Sexual Addiction Reports

[QUOTE=Bozoner;4767881]I have likened my cravings to a drink from a poisoned fountain that leaves one eternally thirsty. I drank from the fountain when I was 27 and have never stopped looking for that rush again. Yes, I "quit" too for a while, but now I really I can never do it. Even now, with this epidemic, I know I would not hesitate if there were providers nearby.[/QUOTE]The coronavirus situation was never going to seriously affect my personal play time. I don't know which would be worse, giving up my favorite hobby for an extended period or actually getting the coronavirus. Call me stupid, but that's honestly how I feel.

The privileges of working from home and the increased availability among providers made seeing them even easier and more tempting, especially a few months ago when things got really bad.

I never thought I would be doing this honestly in a million years. I'm still somewhat young (30's) consider myself attractive, decent stable job, homeowner, blah blah blah. But over the years I just got burned out by relationships. I feel like most women these days are so full of themselves and with the rise of social media, things have gotten ridiculous as far as dating goes. Its like if the girl is even remotely attractive she gets multiple messages per day from keyboard knights in shining armor saying how beautiful she is and hoping to hang out sometime. I think its blown egos out of proportion and now we as men (at least in my generation) get held to such a high standard that if we don't deliver on the daily, James Bond from Home Depot gets to swoop in because hes been throwing her BS lines for months until she finally decides to give the dog his day. F*ck that. I'm not enslaving myself to that torture. I have way too much self respect.

If I can humble myself for a second, that isn't to say that I shouldn't have a finger pointed at me as well. I feel like sometimes the sexual portion of the relationship takes the drivers seat above everything else for me and when I look for a potential partner, they have to fit my criteria on attractiveness or they are just aren't someone I wish to pursue something with. Can't tell you how many good girls I've shrugged because I just can't picture the thought of seeing myself in bed with them. I like a tight bodied girl with some curves that lets her hair down and knows how to turn me on in the covers. But as mentioned before the effort of keeping someone like that interested is more than a full time job.

Even skipthegames has girls trying to trick so its obvious this isn't avoidable but it is a better option for the most part. Its incredible to see someone you like (after reading reviews here of course) effortlessly getting a number to her and making a plan to meet later that day and it be a guaranteed thing. No more free drinks and dinner dates for girls who won't even so much as give a decent hug at the end of the night. Sure it comes with a higher price tag but I figure one successful STG visit is roughly same damage as 2-3 dinner dates and also has a better guarantee. Of course like everything though. Who knows how long this will accessible before LEO steps in or just becomes diluted with scammers that it becomes not worth the time either.

[QUOTE=CGuy2537;4814018]I never thought I would be doing this honestly in a million years. I'm still somewhat young (30's) consider myself attractive, decent stable job, homeowner, blah blah blah. But over the years I just got burned out by relationships. I feel like most women these days are so full of themselves and with the rise of social media, things have gotten ridiculous as far as dating goes. Its like if the girl is even remotely attractive she gets multiple messages per day from keyboard knights in shining armor saying how beautiful she is and hoping to hang out sometime. I think its blown egos out of proportion and now we as men (at least in my generation) get held to such a high standard that if we don't deliver on the daily, James Bond from Home Depot gets to swoop in because hes been throwing her BS lines for months until she finally decides to give the dog his day. F*ck that. I'm not enslaving myself to that torture. I have way too much self respect.

If I can humble myself for a second, that isn't to say that I shouldn't have a finger pointed at me as well. I feel like sometimes the sexual portion of the relationship takes the drivers seat above everything else for me and when I look for a potential partner, they have to fit my criteria on attractiveness or they are just aren't someone I wish to pursue something with. Can't tell you how many good girls I've shrugged because I just can't picture the thought of seeing myself in bed with them. I like a tight bodied girl with some curves that lets her hair down and knows how to turn me on in the covers. But as mentioned before the effort of keeping someone like that interested is more than a full time job.

Even skipthegames has girls trying to trick so its obvious this isn't avoidable but it is a better option for the most part. Its incredible to see someone you like (after reading reviews here of course) effortlessly getting a number to her and making a plan to meet later that day and it be a guaranteed thing. No more free drinks and dinner dates for girls who won't even so much as give a decent hug at the end of the night. Sure it comes with a higher price tag but I figure one successful STG visit is roughly same damage as 2-3 dinner dates and also has a better guarantee. Of course like everything though. Who knows how long this will accessible before LEO steps in or just becomes diluted with scammers that it becomes not worth the time either.[/QUOTE]I can't imagine being a young single guy in the social media and Tindr era. Social media has changed everything and inflated women's egos to disastrous proportions. If you haven't read his books or his blog already, read Rollo Tomassi's stuff. It's more descriptive than a step by step guide.

