my life. I love you and miss you so much princess, Rest In Peace.[/QUOTE]Sorry to here about your loss but sometimes things are out of your hands and control. You don't control life it controls you. Sounds like your girl was her own worst enemy. Just like drinking most people can handle it others become alcoholics same with opioid. I took Vicodin 5 mg for 2 years for my knees and didn't bother me at all to quit just extremely tired for a day or 2. It's not your fault you couldn't save her. Don't let that eat you up and destroy you! Some people go into re-Han 10-15 times.