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What if playing this game, we play, gets you so high you feel like a different person? You feel better about your self,(age, money, looks) you look at life in a different way, then normally. I know this is bad for me, I can't turn back after all this time, How much more life do I really have without it? I have gone 1 year without watching porn!(big fucking deal) I still need a woman s touch (AMPs,) mostly. Like my friend "CHARLIE" said," we pay them to leave. " This is the same BS. I wrote, think, the last time I came across this post, I'm still looking for PUSSY to fuck, a lot of my time in a day! Pray for me. Drk.
[QUOTE=DarkSideOfMe;2913525]What if playing this game, we play, gets you so high you feel like a different person? You feel better about your self,(age, money, looks) you look at life in a different way, then normally. I know this is bad for me, I can't turn back after all this time, How much more life do I really have without it? I have gone 1 year without watching porn!(big fucking deal) I still need a woman s touch (AMPs,) mostly. Like my friend "CHARLIE" said," we pay them to leave. " This is the same BS. I wrote, think, the last time I came across this post, I'm still looking for PUSSY to fuck, a lot of my time in a day! Pray for me. Drk.[/QUOTE]I hear ya. Of course you feel better about yourself. Last time I was with my ATF I was high for about 10 days. On top of the world from being with such a beauty. After that crash. Sure I met with a few others since then, but the high was not as great. Maybe lasted a day. Always wanting more. When my atf stopped talking to me and I did my immature retaliation I hit the lowest of lows.
I think if we are compulsive and what we do can hurt others in our lives then we really have to take a step back. It's not easy. For me it's been just over 2 weeks since my last slip up with a hott brunette. Been a week since I reached out to my old atf with a mother's day wish, hoping to break the ice there. I have to keep self from crossing both lines. I feel so pathetic at times.
Complacency is a killer. I got to feeling too comfortable, like my old habits were safely behind me. It's happened before but this time I thought I had it beat. Then I slipped up a couple times. Was doing well, no contact for 2 months, then whoops, then whoops again 9 days later. If not for that, this would be 2 and a half months. Instead, it's Day 5.
It's OK. Day 5 is better than Day 1. Tomorrow will be Day 6.
FunInOhio, you're doing better than I am! If my math is right, then today is Day 25 or 26 for you. You're weeks ahead of me, ya bastard. ;-)
DarkSideOfMe, keep at it. Every new day is a day you can go without, and be a better man for it. Start with just one day. Start with today. Hell, start with just this hour, or until dinnertime or whatever.
We should all have a poker party. I say, whoever gets to Day 100 first brings the beer.
JS2.
So what is wrong with this? I have just hooked up with a 20,year old, tight body, nice skin, few tatts, no fat, tight ass, pussy to die for, nice face, just got left by the father of her son a month ago. "In need of some help", I felt very high for a week now. How can I give this up, first time we meet, it was set up by her mother who I'm fucking, talk about a mess. ! Spent 2 hours with her, talked, no FS, BJ, just talking, kissing, touching! My dick was so hard, her titts, were titts of a 20 year old, that pushed me to the edge! I thought about my 3 daughter that I have, older then her, how could I bang this "baby"? Maybe this was a step in the right direction for me, we will see, who knows, but I need to get back to see her, the high is so great right now for me, how can I not go? "(Its just to help her out)" ! What is it going to hurt? Drk P.S. " three times as old as her". 60/20.
[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2927233]Complacency is a killer. I got to feeling too comfortable, like my old habits were safely behind me. It's happened before but this time I thought I had it beat. Then I slipped up a couple times. Was doing well, no contact for 2 months, then whoops, then whoops again 9 days later. If not for that, this would be 2 and a half months. Instead, it's Day 5.
It's OK. Day 5 is better than Day 1. Tomorrow will be Day 6.
FunInOhio, you're doing better than I am! If my math is right, then today is Day 25 or 26 for you. You're weeks ahead of me, ya bastard. ;-)
DarkSideOfMe, keep at it. Every new day is a day you can go without, and be a better man for it. Start with just one day. Start with today. Hell, start with just this hour, or until dinnertime or whatever.