I'm in my 50's. I don't have the exact requirements that you do, but I not into chicks who are either skinny (slender ok, skinny is not) or more than, say, 20 or 25 lbs overweight. Even those requirements rule out a lot of chicks, though.

[QUOTE=CGuy2537;4814018]I never thought I would be doing this honestly in a million years. I'm still somewhat young (30's) consider myself attractive, decent stable job, homeowner, blah blah blah. But over the years I just got burned out by relationships. I feel like most women these days are so full of themselves and with the rise of social media, things have gotten ridiculous as far as dating goes. Its like if the girl is even remotely attractive she gets multiple messages per day from keyboard knights in shining armor saying how beautiful she is and hoping to hang out sometime. I think its blown egos out of proportion and now we as men (at least in my generation) get held to such a high standard that if we don't deliver on the daily, James Bond from Home Depot gets to swoop in because hes been throwing her BS lines for months until she finally decides to give the dog his day. F*ck that. I'm not enslaving myself to that torture. I have way too much self respect.

If I can humble myself for a second, that isn't to say that I shouldn't have a finger pointed at me as well. I feel like sometimes the sexual portion of the relationship takes the drivers seat above everything else for me and when I look for a potential partner, they have to fit my criteria on attractiveness or they are just aren't someone I wish to pursue something with. Can't tell you how many good girls I've shrugged because I just can't picture the thought of seeing myself in bed with them. I like a tight bodied girl with some curves that lets her hair down and knows how to turn me on in the covers. But as mentioned before the effort of keeping someone like that interested is more than a full time job.

Even skipthegames has girls trying to trick so its obvious this isn't avoidable but it is a better option for the most part. Its incredible to see someone you like (after reading reviews here of course) effortlessly getting a number to her and making a plan to meet later that day and it be a guaranteed thing. No more free drinks and dinner dates for girls who won't even so much as give a decent hug at the end of the night. Sure it comes with a higher price tag but I figure one successful STG visit is roughly same damage as 2-3 dinner dates and also has a better guarantee. Of course like everything though. Who knows how long this will accessible before LEO steps in or just becomes diluted with scammers that it becomes not worth the time either.[/QUOTE]Dude I feel ya there. I'm only 31 and the dating sucks horribly here. I started seeing escorts in my early twenties. My last relationship wasn't so great and that's when I turned to this. I've been trying to date but honestly girls are so petty these days. If you're not a perfect ten or rich then they won't give you the time of day. I want to get out of this lifestyle but I don't want to be lonely either. I've been burned to much in this and in the dating game as well. I'm definitely getting out eventually though.

[QUOTE=CGuy2537;4814018]I never thought I would be doing this honestly in a million years. I'm still somewhat young (30's) consider myself attractive, decent stable job, homeowner, blah blah blah. But over the years I just got burned out by relationships. I feel like most women these days are so full of themselves and with the rise of social media, things have gotten ridiculous as far as dating goes. Its like if the girl is even remotely attractive she gets multiple messages per day from keyboard knights in shining armor saying how beautiful she is and hoping to hang out sometime. I think its blown egos out of proportion and now we as men (at least in my generation) get held to such a high standard that if we don't deliver on the daily, James Bond from Home Depot gets to swoop in because hes been throwing her BS lines for months until she finally decides to give the dog his day. F*ck that. I'm not enslaving myself to that torture. I have way too much self respect.

If I can humble myself for a second, that isn't to say that I shouldn't have a finger pointed at me as well. I feel like sometimes the sexual portion of the relationship takes the drivers seat above everything else for me and when I look for a potential partner, they have to fit my criteria on attractiveness or they are just aren't someone I wish to pursue something with. Can't tell you how many good girls I've shrugged because I just can't picture the thought of seeing myself in bed with them. I like a tight bodied girl with some curves that lets her hair down and knows how to turn me on in the covers. But as mentioned before the effort of keeping someone like that interested is more than a full time job.[/QUOTE]I get what you're saying about women being picky and having incredibly high standards, but its escalation through social media is only a side effect. That's just how women are. The bottom 80% of women compete for the top 20% of men.

