Sexual Addiction Reports

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2868359]I can relate. It's not even so much mediocrity, it's just monotony. I've been married 25 years, that's thousands of times with the same SO. Is it any wonder a guy craves variety?.

And looked at that way, the 100 or so times I've been with providers is really just a tiny percentage compared to the times I've been with my wife.

But anyway. This thread is about trying to KICK the HABIT. So then:

Today is day 31 of going without providers. Last one I saw was on March 9. Somebody give me a chip LOL.

Cravings not too bad today but still there. Was with my SO this morning which helped. Still was fantasizing about a provider from a year ago but the SO will never know.

Wish me luck over the next month. In my experience, the 6-to-7-week stretch is rough, I've fallen off the wagon several times around that time. I think I get complacent and let my guard down. I think "Oh I can handle it" and then scroll through BP and find some honey I can't resist. Also, next week I'm traveling for business and that's always tough for me too, opportunity leads to temptation and so forth.

Good luck with the brothers who are trying to quit. And everybody, stay safe.

JS2.[/QUOTE]14 days here. Almost slipped up 2 nights ago. Provider was too busy to make schedules meet.

[QUOTE=FunInOhio;2868853]14 days here. Almost slipped up 2 nights ago. Provider was too busy to make schedules meet.[/QUOTE]2 weeks is a good start.

Me, I'm craving bad today. Hopefully I'll be able to stay busy enough to keep myself distracted.

Day 33 though. Wednesday will be 5 weeks.

Stay safe,

JS2.

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2870762]2 weeks is a good start.

Me, I'm craving bad today. Hopefully I'll be able to stay busy enough to keep myself distracted.

Day 33 though. Wednesday will be 5 weeks.

Stay safe,

JS2.[/QUOTE]17 days ad counting. Texted one yesterday but she replued too late. SOL.

I'm at Day 40.

BUT, all I've done all day on this beautiful Patriots Day is sit at my computer, obsessing over pussy and setting up meetings with new girls I've never seen for tomorrow and Thursday. UTR types whose names I've gotten from contacts I've made on this board.

I KNOW I should keep away, that these girls are just ways for me to waste my money, my time, my health, my peace of mind. But honestly all I do is sit here and obsess over fucking them. Truly this is addict behavior. It's to the point where I have trouble concentrating on other things, music, books, a walk with my wife, because I'm just imagining fresh (to me) pussy.

Help me out guys. Remind me of why I'm trying to quit.

And by the way, Wednesday will be 6 weeks. Isn't this supposed to get easier as time goes by?

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2880965]I'm at Day 40.

BUT, all I've done all day on this beautiful Patriots Day is sit at my computer, obsessing over pussy and setting up meetings with new girls I've never seen for tomorrow and Thursday. UTR types whose names I've gotten from contacts I've made on this board.

I KNOW I should keep away, that these girls are just ways for me to waste my money, my time, my health, my peace of mind. But honestly all I do is sit here and obsess over fucking them. Truly this is addict behavior. It's to the point where I have trouble concentrating on other things, music, books, a walk with my wife, because I'm just imagining fresh (to me) pussy.

Help me out guys. Remind me of why I'm trying to quit.

And by the way, Wednesday will be 6 weeks. Isn't this supposed to get easier as time goes by?[/QUOTE]Starting all over. 2 days.

[QUOTE=DarkSideOfMe;2850242]Fuck I'm into the $100,000 mark plus! I'm a PRO. 30 years of game, its the price we pay! Drk.[/QUOTE]I'm talking 30 k in the last year not in my lifetime, way past 100 LOL.

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2851362]FunInOhio: Hang in there RIGHT BACK ATCHA. Those stick marks are helpful. This is Day 18 for me and it really helps to have someone to report to.

Have a great vacation. I hope you're not going to Amsterdam, Bangkok or Vegas. .