We should all have a poker party. I say, whoever gets to Day 100 first brings the beer.
JS2.[/QUOTE]25 days now. Should be able to close out May no problem.
Got some from the SO this morning, so that helps. Doesn't happen often but when it does, I can resist the rest.
Tomorrow is double digits and the long weekend is very SO-oriented, so I should be okay into next week.
FunInOhio: nice work.
DarkSide: there is absolutely nothing wrong with it, IF it makes you happy. But that's a big if. There's plenty wrong with it if it leaves you feeling tortured. The way you describe this girl, I'd fuck her too. The 60/20 thing is hot, no question. I'm not quite as old as you (54) but I love fucking girls in the 18-21 range because they are just a fraction of my age. I don't think there's anything wrong about it at all, as long as she's willing. Hell, we're only human.
BUT -- if you end up feeling terrible later, cursing yourself and your choices, worried about money and health etc. Then there's no point. When I get horny and bang a hooker, I feel okay about it IF it's what I really wanted to do that day. My problem is that more and more, I don't seek out girls because I'm horny, but just because I'm preoccupied with seeking girls. Sometimes I find myself fucking one when I wasn't even particularly horny that day--I just had means and opportunity, and the little voice in the back of my head whispering, "If you don't fuck her now, you might never get the chance again." No point in that, and then I worry about health, money, my SO, etc. So the downside later is greater than the upside in the moment. Don't know if that's true for you, but that's what I need to keep reminding myself. That, plus I actually have cash for things like taking myself out for lunch, buying a few tomato plants for the porch, etc.
Ultimately, you can only do what makes sense to you. If it makes sense to stop, then grit your teeth and stop. Or at least slow down. And then slow down a little more. And then, eventually, stop.
Stay safe brothers,
JS2
[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2931952]Got some from the SO this morning, so that helps. Doesn't happen often but when it does, I can resist the rest.
Tomorrow is double digits and the long weekend is very SO-oriented, so I should be okay into next week.
FunInOhio: nice work.
DarkSide: there is absolutely nothing wrong with it, IF it makes you happy. But that's a big if. There's plenty wrong with it if it leaves you feeling tortured. The way you describe this girl, I'd fuck her too. The 60/20 thing is hot, no question. I'm not quite as old as you (54) but I love fucking girls in the 18-21 range because they are just a fraction of my age. I don't think there's anything wrong about it at all, as long as she's willing. Hell, we're only human.
BUT -- if you end up feeling terrible later, cursing yourself and your choices, worried about money and health etc. Then there's no point. When I get horny and bang a hooker, I feel okay about it IF it's what I really wanted to do that day. My problem is that more and more, I don't seek out girls because I'm horny, but just because I'm preoccupied with seeking girls. Sometimes I find myself fucking one when I wasn't even particularly horny that day--I just had means and opportunity, and the little voice in the back of my head whispering, "If you don't fuck her now, you might never get the chance again." No point in that, and then I worry about health, money, my SO, etc. So the downside later is greater than the upside in the moment. Don't know if that's true for you, but that's what I need to keep reminding myself. That, plus I actually have cash for things like taking myself out for lunch, buying a few tomato plants for the porch, etc.
Ultimately, you can only do what makes sense to you. If it makes sense to stop, then grit your teeth and stop. Or at least slow down. And then slow down a little more. And then, eventually, stop.
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Stay safe brothers,
JS2[/QUOTE]I agree with you 100%, but what my problem because of age, I want to fuck them all, has nothing to do with being horny, it has become a big GAME to me. The hunt is my great release, not the kill, I should have fucked the girl you talked about (21 year old) because later that week her mother texted me, BABY is back with her ex! No more dates for her! Now what the fuck, no young pussy for this old man to put down! And in my mind I really want to fuck her, young pussy, to see if it makes me fill better, about myself, and getting old! You go figure it out?? I can't! Drk.