You're very open about what you like, a tight-bodied girl who knows how to turn you on in the sheets. That's what every guy wants. Welcome to the club. It's only fair to recognize that women have preferences too, though they aren't anymore noble than ours.

At the end of the day, you have to be what women want you to be. That largely means being wealthy, charismatic, and looking like you can beat the shit out of other men. Be at least one of those things if you want to keep them interested.

[QUOTE=Von1995;4848532]I get what you're saying about women being picky and having incredibly high standards, but its escalation through social media is only a side effect. That's just how women are. The bottom 80% of women compete for the top 20% of men.

You're very open about what you like, a tight-bodied girl who knows how to turn you on in the sheets. That's what every guy wants. Welcome to the club. It's only fair to recognize that women have preferences too, though they aren't anymore noble than ours.

At the end of the day, you have to be what women want you to be. That largely means being wealthy, charismatic, and looking like you can beat the shit out of other men. Be at least one of those things if you want to keep them interested.[/QUOTE]I agreed with you absolutely.

[QUOTE=Bozoner;4767881]I have likened my cravings to a drink from a poisoned fountain that leaves one eternally thirsty. I drank from the fountain when I was 27 and have never stopped looking for that rush again. Yes, I "quit" too for a while, but now I really I can never do it. I want it too much, and have risked everything to get it. Even now, with this epidemic, I know I would not hesitate if there were providers nearby. Only my isolation keeps this hunger in check.[/QUOTE]I'm one of us too. Covid has been a distraction that keeps me from "acting out" as its called in the SA community. Its a tough disease and can't do it alone. One of the best resources that's frank and non judgmental is the work of Robert Weiss. Google him, watch his YouTube videos or pod casts in car. He's spot on when it comes to this.

[QUOTE=Eyes1515;4742289]Title says it all. PM for details![/QUOTE]Eyes1515, I was trying to send you message but your inbox is full I guess lot of interest made it full before I saw your ad. .

I am same as one of you here. Thinking lot of time to quit. Get addicted but also can control. But again addition is addiction. More or less dpesnt matter. I'm glad visit this page. Because lot of time I feel like I want to discuss this with someone and like to hear something from others. I found this is the place to share feelings.

[QUOTE=Ymch520;4888924]I am same as one of you here. Thinking lot of time to quit. Get addicted but also can control. But again addition is addiction. More or less dpesnt matter. I'm glad visit this page. Because lot of time I feel like I want to discuss this with someone and like to hear something from others. I found this is the place to share feelings.[/QUOTE]Has anyone ever gone to SAA meetings? Like AA but its all about Sex and Love Addiction.

I attended a few meetings and I think I was mostly in denial at the time, but to hear some of the struggles it certainly showed how serious this can be. One of the worst part was hearing from some of the young guys in their early 20's that have porn Addiction and porn induced erectile dysfunction. Literally brain is hooked and cannot meaningfully do anything in their lives except look at porn all day. Really sad state of affairs.

[QUOTE=Urbanite;4901750]Has anyone ever gone to SAA meetings? Like AA but its all about Sex and Love Addiction.

I attended a few meetings and I think I was mostly in denial at the time, but to hear some of the struggles it certainly showed how serious this can be. One of the worst part was hearing from some of the young guys in their early 20's that have porn Addiction and porn induced erectile dysfunction. Literally brain is hooked and cannot meaningfully do anything in their lives except look at porn all day. Really sad state of affairs.[/QUOTE]I went to quite a few about twenty years ago. I got very uncomfortable with the cult-like feel of the 12 step program and came to realize it was not relevant to my situation. I am not an addict due to any trauma or self-loathing issues and found it curiously odd to be sitting in a group of men (women do not go to SAA meetings in my experice) who I had little in common with other than a sex drive I find difficult to control. It was oppressive in the extreme and depressing in its practice.

I have not been to SAA meetings or even heard of them.

But I got busted years ago and S. O. Sent me to SA Counseling. It started out OK, "you shouldn't do this because of AIDS, immoral, diseases", etc. FINE. I get it. Then after a few weeks she showed me this circle of the evolution of Sexual Addiction.

Starts with Porn.

Then actual meets, cheating or prostitutes.

Then 3 somes.

Then Group sex.

Then possible Bi interactions.

OK I was with her up to this point. I wasn't even bi-curious but I can see how that can happen. I mean with a blindfold on, head is head, right?

OK then the next ring is pedophile!

That's when I left and never returned. No way would that ever happen!