Crow999: I hear you about the shaved puss. The first time I saw one outside of porn film was with my first provider in 2007. What can I say, when I was in college none of the girls did that. Now it's to the point where Bush is a real turn off. I got my SO to at least trim hers down, which helps a bit but not as much as, oh, an endless stream of 20 somethings.

Of course you're right that the main thing is just variety. One of my favorite parts of my addiction, apart from the sex of course, is keeping a running list of every provider I've seen. It's on a thumb drive and it has a quick summary of the encounter, photos from the online ad, sometimes photos that I've taken myself. So after I see the girl I add her to the list, and in the process I go through my whole provider history. It's an ENORMOUS turn-on and a really baaaad habit. So I'm trying to break it but it's not easy. It's no secret that guys are wired to have sex with as many women as possible. I used to fantasize about hitting 1,000. Now I'm trying not to set those kinds of goals, but it ain't easy.

I even have categories of girls by ethnicity on the list, along with charts for positions used, month of each visit, year of each visit etc. I guess it's kind of anal but it's just a way to try to look at the encounters from as many different angles as possible. To prolong the pleasure I think.

Anyway: Day 18, and counting.

Stay safe,

JS2.[/QUOTE]Destroy that thumb drive. Burn it! That's a disaster waiting to happen.

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2880965]I'm at Day 40.

BUT, all I've done all day on this beautiful Patriots Day is sit at my computer, obsessing over pussy and setting up meetings with new girls I've never seen for tomorrow and Thursday. UTR types whose names I've gotten from contacts I've made on this board.

I KNOW I should keep away, that these girls are just ways for me to waste my money, my time, my health, my peace of mind. But honestly all I do is sit here and obsess over fucking them. Truly this is addict behavior. It's to the point where I have trouble concentrating on other things, music, books, a walk with my wife, because I'm just imagining fresh (to me) pussy.

Help me out guys. Remind me of why I'm trying to quit.

And by the way, Wednesday will be 6 weeks. Isn't this supposed to get easier as time goes by?[/QUOTE]Congratulations!! On all the days you've put together.

I'm a (recovering) addict too. Haven't had a drink or drugs since May, 1981. Haven't had a cigarette since Jan, 1987. It hasn't always been easy but my life is better for it.

What helped me then was relying on a higher power. I turned into a bible reading born again. That lasted till my Mother died, when I got pissed at 'God.'

Then one day on the suggestion of a co-worker we walked into an exotic dancer joint. The kind where you dropped a token in and the shade raised and a naked girl appeared. I went thru $5 of tokens like that and we were out of there. Embarrassed at what we just did, we laughed a little and went back to work. Next day I went right back. In fact I could hardly wait to go back. It felt perfectly right being there. As if I had found the missing piece of a puzzle I'd been searching for for a very long time. That was in 1990 and I've been hooked on this hobby ever since.

It was never a problem, even when I was married. I got very good at concealing my other identity. But eventually it took an (emotional) toll because I had became distant and withdrawn till finally the marriage ended in 2003, after 25 yrs.

So for the past 13 yrs I've been running free. Crazy! Crazy! Crazy! Long story there.

But I've gotten to a point where I realize that this behavior is a substitute to fill in a void and just covering up the real flaw in my character ... The inability to become emotionally intimate with my partner. Which I've discovered from reading a book on sexual addiction.

It's called 'Breaking The Cycle' by George N Collins, MA. It's an easy read. At the end it even offers info on a website and includes an invitation to talk to him personally by phone.

The book has been really helpful. I'm on my 5th reread. And I'm this close to signing up for some online, anonymous help.

We can't do this alone. We all need help.

I'm sure I'm addict too, I masturbate a lot to get me over the urge and the money.

But am I a bad person for this hand jive or am I still addicted, I do feel its saving me money, but still I'm so hooked on Asian women and would go get a massage any time but haven't in months.

[QUOTE=Gaboy9999;2891210]I'm sure I'm addict too, I masturbate a lot to get me over the urge and the money.

