Today's Rant: Dermatillomania
Skin picking and especially face picking in connection with anxiety and drug use, has destroyed the face of one of my ATFs, at least for the time being. It is the saddest thing and it is so self-defeating, because it looks so frightening in public. And all I can come up with is buying her a fidget-spinner.
A retort and some reports
[QUOTE=DoorOne;3380461] So, the next time your with a girl and she tells you how nice you are and how much fun she had, one day you will become the monster in her nightmares.[/QUOTE]In your effort to erase your wife's past you managed to reply to a nearly six month old post and bring everyone's attention to it, well done. I'm legit glad your wife made it out and is clean now, but let's cut the crap.
You're trying to make it sound like she was some innocent babe in the woods and everyone who slept with her was some monster and now she's been traumatized by it. Ok, she may have been.
At the end of the day, no one made her do what she did. She made a choice to sleep with guys to get high. And transferring blame enough to call them monsters is hilarious. Addicts make utterly shit decisions and manipulate and blame other people in order to dodge responsibility and carry on with their bullshit. At some point every addict has to take responsibility for their actions. If you throw chum in the ocean, see fins and then jump in, do you really blame the shark for taking a nibble?
And before you say you don't understand what she went through or what led her to addiction, yes, yes I do. I'm the product of addict parents, was raised in a violently abusive household and went through more shit in my teens and early 20's that led me to fighting addiction well into my 30's. At every step of the way I had options available to me to stop using, the same your wife did. With no money, no job and no insurance, you can be in a treatment program within one to two days in Baltimore and then in recovery houses where you will be basically relearn how to get through the day without shooting dope. And there isn't just one option for this, I can think of about ten programs off the top of my head for this. This doesn't include methadone or Suboxone programs, higher class places if you have insurance or ones that your family could send you to. Every time she got high there was a branch she could have grasped to get herself out. Calling the men she slept with monsters is questionable at best. If we are monsters for funding the addiction, understand an addict will do anything to get high. If she wasn't sucking dicks, she would have been stealing. If you're saying all the men that slept with her were abusive, you're also painting with a pretty broad brush, and it sort of makes her look worse because once again she had every way to get out and chose to associate with the monsters.
I applaud your wife for making a change and I hope she stays clean, but take it from an addict who's also dated plenty of recovering addicts: Don't do her the disservice of absolving her from her own responsibility in the matter. Learning to be accountable for my actions and their consequences had to be drilled into me, and it's the reason I haven't picked back up.
On to an actual report: Hooked up with Nikki on Conlink. BSW, mid 20's, great tits, great ass, easy to talk to and clean. No obvious signs of drug use in demeanor or body wise. Head game ok, sex is fantastic though. Rates are higher than a regular SW but for the looks and service I'm ok with it.
BSW Michelle on Conklin. Avoid at all costs. Late 30's to 40's, short, 5'3-5'4, seems to have a decent attitude at first. Made the mistake of paying and then she smoked some crack, turned into a nightmare I thought I was going to have to put my hands on her to get out of. Seemed normal at first, 180 when the crack hit.
WSW on Conklin with pink streaks in brown hair. Can't remember her name which is a damn shame, head game was superb and she was rather pleasant.
Puerto Rican Natalie on Conklin. I honestly don't know why she gets so much praise her. She's cute, don't get me wrong but her attitude is ok on a good day, her head game isn't that good and doesn't even pretend to be into it when you fuck her. I've hooked up with her twice, figured the first might have been a bad day. Not a fan.
Crazy Christina on Conklin. WSW, late 20's early 30's, short kind of curly hair, shoulder length, reddish brown, small tits nice ass. Will talk your goddamn ear off. Haven't seen her in a while but she's a blast. Head game is amazing, really gets into the sex, and has this whole kind of crazy hippie vibe that I dig. Just be warned she's a little bit nuts but the pussy is worth it.
I found the ignore button
New guy chuckles was getting on my nerves! Not at all argumentative.