[QUOTE=Urbanite;4901750]Has anyone ever gone to SAA meetings? [/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=DaveSalem;4903896]I have not been to SAA meetings or even heard of them.

But I got busted years ago and S. O. Sent me to SA Counseling. It started out OK, "you shouldn't do this because of AIDS, immoral, diseases", etc. FINE. I get it. Then after a few weeks she showed me this circle of the evolution of Sexual Addiction.

Starts with Porn.

Then actual meets, cheating or prostitutes.

Then 3 somes.

Then Group sex.

Then possible Bi interactions.

OK I was with her up to this point. I wasn't even bi-curious but I can see how that can happen. I mean with a blindfold on, head is head, right?

OK then the next ring is pedophile!

That's when I left and never returned. No way would that ever happen![/QUOTE]I was busted too, and sent to a therapist. After he expressed what almost seemed like disappointment when I confirmed that I had no interest in "peeping," he sent me to SAA. I am not sure why an overactive libido is instantly classified as "addiction. " One could also label obesity as "food addiction" I suppose.

I've been inactive in meet ups ever since this pandemic took off. I've noticed my family life getting better. I've noticed my finances improve. I've noticed that I have taken more time to engage in healthy eating and exercising. Overall I'm a better person who's actively pursuing more of my interests. I think a lot of that is tied into my not meeting up with girls, not spending as much energy on trying to homework on girls to meet up with. I think that in a lot of ways I should be much happier and running away from this hobby. Yet I'm still checking theses boards, less frequently, but still more than I'm happy with. I've started to scope out postings again. I've never truly gotten any level of enjoyment from a girl that hasn't been attached to some level of shame. I guess I'm not really sure what direction to go in anymore. I don't see SA as a place for me based off some comments I've been reading here, but I think it's becoming clearer to me that this is not something that I'm in control of anymore. What other options have you men found for dealing with addiction? Have you found threads that have been helpful here? Have you found them elsewhere? I'm not sure what my next steps are, or if I'll go back to the hobby later, but I think it's worth exploring more now.

[QUOTE=Vbenny;4924779]I've been inactive in meet ups ever since this pandemic took off. I've noticed my family life getting better. I've noticed my finances improve. I've noticed that I have taken more time to engage in healthy eating and exercising. Overall I'm a better person who's actively pursuing more of my interests. I think a lot of that is tied into my not meeting up with girls, not spending as much energy on trying to homework on girls to meet up with. I think that in a lot of ways I should be much happier and running away from this hobby. Yet I'm still checking theses boards, less frequently, but still more than I'm happy with. I've started to scope out postings again. I've never truly gotten any level of enjoyment from a girl that hasn't been attached to some level of shame. I guess I'm not really sure what direction to go in anymore. I don't see SA as a place for me based off some comments I've been reading here, but I think it's becoming clearer to me that this is not something that I'm in control of anymore. What other options have you men found for dealing with addiction? Have you found threads that have been helpful here? Have you found them elsewhere? I'm not sure what my next steps are, or if I'll go back to the hobby later, but I think it's worth exploring more now.[/QUOTE]Definitely going through the same stuff. Since the pandemic, theres been no acting out, but have still ventured here on occasion. I will say that reading the works of Robert Weiss (Sex and Love Addiction) expert has been helpful. He's non judgmental and not pushy on 12 step, but the way he frames everything is spot on. Rediscovering other interests and financial benefits are eye opening and rewarding, but the cycle is still easy to fall back in if not careful.

[QUOTE=Vbenny;4924779]I've been inactive in meet ups ever since this pandemic took off. I've noticed my family life getting better. I've noticed my finances improve. I've noticed that I have taken more time to engage in healthy eating and exercising. Overall I'm a better person who's actively pursuing more of my interests. I think a lot of that is tied into my not meeting up with girls, not spending as much energy on trying to homework on girls to meet up with. I think that in a lot of ways I should be much happier and running away from this hobby. Yet I'm still checking theses boards, less frequently, but still more than I'm happy with. I've started to scope out postings again. I've never truly gotten any level of enjoyment from a girl that hasn't been attached to some level of shame. I guess I'm not really sure what direction to go in anymore. I don't see SA as a place for me based off some comments I've been reading here, but I think it's becoming clearer to me that this is not something that I'm in control of anymore. What other options have you men found for dealing with addiction? Have you found threads that have been helpful here? Have you found them elsewhere? I'm not sure what my next steps are, or if I'll go back to the hobby later, but I think it's worth exploring more now.[/QUOTE]Just thought I'd stop by see how my crazy Bro's where doing in this Cov -19 time of depression, loneliness. LOL Yes, we all feel the same way, we have cut back, or maybe stopped our addiction temporary, we say, but still we have that urge that's overpowered our mind, and to still think with our little head. Will it ever go away? Family life has gotten better, more time with the wife, more money, less lie's, but I so miss that high, I need to get me through the day's, thinking about the young, old woman I've fucked and the thrill it gave me, only to need more, more more?