But am I a bad person for this hand jive or am I still addicted, I do feel its saving me money, but still I'm so hooked on Asian women and would go get a massage any time but haven't in months.[/QUOTE]Saving money sure, but your brain craves the chemical release from masturbation. This is still an addictive behavior. Ask, am I in control of my desire and craving, or is my craving controlling me?

Try this book.

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Discuss via pm if you want to.

What if playing this game, we play, gets you so high you feel like a different person? You feel better about your self,(age, money, looks) you look at life in a different way, then normally. I know this is bad for me, I can't turn back after all this time, How much more life do I really have without it? I have gone 1 year without watching porn!(big fucking deal) I still need a woman s touch (AMPs,) mostly. Like my friend "CHARLIE" said," we pay them to leave. " This is the same BS. I wrote, think, the last time I came across this post, I'm still looking for PUSSY to fuck, a lot of my time in a day! Pray for me. Drk.

[QUOTE=DarkSideOfMe;2913525]What if playing this game, we play, gets you so high you feel like a different person? You feel better about your self,(age, money, looks) you look at life in a different way, then normally. I know this is bad for me, I can't turn back after all this time, How much more life do I really have without it? I have gone 1 year without watching porn!(big fucking deal) I still need a woman s touch (AMPs,) mostly. Like my friend "CHARLIE" said," we pay them to leave. " This is the same BS. I wrote, think, the last time I came across this post, I'm still looking for PUSSY to fuck, a lot of my time in a day! Pray for me. Drk.[/QUOTE]I hear ya. Of course you feel better about yourself. Last time I was with my ATF I was high for about 10 days. On top of the world from being with such a beauty. After that crash. Sure I met with a few others since then, but the high was not as great. Maybe lasted a day. Always wanting more. When my atf stopped talking to me and I did my immature retaliation I hit the lowest of lows.

I think if we are compulsive and what we do can hurt others in our lives then we really have to take a step back. It's not easy. For me it's been just over 2 weeks since my last slip up with a hott brunette. Been a week since I reached out to my old atf with a mother's day wish, hoping to break the ice there. I have to keep self from crossing both lines. I feel so pathetic at times.

Complacency is a killer. I got to feeling too comfortable, like my old habits were safely behind me. It's happened before but this time I thought I had it beat. Then I slipped up a couple times. Was doing well, no contact for 2 months, then whoops, then whoops again 9 days later. If not for that, this would be 2 and a half months. Instead, it's Day 5.

It's OK. Day 5 is better than Day 1. Tomorrow will be Day 6.

FunInOhio, you're doing better than I am! If my math is right, then today is Day 25 or 26 for you. You're weeks ahead of me, ya bastard. ;-)

DarkSideOfMe, keep at it. Every new day is a day you can go without, and be a better man for it. Start with just one day. Start with today. Hell, start with just this hour, or until dinnertime or whatever.

We should all have a poker party. I say, whoever gets to Day 100 first brings the beer.

JS2.

So what is wrong with this? I have just hooked up with a 20,year old, tight body, nice skin, few tatts, no fat, tight ass, pussy to die for, nice face, just got left by the father of her son a month ago. "In need of some help", I felt very high for a week now. How can I give this up, first time we meet, it was set up by her mother who I'm fucking, talk about a mess. ! Spent 2 hours with her, talked, no FS, BJ, just talking, kissing, touching! My dick was so hard, her titts, were titts of a 20 year old, that pushed me to the edge! I thought about my 3 daughter that I have, older then her, how could I bang this "baby"? Maybe this was a step in the right direction for me, we will see, who knows, but I need to get back to see her, the high is so great right now for me, how can I not go? "(Its just to help her out)" ! What is it going to hurt? Drk P.S. " three times as old as her". 60/20.

