Sexual Addiction Reports

[QUOTE=Harrywang;2167847]Simply put, I QUIT. I literally have to confess that I am a sex addict. I mean, shit, I spend a lot of time in a day doing sexual stuff by myself, with others, and fantasizing.

It is really really sad. It is a disease, it is really no different than smoking nicotine, or gambling, or whatever that is sinful but fun as fuck.

There was this post that lead me to start this thread. I was thinking along the same lines, but I think it is best to discuss this openly.

What I really want to know is how many of you are similar to me? Like, you lose count how many time you have masturbated in a day, or lost count on how many ho's have you bang in a month? Or just pretty much every woman you see on the street that is over a 5 you think how it would be to hit it while driving, walking?

There is a nature side of things, but fuck man, I am being destroyed by these thoughts every 7 seconds.

It is simply a disease, I need to cure it, and I don't really fucking have time to go to a so called rehab and fucking pay many grand to talk to retarded groups of people who need to open up.

I try to do as many things as I can throughout the day, but once I have free time, man fuck, the junior is thinking and that just fucking make me lose control. It is entirely biologically fucked to fight this.

Just like nicotine, I have no idea how many times I need to kick this habit. I know old fucks that are 85 years old want to fuck 18 year olds. Is it game over for me? Is it pretty much human nature to try to fuck and procreate till you fucking die?

I don't know man, this is fucking depressing. I have no self control, I check [URL]usasexguide.info[/URL] every day around midnight and hit with a freaking site that is either backing up and can't load shit, or it just said, ERROR.

What the fuck man, WHAT THE FUCK! I swear, I wish I have no money, and that way I will be starved sexually and maybe that will cure me. But fuck man, I have enough to do this every day and I wouldn't even notice it.

After awhile, I've already fucked every type of pussy, big, small, colored, not colored, fat, skinny, weirdos, flakers, smokers, drug addicts, you fucking name it.

So, why the fuck do I come back every time, to a fucking dirty ass place that literally is a door knob, everyone had a turn. Haha.

So this thread I hope will be a reminder that I FUCKING QUIT and see how long I can be fucking sober from this addiction.

H. W.[/QUOTE]So, have you quit quitting yet? I'ts been about an hour.

See you at the AMP's, dawg.

[QUOTE=Harrywang;2167847]Simply put, I QUIT. I literally have to confess that I am a sex addict. I mean, shit, I spend a lot of time in a day doing sexual stuff by myself, with others, and fantasizing.

It is really really sad. It is a disease, it is really no different than smoking nicotine, or gambling, or whatever that is sinful but fun as fuck.

There was this post that lead me to start this thread. I was thinking along the same lines, but I think it is best to discuss this openly.

What I really want to know is how many of you are similar to me? Like, you lose count how many time you have masturbated in a day, or lost count on how many ho's have you bang in a month? Or just pretty much every woman you see on the street that is over a 5 you think how it would be to hit it while driving, walking?

There is a nature side of things, but fuck man, I am being destroyed by these thoughts every 7 seconds.

It is simply a disease, I need to cure it, and I don't really fucking have time to go to a so called rehab and fucking pay many grand to talk to retarded groups of people who need to open up.

I try to do as many things as I can throughout the day, but once I have free time, man fuck, the junior is thinking and that just fucking make me lose control. It is entirely biologically fucked to fight this.

Just like nicotine, I have no idea how many times I need to kick this habit. I know old fucks that are 85 years old want to fuck 18 year olds. Is it game over for me? Is it pretty much human nature to try to fuck and procreate till you fucking die?

I don't know man, this is fucking depressing. I have no self control, I check [URL]usasexguide.info[/URL] every day around midnight and hit with a freaking site that is either backing up and can't load shit, or it just said, ERROR.

What the fuck man, WHAT THE FUCK! I swear, I wish I have no money, and that way I will be starved sexually and maybe that will cure me. But fuck man, I have enough to do this every day and I wouldn't even notice it.

After awhile, I've already fucked every type of pussy, big, small, colored, not colored, fat, skinny, weirdos, flakers, smokers, drug addicts, you fucking name it.