Am I a addict?

Fuck Yaaaa!

Stay safe.

I don't miss the lying, the discomfort of possible discovery, and the health hazards. I do miss the rush. So much.

[QUOTE=Bozoner;4973487]I don't miss the lying, the discomfort of possible discovery, and the health hazards. I do miss the rush. So much.[/QUOTE]Thats exactly it.

Just have to chime in with my two cents here. After my back to back nightmares (which you can read in my post history), I'm beginning to wonder what happened to the hobby, and what the answer to this problem is.

[QUOTE=TailHunter69;4989985]Just have to chime in with my two cents here. After my back to back nightmares (which you can read in my post history), I'm beginning to wonder what happened to the hobby, and what the answer to this problem is.[/QUOTE]Just curious. Do you interpret those experiences as more than just a one-off and more like time to "get out?

Can't sum up my feelings any better than that. I failed last night. Over the past two years, I'd managed to dial my habits way back, to the point where I would mostly get a handjob from an SW and even then it was very infrequent. The last couple times I got full service I realized I didn't have much more stomach for the immediate shame and guilt. However, last night, a bunch of life stresses forced me to venture out for relief. Met up with an old provider I used to see, got a BBBJ and finished off nutting with my tip barely inside of her. The shame, guilt, and fear hit me immediately. I ran home, did my bleach protocol (few drops of bleach diluted in warm water, soaking my knob in it) and sat depressed and ashamed. What was I thinking, fooling myself that I could be on the other side of this?

Overall, I still feel like I'm coming out the other side of my addiction. I've had less than ten encounters this year, most no more than kissing and a HJ, and I'm even trying to curtail those. Maybe I needed this experience to reiterate why I need out of this thing. I still can't shake the guilt, shame, and other feelings, and I think I just bought myself a trip to the clinic for a screening. Fuck this hobby. I seriously want out of this shit.

[QUOTE=DjHunter;5045619]Can't sum up my feelings any better than that. I failed last night. Over the past two years, I'd managed to dial my habits way back, to the point where I would mostly get a handjob from an SW and even then it was very infrequent. The last couple times I got full service I realized I didn't have much more stomach for the immediate shame and guilt. However, last night, a bunch of life stresses forced me to venture out for relief. Met up with an old provider I used to see, got a BBBJ and finished off nutting with my tip barely inside of her. The shame, guilt, and fear hit me immediately. I ran home, did my bleach protocol (few drops of bleach diluted in warm water, soaking my knob in it) and sat depressed and ashamed. What was I thinking, fooling myself that I could be on the other side of this?

Overall, I still feel like I'm coming out the other side of my addiction. I've had less than ten encounters this year, most no more than kissing and a HJ, and I'm even trying to curtail those. Maybe I needed this experience to reiterate why I need out of this thing. I still can't shake the guilt, shame, and other feelings, and I think I just bought myself a trip to the clinic for a screening. Fuck this hobby. I seriously want out of this shit.[/QUOTE]In Sex Addicts anonymous. They say 'progress not perfection', so if you feel like you are moving in the direction of sobriety you should be grateful.

[QUOTE=Csheen;5046377]In Sex Addicts anonymous. They say 'progress not perfection', so if you feel like you are moving in the direction of sobriety you should be grateful.[/QUOTE]Thanks. I think that saying means a lot. I still feel bad about slipping and, moreover, slipping in such a risky way (getting a BBBJ and putting my peter anywhere near her vag). That's way too much for me these days, and this is coming from a person whose had his fair share of BBBJ / BBFS encounters. I also don't want to have to make "emergency" clinic visits but I'm not taking chances.

Outside of the lingering feelings of shame and guilt, I still feel optimistic that I can come out the other side of this and get it out of my life for good. I just need to get past this recent episode. Thanks for those words.

Hey why'll.