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2927233]Complacency is a killer. I got to feeling too comfortable, like my old habits were safely behind me. It's happened before but this time I thought I had it beat. Then I slipped up a couple times. Was doing well, no contact for 2 months, then whoops, then whoops again 9 days later. If not for that, this would be 2 and a half months. Instead, it's Day 5.

It's OK. Day 5 is better than Day 1. Tomorrow will be Day 6.

FunInOhio, you're doing better than I am! If my math is right, then today is Day 25 or 26 for you. You're weeks ahead of me, ya bastard. ;-)

DarkSideOfMe, keep at it. Every new day is a day you can go without, and be a better man for it. Start with just one day. Start with today. Hell, start with just this hour, or until dinnertime or whatever.

We should all have a poker party. I say, whoever gets to Day 100 first brings the beer.

JS2.[/QUOTE]25 days now. Should be able to close out May no problem.

Got some from the SO this morning, so that helps. Doesn't happen often but when it does, I can resist the rest.

Tomorrow is double digits and the long weekend is very SO-oriented, so I should be okay into next week.

FunInOhio: nice work.

DarkSide: there is absolutely nothing wrong with it, IF it makes you happy. But that's a big if. There's plenty wrong with it if it leaves you feeling tortured. The way you describe this girl, I'd fuck her too. The 60/20 thing is hot, no question. I'm not quite as old as you (54) but I love fucking girls in the 18-21 range because they are just a fraction of my age. I don't think there's anything wrong about it at all, as long as she's willing. Hell, we're only human.

BUT -- if you end up feeling terrible later, cursing yourself and your choices, worried about money and health etc. Then there's no point. When I get horny and bang a hooker, I feel okay about it IF it's what I really wanted to do that day. My problem is that more and more, I don't seek out girls because I'm horny, but just because I'm preoccupied with seeking girls. Sometimes I find myself fucking one when I wasn't even particularly horny that day--I just had means and opportunity, and the little voice in the back of my head whispering, "If you don't fuck her now, you might never get the chance again." No point in that, and then I worry about health, money, my SO, etc. So the downside later is greater than the upside in the moment. Don't know if that's true for you, but that's what I need to keep reminding myself. That, plus I actually have cash for things like taking myself out for lunch, buying a few tomato plants for the porch, etc.

Ultimately, you can only do what makes sense to you. If it makes sense to stop, then grit your teeth and stop. Or at least slow down. And then slow down a little more. And then, eventually, stop.

Stay safe brothers,
JS2

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2931952]Got some from the SO this morning, so that helps. Doesn't happen often but when it does, I can resist the rest.

Tomorrow is double digits and the long weekend is very SO-oriented, so I should be okay into next week.

FunInOhio: nice work.

DarkSide: there is absolutely nothing wrong with it, IF it makes you happy. But that's a big if. There's plenty wrong with it if it leaves you feeling tortured. The way you describe this girl, I'd fuck her too. The 60/20 thing is hot, no question. I'm not quite as old as you (54) but I love fucking girls in the 18-21 range because they are just a fraction of my age. I don't think there's anything wrong about it at all, as long as she's willing. Hell, we're only human.

BUT -- if you end up feeling terrible later, cursing yourself and your choices, worried about money and health etc. Then there's no point. When I get horny and bang a hooker, I feel okay about it IF it's what I really wanted to do that day. My problem is that more and more, I don't seek out girls because I'm horny, but just because I'm preoccupied with seeking girls. Sometimes I find myself fucking one when I wasn't even particularly horny that day--I just had means and opportunity, and the little voice in the back of my head whispering, "If you don't fuck her now, you might never get the chance again." No point in that, and then I worry about health, money, my SO, etc. So the downside later is greater than the upside in the moment. Don't know if that's true for you, but that's what I need to keep reminding myself. That, plus I actually have cash for things like taking myself out for lunch, buying a few tomato plants for the porch, etc.

