Moving on to the next chapter
Folks, I did not envision that this day would ever come, but a confluence of factors have led me to the decision to hang up my codpiece and exit the stage. Without getting sappy, I just feel that staying in the hobby is incompatible with with the way I want to live my life going forward.
I will stop in from time to time as I attempt to wean myself away from and conquer my urges, and maybe offer some sage advice or caustic commentary. I may backslide a time or two, although that is not my intention. I expect it will be kind of like quitting smoking, which I did manage to do successfully several decades ago, so I will apply the same principles. But going cold turkey after over 3 decades of "the life" will present it's own unique set of challenges. It will not be easy for me to establish "normal" relationships with "regular" women, but I am going to try like hell to do so. I am already out there and have had a few bites, so the hurdles might not be as high as I originally feared they might be. But only time will tell. I guess I will simply have to lie when questions about my "past" come up, I cannot imagine anyone even wanting to hear the truth let alone being comfortable with it. I hate to do that, but I do not see any other viable alternative.
This is about as close to spilling my guts as I am going to get, so just wish me luck. Be safe, stay healthy and stay out of trouble.
Pete
P.S. You have no idea how hard it was to write this letter or one like it until you sit down to do so.