I got into the game very early. Around when I was 20/21 years old? I had / have pretty low self esteem in the past so I guess the thought of having sex easily appealed to me greatly. To add to that, the thrill of backpage was something else. Anyway, I used my parents money to see girls and when I graduated and got my own job I started trying to quit. For me its like once the feeling latches on, I'm doing nothing but scrolling forums, calling girls. I feel very much helpless when I get in this phase. I have been doing very well though. The last time I saw someone was like at least 7-8 months ago? Since then I have contacted an escort and cancelled on my way twice. I have convinced myself naturally that the lying and mental damage the game will do to me (as I view it, no dig on people who view mongering differently), will be irreparable and when I do get intimate with a girl one day, this will be an issue. So that's how I stop myself, another way is to imagine the damage it would do to my mom and my family. The disappointment would be immense. Also I think its easier to start thinking about quitting after you start to feel intense guilt on the way back home. Even easier if the experience itself was nothing special or bad in some way.

Recently, I have been perusing this site and my go-to agencies in my area. However, I am managing to kind of stop myself a bit, but ngl if this one provider texted me back right now, I'm not sure what I would do. I'm in a weird head space where I have quit on the way multiple times but somehow feel I am ready to fuck up 2021 for myself by doing this.

On another note, how linked do you think your hunger for escorts is to porn? I feel like maybe pornography is maybe the thing that always leads my mind wandering back.

Nice to see some other people's struggles though, thanks for posting, I am looking into some authors that have been mentioned like Rob Weiss, maybe can find some inspiration to keep my streak going.

Here's my advice to you as someone twice your age who didn't have the internet when I was your age, or I probably would've done the same thing. I was too cheap though to pay for sex that I could get on my own. I did spend some time overseas and the legal prostitution was just too good and too cheap to pass up, so I did enjoy a few BJ's.

My advice is to [B]sow your oats as much as possible[/B] before you settle down and get married. My biggest misfortune in life was not doing this before marriage. I married for love. The sex was "good", but I didn't know what "great" was yet. Enter kids, wife loses interest in sex, the internet, and now I'm an official monger stealing money from the family funds and sneaking behind everyone's back. Now I know what great sex is, and it sure as fuck isn't happening at home.

Do not follow this path in life. I wish I was not a monger and a cheater.

Hate to tell someone to dump your gf if she's not good in bed, but let me put it another way: dump your girlfriend if she's not good in bed! Love will come again. You need to find a partner that you love and that absolutely rocks your world and every fantasy you have. Discuss porn. Discuss escorts. Discuss that sexual wants and needs cannot go unfulfilled. Explain that if guys (not all though) don't get really good pussy at home on a regular basis, they're going to find it elsewhere. Women don't respect this. It's just how some-to-most of us are wired.

[QUOTE=LustCaution;5149490]...if this one provider texted me back right now, I'm not sure what I would do. I'm in a weird head space where I have quit on the way multiple times but somehow feel I am ready to fuck up 2021 for myself by doing this.

Nice to see some other people's struggles though, thanks for posting.[/QUOTE]

Personally I am addicted to chase rather than the act itself. For myself I find looking for a hotter SW at a reasonable to be exciting. These days I cruise much less since there fewer good looking SW's where I live in SD. I tend to stick to TJ at least for now. I also enjoy reading other guys adventure on this forum.

So. I've been mongering since I was 18. (horny bastard). I always told myself I would stop but I can't. Its not really hurting my financial situation because I'm single. I've on the forum since 2008. (I delete my account several times out of guilt). I'm 36 now and my plan is to save money to retire in Thailand or vietnam so I can fuck all day everyday. I enjoy it but I'm buzzin from the alcohol and wondering if I have problems because I love fucking prostitutes. Can anyone relate?

[QUOTE=WhyOhWhy;5172840]So. I've been mongering since I was 18. (horny bastard). I always told myself I would stop but I can't. Its not really hurting my financial situation because I'm single. I've on the forum since 2008. (I delete my account several times out of guilt). I'm 36 now and my plan is to save money to retire in Thailand or vietnam so I can fuck all day everyday. I enjoy it but I'm buzzin from the alcohol and wondering if I have problems because I love fucking prostitutes. Can anyone relate?[/QUOTE]I started young too, due to being in the military, though I was out of the scene for a long time until I was older. I've slowed down on the hobby in the past year due to COVID, age (50's), and the local scene not being as good as it used to be. But in the past, not all that long ago, I used to fantasize about moving to a part of town where I would have easier access to women. Heck, I've thought it would be pretty cool to be able to walk 6 or 7 blocks to bang a provider, walk back home, and no one being the wiser for what happened on my "walk". I've also envied the mongers in their late 60's or 70's who are still banging women in their 20's.