Ultimately, you can only do what makes sense to you. If it makes sense to stop, then grit your teeth and stop. Or at least slow down. And then slow down a little more. And then, eventually, stop.
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Stay safe brothers,
JS2[/QUOTE]I agree with you 100%, but what my problem because of age, I want to fuck them all, has nothing to do with being horny, it has become a big GAME to me. The hunt is my great release, not the kill, I should have fucked the girl you talked about (21 year old) because later that week her mother texted me, BABY is back with her ex! No more dates for her! Now what the fuck, no young pussy for this old man to put down! And in my mind I really want to fuck her, young pussy, to see if it makes me fill better, about myself, and getting old! You go figure it out?? I can't! Drk.

Great to get away, family trip, daughters, grand kids, son in laws, sun, beach, great all the time (89 degrees,) 3 mile wind blows all the time, so you are never hot. Two half weeks! What more could you want in life? THIS; did I mention I'm going to "ARUBA" 35 years now, also did I mention, (pussy is all legal on the Inland! You read that right. No laws, ages, all fuck bars,24/7 ,just girls, more girls, more girls from all around the world girls that go to this Inland to fuck and make money!(most are 10's), just what the fuck I need right now, Ill be out all night, for 2/1/2 weeks trying to fuck all of them!! (great family trip!) stay tuned drk.

[QUOTE=DarkSideOfMe;2932036]Great to get away, family trip, daughters, grand kids, son in laws, sun, beach, great all the time (89 degrees,) 3 mile wind blows all the time, so you are never hot. Two half weeks! What more could you want in life? THIS; did I mention I'm going to "ARUBA" 35 years now, also did I mention, (pussy is all legal on the Inland! You read that right. No laws, ages, all fuck bars,24/7 ,just girls, more girls, more girls from all around the world girls that go to this Inland to fuck and make money!(most are 10's), just what the fuck I need right now, Ill be out all night, for 2/1/2 weeks trying to fuck all of them!! (great family trip!) stay tuned drk.[/QUOTE]Keep the family trip a family trip. It may be difficilt.

I am on day 31 now. I Thinking About a couple of my favs though.

[QUOTE=FunInOhio;2934939]Keep the family trip a family trip. It may be difficilt.

I am on day 31 now. I Thinking About a couple of my favs though.[/QUOTE]I'm on Day 12. The next couple days are going to be crazy with work so I should be okay.

Then a 3-day weekend in another city with my SO, that should be safe too. Spending lots of money on the SO, sure, but that's how it's supposed to be. I'm sure I'll think about the girls plenty but lack of opportunity should get me to Day 19 or 20 without too much trouble.

Congratulations on your one-month chip, FunInOhio! If nothing else, think of the money you've saved and the health scares you've spared yourself.

Stay safe brothers.

JS2.

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2935859]I'm on Day 12. The next couple days are going to be crazy with work so I should be okay.

Then a 3-day weekend in another city with my SO, that should be safe too. Spending lots of money on the SO, sure, but that's how it's supposed to be. I'm sure I'll think about the girls plenty but lack of opportunity should get me to Day 19 or 20 without too much trouble.

Congratulations on your one-month chip, FunInOhio! If nothing else, think of the money you've saved and the health scares you've spared yourself.

Stay safe brothers.

JS2.[/QUOTE]Back to square one guys.

[QUOTE=FunInOhio;2943760]Back to square one guys.[/QUOTE]Chin up, FunInOhio! If this was an easy habit to kick, we wouldn't need to be on here talking to each other.

Day 20 for me, but I made an appointment for this morning with a sexy spinner, then overslept and had to miss it. OK, so at least I didn't reschedule for this afternoon. That's half a victory anyway, right?

Tomorrow is 3 weeks.

Meanwhile I picture DarkSideOfMe on a beach somewhere with about 4 girls bent over in front of him, taking turns with one after another as he douses himself with pina coladas and Skittles. But maybe that's just me.

Stay safe guys.

JS2.

But this is my first step. Admitting that what I thought was over, still oppresses me.