So, why the fuck do I come back every time, to a fucking dirty ass place that literally is a door knob, everyone had a turn. Haha.

So this thread I hope will be a reminder that I FUCKING QUIT and see how long I can be fucking sober from this addiction.

H. W.[/QUOTE]My ATF once warned me about being addicted, advised me to quit while she was feeding my addiction! How can you quit? Die. LOL. Plain and simple.

2 old men I know (in their 80's) at Waialae CC both told me if you cannot fuck "you might as well be dead". This after they were arguing about which ED drug was more effective, Viagra or Levitra.

So I am not going to try quitting again. Ain't going to work. I am an addict. If you go Thailand or China for fucking and sucking, FORGET IT. You are an addict.

This forum kinda helps feed this habit. When I read about a new girl somewhere and think the pictures are real or a bro tells me there's a new one somewhere, BOOM! I'm going to be thinking about her.

The worst thing you can do is have feelings for a provider. Once you cross that line you are dead meat. That I know for sure.

Don't try to fight it. Just try to control it and be reasonable with your expectations. No healthy male is going to stop thinking about a wet, sweet pussy. Especially with all the fucking tail walking around on the street these days!

Good luck HW!

MP Man.

[QUOTE=RottenOtto;2168212]So, have you quit quitting yet? I'ts been about an hour.

See you at the AMP's, dawg.[/QUOTE]Man, I jist woke up from a wet dream of a previous hot AMP girl giving me BBBJ and I couldn't cum. This is going to be hard!

[QUOTE=MiriKitani;2167865]I think this tread should be deleted by the admins it does not belong in this forum. Returning to this forum to post is only going to remind of what your missing. Its counter productive to what you want to achieve. IMHO.[/QUOTE]You are right but usasexguide to me isn't really entirely a source of "lets find out where the best and worse fucks are", I feel a sense of brotherhood community and this thread is really for me and for others (I highly doubt I am the 1st person on earth to consider this) to hopefully share experience and find help and advices.

Up to the admin really, I could have titled it different but I think it is a correct emotional title.

[QUOTE=Member#4201;2167849]Quitting cold turkey is hard. Try cutting back or restrict yourself to high quality girls and the money will make you cut back. BTW, I am up there and you never stop thinking about fucking young 18 year olds. Its a man thing.[/QUOTE]So, does your sex drive doesn't decrease, only the ability of doing so is? That seems like an evil way to design us.

Maybe I'm weird but I don't think you have a problem.

I think it's more of a societal imposed belief that you have excepted about yourself and you have let it get the best of you.

Kind of like the guilt you are feeling from the sexual thoughts fuels more guilt and thoughts of the same until your spiraling out of control.

What if you just excepted your sexual nature and realized it is part of your everyday life.

Nothing to fret about just keep it in check like 1 to 2 times a day 2 hour sessions each?

If you start needing more and more well weekend monger it and go for 3 to 4 a day 2 hour sessions, problem solved LOL.

All joking a side I'm half serious, fully embrace the inner monger and let him out to play (within acceptable reason) LOL.

Catch.

[QUOTE=Harrywang;2167847]Simply put, I QUIT. I literally have to confess that I am a sex addict. I mean, shit, I spend a lot of time in a day doing sexual stuff by myself, with others, and fantasizing.

It is really really sad. It is a disease, it is really no different than smoking nicotine, or gambling, or whatever that is sinful but fun as fuck.

There was this post that lead me to start this thread. I was thinking along the same lines, but I think it is best to discuss this openly.

What I really want to know is how many of you are similar to me? Like, you lose count how many time you have masturbated in a day, or lost count on how many ho's have you bang in a month? Or just pretty much every woman you see on the street that is over a 5 you think how it would be to hit it while driving, walking?

There is a nature side of things, but fuck man, I am being destroyed by these thoughts every 7 seconds.

It is simply a disease, I need to cure it, and I don't really fucking have time to go to a so called rehab and fucking pay many grand to talk to retarded groups of people who need to open up.

I try to do as many things as I can throughout the day, but once I have free time, man fuck, the junior is thinking and that just fucking make me lose control. It is entirely biologically fucked to fight this.

