"I disgust myself"
Somebody in the massage section posted a "I disgust myself" so I have to post my version. First of all SA has been very good to me. I have a solid 4 that I have been seeing for 3 years. All different flavors. This one I have been seeing for almost 2 years is a real smoke show. She's really hot and we always had really good vibes and we had a great connection. Sexual chemistry is great, she is very personable, and someone I feel like I could date if I wanted to. After a year of debating I pulled the trigger to do a tropical trip with her, all paid for by me of course. I really went back and forth on this for a long time but accepted the risk and figured at the very minimum it would be a nice getaway.
Once we arrive, that sexual chemistry disappears. Over the course of the trip she rejected any effort I put in for intimacy. We did hook up a few times but I could tell she hated it, so a huge turn off. Meanwhile when we do our arrangement she was super into it and a freak but not anymore. So this was the risk I accepted, she isn't a sexual slave and I can't force someone to be in the mood but at the same time the lack of awareness that this was a big part of the motivation for the trip was disappointing.
Anyways no big deal, we are in a high end resort that's very expensive and it is warm so just hoping we both enjoy ourselves as "friends" I guess. That was the hope but of course but I got a pleasant surprise that she has a coke problem once we arrive. I knew she did it but I thought it was only social but nope, it is a daily need. I have medication that is a stimulant and pretty quickly found out she was taking that from me. Well whatever, I rather that then her go around the bar trying to find the coke guy and have that in my life.
Having a decent night out at the bar and then the drinks hit and she starts rubbing up on some drunk trashy guy at the bar. We aren't in a relationship so I didn't get jealous but annoyed at the lack of etiquette since I didn't pay for a very high end vacation to watch her do that. She then snaps on me, yelling, telling me I need to say sorry with the finger on my face, then tells me to tell her why I'm sorry all while crying. It felt like negotiating with a terrorist as I can't leave her even though I wanted to but was obligated now to stay with her until I can get her back to the resort safely. I literally was trying to move up the flight on my phone. She finally starts puking and I was able to safely get her home.
I sleep on the couch and leave her food in the room and hit the beach. Hoping that she would have some sort of remorse and be easier to deal with, I though the worst was over. Nope.
Later that day when she is up she then says she needs a massage at the spa as she sits next to me ordering drink after drink at the pool. I try and give her hints that I don't want to buy her a 200 dollar massage but she gets very firm that she is entitled to this massage. I say that if she gets it then we aren't going out that night so I can cut down on costs and she agrees but then informs me that she has friends in town and will be leaving me after the massage to meet with them while ditching me at the hotel. This was of course for my benefit so I didn't have to pay for her but I suspected she was going to ask me for money before leaving me. I remember she told me her ex called her a sociopath, I google it on my phone and read the definition and OMG yes he was right. Well that was the turning point, time to put an end to it so while princess is getting her massage I turn off the room charge option and hide my prescription then get out of the room. I have a fun time out and when I get back she is angry. Her plans fell through I guess and she ransacked my things looking for my prescription and demands that I give it to her "right now". I tell her no and I had drinks in the room that she was welcome to and gave her a few bucks for food downstairs. I watch her and she realizes that the screws have been turned and she has no way to use me for money anymore. She then eventually leaves the room to go out and look for coke at the bars while I have a relaxing night on the beach. She comes back at 9 am awake and alert. Clearly she got her fix and God knows what she did to get it. I was happy to see her go but nervous as who she may bring back. Happy she was alone when she came in.
Anyways this whole thing was a bad decision LOL. Long story short, keep the arrangements platonic and no trips! What really sucks is that now I lost her as one of my SBs and she was the hottest so now I'm down one team member. So yeah, pretty horrible trip. Even if you think you have a good connection things are not as they seem LOL. Hopefully this nightmare helps you all out there.
How are you getting out of house?
How are you managing to get out of the house during the pandemic without arousing suspicions?
Girls are wanting 500 per fuck seems standard now for average hot girl. Plus another 100 for hotel So for me it was about 600 a fuck. Unless you rolling in money it adds up fast. Being married and having to sneak out that much money under my wife's nose wasn't easy.