God has created some beautiful creatures and like many men I look to the creation rather than the creator. "There is no temptation that is not common to man, but with that temptation, He will make a way of escape".

Some temptations are too powerful, so we have to run from it. Not dabble in it, and think we are strong enough flirt with it.

I am preaching to myself guys. 50 years of addiction, two failed marriages directly related to it. Thousands of wasted hours.

Tens of thousands of dollars.

I started reading USASG for obvious reasons, then I found this thread. I am making a commitment to become free.

Thanks for your ear and encouragement.

So I'm pretty happy with that. If I can hold out for 2 more weeks, I'll be in vaca with my SO and unable to indulge. Aiming for 2 months of abstinence. Wish me luck!

Stay safe all.

JS2.

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2968334]So I'm pretty happy with that. If I can hold out for 2 more weeks, I'll be in vaca with my SO and unable to indulge. Aiming for 2 months of abstinence. Wish me luck!

Stay safe all.

JS2.[/QUOTE]Good Luck!

A month ago I set what I thought would be an ez goal of 2 weeks for myself. Was only able to make it to 13 days.

I'm becoming aware just what a challenge this will be.

Fall down 7 times. Get up 8.

[QUOTE=DarkSideOfMe;2932036]Great to get away, family trip, daughters, grand kids, son in laws, sun, beach, great all the time (89 degrees,) 3 mile wind blows all the time, so you are never hot. Two half weeks! What more could you want in life? THIS; did I mention I'm going to "ARUBA" 35 years now, also did I mention, (pussy is all legal on the Inland! You read that right. No laws, ages, all fuck bars,24/7 ,just girls, more girls, more girls from all around the world girls that go to this Inland to fuc, k and make money!(most are 10's), just what the fuck I need right now, Ill be out all night, for 2/1/2 weeks trying to fuck all of them!! (great family trip!) stay tuned drk.[/QUOTE]Well I'm back from my family trip 2 weeks with my grand kids, , sand, pool, tan, going out to dinner had, a great time! As I think back now I wonder what the fuck did I enjoy? Yes I had a great time with my grand kids, but I must admit I hit "rock bottom"! Didn't search on line the whole time!(for pussy, that's good right, made it 2 weeks) What I did do was fuck (21,22,year old woman every night) $45.00 a pop! (All 10's on our scale) Never had such a hunger for pussy before. Went to "Aruba fuck bars" like I never have before, was on such a high,(2,3) a night, what a feeling who needs drugs? I had good intentions to keep my sex addition under control, but I couldn't. I'm still feeling, like 18 ,hard dick kid, I'm walking off the ground, after all that young," coked" up pussy that I fucked, what a feeling of power, is it really about fucking young pussy at my age? Is that bad,? I don't know. Been home for 2 weeks and haven't had any pussy, but I'm starting to feel the power struggle, to" hunt "again! Nothing going on over the 4th weekend, but going on Buss. Trip to Columbus next week, holly fuck its starting over again now that I'm thinking about my Buss. Trip! I need to hunt, search the boards, backpage, USA, Indy, for someone to fuck when I'm in Columbus! I really don't think I can get out now, maybe my age will slow me down soon, stop me, who the fuck knows! Drk. Just pray for me.

I've hit an all time low. I haven't posted much on here because I've been so busy fucking as many as I can daily that I have no time to write. I've been fucking 2-3 providers a day. 2016 I've already spent over $50,000. My latest thing is bareback full service and how I can convince them. What dollar amount is each girls number has become a challenge for me. I have no regard of my health and I cum inside them not knowing if they're on the pill. I don't care. I feel invincible and I even pickup civilians at gas stations because I feel so empowered and confident. I fucked one over the weekend in a forest bareback. Went and got another one the same day and made her give me a BBBJ without showering in between to see if the second one would notice the pussy juice on my cock. In between fucking her in different positions I took off the condom and fucked her bareback without her realizing it and pretended I just needed a new rubber because I told her the old one was coming off. I'm fucked up.

