Warning this is a long one
So I kind of think of this place a family of guys that share information. I haven't been on here as much recently. But when my last postef everyone could see how I fell for a girl I met on SA. So I'm just going to open up and be honest. I hope that's okay here. It miss the days when the legend B Malibu was here and he was such a great guy and open about his experiences and even falling for a provider at an AMP.
So one of my biggest issues coming back into the game is comparing everyone to my previous relationship. I've been off and on SA for a few years and I've had a lot of different experiences. Majority fwb and I've had two long-term arrangements if you will before, but nothing like this girl. The thing is I feel like she kind of declawed me. I spent most my life having casual relations with girls. And now I feel like I don't know how to act how to get girls on these sites anymore. I go in being way too nice. The longer you're in this you're bound to take a loss or two. I've taken two small losses before, but not like this. I've had a few losses recently when trying to get back in it. I never gave money up front before but when I met this previous girl I really just liked her so much I gave her 60 before we met and she was shocked and I was shocked. From there we talked everyday and saw each other every week. We never exchanged money per visit.
But now I find myself without my killer instinct anymore. I talked to these girls online I'm almost trying to recreate the situation or the dynamic me and the other girl had, by trying to be nice. But it never works out. I don't know I just don't have that firmness anymore I'm too much of a simp now. I know I'm just kind of ranting but I had to share this somewhere.