Just like nicotine, I have no idea how many times I need to kick this habit. I know old fucks that are 85 years old want to fuck 18 year olds. Is it game over for me? Is it pretty much human nature to try to fuck and procreate till you fucking die?

I don't know man, this is fucking depressing. I have no self control, I check [URL]usasexguide.info[/URL] every day around midnight and hit with a freaking site that is either backing up and can't load shit, or it just said, ERROR.

What the fuck man, WHAT THE FUCK! I swear, I wish I have no money, and that way I will be starved sexually and maybe that will cure me. But fuck man, I have enough to do this every day and I wouldn't even notice it.

After awhile, I've already fucked every type of pussy, big, small, colored, not colored, fat, skinny, weirdos, flakers, smokers, drug addicts, you fucking name it.

So, why the fuck do I come back every time, to a fucking dirty ass place that literally is a door knob, everyone had a turn. Haha.

So this thread I hope will be a reminder that I FUCKING QUIT and see how long I can be fucking sober from this addiction.

H. W.[/QUOTE]

Ok. All I can think about is my next massage.

I have a LTR with a freak in the bed that will do ANYTHING I want. BUT she doesn't really give a good massage.

Is it wrong that I keep searching BP for new massage?

I've never been to an escort for FS. Only massage.

[QUOTE=Harrywang;2168242]So, does your sex drive doesn't decrease, only the ability of doing so is? That seems like an evil way to design us.[/QUOTE]You are not alone, brother. If I don't bust minimum one nut a day, I can't function. Fucking disease with the cure being the problem! Anyway, got to go look for my next victim (s) for the evening.

Well, its been 2 years since I kicked the habit (see posts 354 and 341). It does get easier with time as the mind changes.

One big change I see in how my mind works: in my horndog days, I used to be motivated by memories of the good times, when an encounter went spectacularly well. But they were actually rare, and usually not all that good. Nowadays I mostly remember the bad times -- the great majority -- the dreary encounters, the occasionally deranged or high girl, the bad smells, the ripoffs, the police encounters, etc, etc. Fortunately I was never busted, never harmed, and had only 3 or 4 STDs all curable. Whew!

And I would never judge anyone on here because I had "been there done that" for a long time.

I shudder at the thought of street prostitution. And feel no desire for a cold liaison on BP. The only real temptation now is the Sugar Daddy scenario, which looks easy to arrange with many web sites now catering to that. But I've managed to convince myself I can't afford it, and I remember the bad feelings I often had from the few Sugar Baby relationships I had some years ago.

[QUOTE=Snake27;2246271]Well, its been 2 years since I kicked the habit (see posts 354 and 341). It does get easier with time as the mind changes.

One big change I see in how my mind works: in my horndog days, I used to be motivated by memories of the good times, when an encounter went spectacularly well. But they were actually rare, and usually not all that good. Nowadays I mostly remember the bad times -- the great majority -- the dreary encounters, the occasionally deranged or high girl, the bad smells, the ripoffs, the police encounters, etc, etc. Fortunately I was never busted, never harmed, and had only 3 or 4 STDs all curable. Whew!

And I would never judge anyone on here because I had "been there done that" for a long time.

I shudder at the thought of street prostitution. And feel no desire for a cold liaison on BP. The only real temptation now is the Sugar Daddy scenario, which looks easy to arrange with many web sites now catering to that. But I've managed to convince myself I can't afford it, and I remember the bad feelings I often had from the few Sugar Baby relationships I had some years ago.[/QUOTE]Snake, with all due respect if you're really out of the hobby why are you trolling on these sites? That's like a crackhead just hanging around the crackhouse. See'Mon. Man.

[QUOTE=Dsrtp1;2251025]Snake, with all due respect if you're really out of the hobby why are you trolling on these sites? That's like a crackhead just hanging around the crackhouse. See'Mon. Man.[/QUOTE]Actually I am out of the hobby and feel pretty good. Now, I am obviously anonymous here, so you never really know, do you? But at least I have been fairly consistent here the last few years.