I will probably always have occasional trysts in the hobby for the rest of my life, but I'm reaching a point where more and more, seeing providers usually isn't worth the trouble. Maybe I'll change my mind in a few months when it's shorts and bikini season, but right now, I'd be content with seeing a provider 3 or 4 times a year. Maybe you'll get to that point too when you get older.

The only reason the pandemic has stopped me is the fact it has robbed me of legitimate excuses to be out of the house.

Have you ever lost the feeling of orgasm.

[QUOTE=Bozone;5175775]The only reason the pandemic has stopped me is the fact it has robbed me of legitimate excuses to be out of the house.[/QUOTE]Ha ha! Yep! At least Home Depot was still open.

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Tell me how it looks.[/QUOTE]Same site in Barcelona Spain. OMG the girls were beautiful, GFE and reasonable. Some local Spanish girls, no LE problems. I glad I don't live there, I'd be broke!! Had a 19 yo gal go ass up face down and told me to eat it. God it was amazing to suck, lick and kiss her glorioso tanned ass! Her little corn hole was like sugar!! Wow! Slipped inside and pooped too soon (she felt wonderful). Saw her twice. And the visits include a mutual shower before and after. The feeling of her ass and tits all soaped up in my hands was pure joy!! My hard cock poking her in her juicy but cheek (how it gave to the pressure) was another highlight. 19 yo pussy is unreal.

I also used to see a gal from another board. She was 18 and new to the biz. She was CFS and CBJ, but the highlight was DATY!! Watching her anus pulsate (in 69) when she came is etched in my brain forever!!.

Mot sure I'm helping anyone with this story, but more of an admittance that I'm hooked too! I stopped for three weeks due to my initial hysteria over the Rona. I started up playing regularly last spring, and most of the summer with not even a sneeze. I did spend most of my time with a reg.

Anyway, from a fellow horn dog.

Doc recommended HRT for chronic low T. Wow! I'm better is so many ways! Getting jacked is super easy (not body builder size) although you don't take super high amounts as that's an issue. I feel 25 again save some aches and pains after heavy physical activities. On the hobby front. Holy crap I'm horny as a three dick billy goat! HRT is not helping getting out of pooning! It want it so much these days! A saw a girl in yoga pants at the market and had to cover my boner.

Gee thanks doc.

I do worry about the number of girls addicted these days. Lots of robs to fulfil the habit. Society at large appears to be numbing itself with dope and VR. There's a reason I don't own a VR hood. It be too much porn and trust me way better VR is on the way. That will likely kill sex between real people as soon you'll not be able to distinguish VR pussy (think flesh light hooked to a vr hood with moisture sensors and heat for $1000 initially). Sounds crazy, but it's coming. Couple years later that VR pussy will sell for $299. AI is getting cheaper all the time. I'm totally rambling now. It helps get crap off my mind.

P.S. My staying power is unreal. Only thing is I don't shoot huge loads anymore and sometimes that orgasm is a tad bit weaker. Other times earth shattering.

Be safe fellas and enjoy.

[QUOTE=Csheen;5046377]In Sex Addicts anonymous. They say 'progress not perfection', so if you feel like you are moving in the direction of sobriety you should be grateful.[/QUOTE]What's sobriety??

Hopefully this post doesn't get taken down, but I guess I understand if it does. I'm not a monger.

I'm the wife of someone who likely is a monger and it is tearing me apart. I say "likely" bc I know he comes on here and does searches for escorts and Asian massage parlors, and I know inadvertently that he has visited and tried to visit massage parlors, ones that I know he frequented before we were married. We are under lockdown bc of the pandemic (health issues) and he's talked about wishing he could get massages (he really does need them) but the fact that a) he hasn't told me about going when he's gone, b) he visits this site and has searched for escorts, and c) the place he went gets thumbs up from the monger crowd kinda has me believing he's gone for more than just muscle work.

We have a great relationship and a sex life that would make most of you green with envy. Has always been good but got even better with marriage (been married less than a year). We lived in different parts of the country for the couple of years we dated and over the past year I have learned of just how much sex he was having behind my back. Like, 15 different women (most fairly regularly, and most purely about sex, it seems). All the while also going to massage parlors and seeking out escorts.