Great to get away, family trip, daughters, grand kids, son in laws, sun, beach, great all the time (89 degrees,) 3 mile wind blows all the time, so you are never hot. Two half weeks! What more could you want in life? THIS; did I mention I'm going to "ARUBA" 35 years now, also did I mention, (pussy is all legal on the Inland! You read that right. No laws, ages, all fuck bars,24/7 ,just girls, more girls, more girls from all around the world girls that go to this Inland to fuck and make money!(most are 10's), just what the fuck I need right now, Ill be out all night, for 2/1/2 weeks trying to fuck all of them!! (great family trip!) stay tuned drk.
[QUOTE=DarkSideOfMe;2932036]Great to get away, family trip, daughters, grand kids, son in laws, sun, beach, great all the time (89 degrees,) 3 mile wind blows all the time, so you are never hot. Two half weeks! What more could you want in life? THIS; did I mention I'm going to "ARUBA" 35 years now, also did I mention, (pussy is all legal on the Inland! You read that right. No laws, ages, all fuck bars,24/7 ,just girls, more girls, more girls from all around the world girls that go to this Inland to fuck and make money!(most are 10's), just what the fuck I need right now, Ill be out all night, for 2/1/2 weeks trying to fuck all of them!! (great family trip!) stay tuned drk.[/QUOTE]Keep the family trip a family trip. It may be difficilt.
I am on day 31 now. I Thinking About a couple of my favs though.
[QUOTE=FunInOhio;2934939]Keep the family trip a family trip. It may be difficilt.
I am on day 31 now. I Thinking About a couple of my favs though.[/QUOTE]I'm on Day 12. The next couple days are going to be crazy with work so I should be okay.
Then a 3-day weekend in another city with my SO, that should be safe too. Spending lots of money on the SO, sure, but that's how it's supposed to be. I'm sure I'll think about the girls plenty but lack of opportunity should get me to Day 19 or 20 without too much trouble.
Congratulations on your one-month chip, FunInOhio! If nothing else, think of the money you've saved and the health scares you've spared yourself.
Stay safe brothers.
JS2.
[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2935859]I'm on Day 12. The next couple days are going to be crazy with work so I should be okay.
Then a 3-day weekend in another city with my SO, that should be safe too. Spending lots of money on the SO, sure, but that's how it's supposed to be. I'm sure I'll think about the girls plenty but lack of opportunity should get me to Day 19 or 20 without too much trouble.
Congratulations on your one-month chip, FunInOhio! If nothing else, think of the money you've saved and the health scares you've spared yourself.
Stay safe brothers.
JS2.[/QUOTE]Back to square one guys.
[QUOTE=FunInOhio;2943760]Back to square one guys.[/QUOTE]Chin up, FunInOhio! If this was an easy habit to kick, we wouldn't need to be on here talking to each other.
Day 20 for me, but I made an appointment for this morning with a sexy spinner, then overslept and had to miss it. OK, so at least I didn't reschedule for this afternoon. That's half a victory anyway, right?
Tomorrow is 3 weeks.
Meanwhile I picture DarkSideOfMe on a beach somewhere with about 4 girls bent over in front of him, taking turns with one after another as he douses himself with pina coladas and Skittles. But maybe that's just me.
Stay safe guys.
JS2.
But this is my first step. Admitting that what I thought was over, still oppresses me.
God has created some beautiful creatures and like many men I look to the creation rather than the creator. "There is no temptation that is not common to man, but with that temptation, He will make a way of escape".
Some temptations are too powerful, so we have to run from it. Not dabble in it, and think we are strong enough flirt with it.
I am preaching to myself guys. 50 years of addiction, two failed marriages directly related to it. Thousands of wasted hours.
Tens of thousands of dollars.
I started reading USASG for obvious reasons, then I found this thread. I am making a commitment to become free.
Thanks for your ear and encouragement.
So I'm pretty happy with that. If I can hold out for 2 more weeks, I'll be in vaca with my SO and unable to indulge. Aiming for 2 months of abstinence. Wish me luck!
Stay safe all.
JS2.