I think this thread is an interesting topic and serves a useful purpose for some. For a small minority of forum members.

With all due respect, I don't think the comparison can be made to crack.

[QUOTE=Snake27;2256178]Actually I am out of the hobby and feel pretty good. Now, I am obviously anonymous here, so you never really know, do you? But at least I have been fairly consistent here the last few years.

I think this thread is an interesting topic and serves a useful purpose for some. For a small minority of forum members.

With all due respect, I don't think the comparison can be made to crack.[/QUOTE]I don't mean to be argumentative but I was curious about your thought process. I've considered quitting the hobby and have taken extended leaves of absence. I can only speak from my experience and conclude that whenever I log on and stay connected to these sites, forums, etc. It makes it more difficult to quit. If it's working for you, I'm glad. Good luck.

[QUOTE=Dsrtp1;2256615]I don't mean to be argumentative but I was curious about your thought process. I've considered quitting the hobby and have taken extended leaves of absence. I can only speak from my experience and conclude that whenever I log on and stay connected to these sites, forums, etc. It makes it more difficult to quit. If it's working for you, I'm glad. Good luck.[/QUOTE]Fair enough, and we're cool. I see this tiny corner of the USASG as possibly helpful and therapeutic to some, though possibly annoying and judgemental to most, so I try to be cautious and not seem to proselytize.

Looking back, I see the process of quitting took about 10 years, with a gradual mitigation of risk and a reduction of involvement, interspersed with relapses. I never really saw this forum as a cause for relapse. Porn was a much bigger influence, though I have grown weary of it now.

The tipping point was 2 years ago due to a convergence of factors, namely dissatisfaction, becoming "mature" (older and calmer, though still functional), and the onset of poverty caused by several issues and priorities unrelated to the hobby. If I won the lottery I might have a relapse and find a nice sugar baby, but the odds are that I am done. The more I am away from it, though, the more pride and resolve I feel, as it is a triumph of the mind.

After many years in this game and only a short time on USA pages, (2 years) (188 post), I must ask, am I a addict? I have been married to a great woman (40 years) who I love, but can't complete a rewarding sex act with any longer (no cumming, oral, hand)! Spend more time on USA, then most. Have to much invested (money, kids, grand kids,) them most, to just leave, so I look to pick up the pieces, from the outside world. (BP, craigs list, USA post). When ever I hookup, its like a high that can't be explained, for days, weeks, dreaming of the girls I just fucked, and wanting more (2,3 a day) when I'm playing this sick dangerous game. I work hard and have the $$s to spend, so I can DREAM as much as I want. I'm not hurting anyone? Right? I don't know how much longer I can play, before it all falls down on me, and I lose ever thing?? Stay safe DRKSD.

[QUOTE=DarkSideOfMe;2258321]After many years in this game and only a short time on USA pages, (2 years) (188 post), I must ask, am I a addict? I have been married to a great woman (40 years) who I love, but can't complete a rewarding sex act with any longer (no cumming, oral, hand)! Spend more time on USA, then most. Have to much invested (money, kids, grand kids,) them most, to just leave, so I look to pick up the pieces, from the outside world. (BP, craigs list, USA post). When ever I hookup, its like a high that can't be explained, for days, weeks, dreaming of the girls I just fucked, and wanting more (2,3 a day) when I'm playing this sick dangerous game. I work hard and have the $$s to spend, so I can DREAM as much as I want. I'm not hurting anyone? Right? I don't know how much longer I can play, before it all falls down on me, and I lose ever thing?? Stay safe DRKSD.[/QUOTE]I'm not sure if you're an addict. The answer may be that you're simply a man. I believe most of us are wired like you've described and the minority isn't. I don't think it's natural to fuck the same woman for 40 years and expect to get that same high from fucking a 20 or 30 something hottie you've just met. IMHO, as long as you're not hurting your family and their well being, you're not doing anything wrong. On the contrary, you're a true American helping the economy. It sounds like you have a lot to lose, so be extra careful. Unfortunately, society doesn't find this behavior acceptable. I wish we would just legalize prostitution, regulate it, tax it, make providers get tested, and accept it because it's never going to disappear.