I sort of feel like I am answering my own question, but any thoughts on possible sex addiction? And if he were you, how would you like to be approached about it? This man is the love of my life and I know I satisfy him. I'm not worried about him going to others bc he's not getting good stuff at home I'm worried that his sexual behavior is out of control. I want to stand by him and help him, presuming he wants it. He has to know all that he is risking by his behavior. He is a good guy, beautiful person, loving, and caring. And I can't help but think he's suffering. I can't help but think he has this compulsive desire and if I think about that in comparison to a drug or booze addict, he must have some sort of inner turmoil.

Anyway, I'm just looking for advice on how to reach him. I confronted him about a few relationships he was in that I found out before we married and he was a bit defensive. I've forgiven him and would still forgive him if he could work on leaving this secret life behind. Like I said, he is the love of my life (and no, I'm not young. Middle aged and second marriage, been around the block enough times to know that getting angry won't get me anywhere and I actually don't take all of this personally. I feel confident in what we have. If this is an addiction, how can I not try to help?? In sickness and in health, right?

HRT sounds great but I've been tested and my T is fine. They tested me when I asked for ED meds, which I really only use for recreational purposes.

I doubt that I could get them without a medical reason. ED meds they'll give to anyone who can tolerate them, because it's not really medically detectable if your Testosterone is normal.

[QUOTE=PicassoForRC;5199779]Doc recommended HRT for chronic low T. Wow! I'm better is so many ways! Getting jacked is super easy (not body builder size) although you don't take super high amounts as that's an issue. I feel 25 again save some aches and pains after heavy physical activities. On the hobby front. Holy crap I'm horny as a three dick billy goat! HRT is not helping getting out of pooning! It want it so much these days! A saw a girl in yoga pants at the market and had to cover my boner.

Gee thanks doc.

I do worry about the number of girls addicted these days. Lots of robs to fulfil the habit. Society at large appears to be numbing itself with dope and VR. There's a reason I don't own a VR hood. It be too much porn and trust me way better VR is on the way. That will likely kill sex between real people as soon you'll not be able to distinguish VR pussy (think flesh light hooked to a vr hood with moisture sensors and heat for $1000 initially). Sounds crazy, but it's coming. Couple years later that VR pussy will sell for $299. AI is getting cheaper all the time. I'm totally rambling now. It helps get crap off my mind.

P.S. My staying power is unreal. Only thing is I don't shoot huge loads anymore and sometimes that orgasm is a tad bit weaker. Other times earth shattering.

Be safe fellas and enjoy.[/QUOTE]

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Until the shame reaches the same intensity as the rush, I can't see stopping.

[QUOTE=Bozone;5243652]Until the shame reaches the same intensity as the rush, I can't see stopping.[/QUOTE]Even since my first time I've always been hooked and I use sex so unhealthily as far a reasons go sometimes its to cope with depression but more often than not its so to try and feel at least slightly less worthless as if I can just get enough people off then I deserver to exist (I have bipolar depression so especially in my low lows I get totally out of control sexually) I truly only find females or passable MtF attractive but I've let strange men run train on my ass more than I'd like to admit and I feel so much shame after rando after rando pumps their load in me but at the same time I feel a sort of rush or happiness because at least in those moments I'm not completely worthless.

[QUOTE=LustCaution;5149490]Hey why'll.

I got into the game very early. Around when I was 20/21 years old? I had / have pretty low self esteem in the past so I guess the thought of having sex easily appealed to me greatly. To add to that, the thrill of backpage was something else. Anyway, I used my parents money to see girls and when I graduated and got my own job I started trying to quit. For me its like once the feeling latches on, I'm doing nothing but scrolling forums, calling girls. I feel very much helpless when I get in this phase.

Nice to see some other people's struggles though, thanks for posting, I am looking into some authors that have been mentioned like Rob Weiss, maybe can find some inspiration to keep my streak going.[/QUOTE]If there's no sex addicts anonymous where you live they got stuff online- I went to a couple dozen meetings and if you're serious about getting a new life they'll help a lot. Also you can go to Aa or NA when they talk about alcohol or dope you just substitute those words with "pussy" in your mind. Don't tell anyone you're working on sex addiction there they'll all cringe LOL but it's essentially the same anti addiction theme.

I didn't work the steps but managed to cut back dramatically where I now live outside "the bubble" that being the all consuming haze of lust. Now I just bang a ho a few times a month (instead of a few times a day LOL).