[QUOTE=DarkSideOfMe;2975536]Well I'm back from my family trip 2 weeks with my grand kids, , sand, pool, tan, going out to dinner had, a great time! As I think back now I wonder what the fuck did I enjoy? Yes I had a great time with my grand kids, but I must admit I hit "rock bottom"! Didn't search on line the whole time!(for pussy, that's good right, made it 2 weeks) What I did do was fuck (21,22,year old woman every night) $45.00 a pop! (All 10's on our scale) Never had such a hunger for pussy before. Went to "Aruba fuck bars" like I never have before, was on such a high,(2,3) a night, what a feeling who needs drugs? I had good intentions to keep my sex addition under control, but I couldn't. I'm still feeling, like 18 ,hard dick kid, I'm walking off the ground, after all that young," coked" up pussy that I fucked, what a feeling of power, is it really about fucking young pussy at my age? Is that bad,? I don't know. Been home for 2 weeks and haven't had any pussy, but I'm starting to feel the power struggle, to" hunt "again! Nothing going on over the 4th weekend, but going on Buss. Trip to Columbus next week, holly fuck its starting over again now that I'm thinking about my Buss. Trip! I need to hunt, search the boards, backpage, USA, Indy, for someone to fuck when I'm in Columbus! I really don't think I can get out now, maybe my age will slow me down soon, stop me, who the fuck knows! Drk. Just pray for me.[/QUOTE]542 posts and still a regular member. You must be one bad motherfucker. We need to petition admin for your senior status. Actually who gives a shit about that? The real players know who you are. You're a platinum member in my book brother.

[QUOTE=Dsrtp1;2981440]I've hit an all time low. I haven't posted much on here because I've been so busy fucking as many as I can daily that I have no time to write. I've been fucking 2-3 providers a day. 2016 I've already spent over $50,000. My latest thing is bareback full service and how I can convince them. What dollar amount is each girls number has become a challenge for me. I have no regard of my health and I cum inside them not knowing if they're on the pill. I don't care. I feel invincible and I even pickup civilians at gas stations because I feel so empowered and confident. I fucked one over the weekend in a forest bareback. Went and got another one the same day and made her give me a BBBJ without showering in between to see if the second one would notice the pussy juice on my cock. In between fucking her in different positions I took off the condom and fucked her bareback without her realizing it and pretended I just needed a new rubber because I told her the old one was coming off. I'm fucked up.[/QUOTE]Not judging your sexual craving, but you got to stop sneaking about removing the cover to go BB if she has not agreed. Take A Break man. Talk to someone. Take CARE man.

I bookmarked it. Thnx MWiggly2.

[URL]http://www.sexualcontrol.com/[/URL]

Day 8 for me.

Hey guys,

I have been getting out of control lately. I use backpage at least 3-4 times a week. When I'm low on funds I even go to craiglist and get guys to help me out. I'm married and have 2 children and a great relationship, I just like to get off and have a variety of different people. My family does not know. How do I break the cycle? I tried jerking off, but that seems to make it worse.

Thank you for anything that you can help me with!

Hey Joey and Chin up, your comments are so honest and helpful as I just found this link. Have been realizing over past couple of months that I have the addiction. Not easy, when I have known others with drug / alcohol addictions and felt myself so above any bad behavior that is hard to stop.

The past year I retired and found my occasional hobby going to a weekly basis. After nearly 50 Backpage "dates," started making a list of the bad and good along with the expenditure tally. Sobering, but still wanting to play and prowl daily on the BP site and others. Then, busted a few weeks ago by my beautiful, sexy wife of 10 years! Already had decided to stop, at least temporarily until returning from vacation in mid-September. Had called off a Sugar Daddy relationship that started last May which I can give you some details if wanted.

But after reading your guys' accounts here, this is a bad addiction requiring tough work and not a temporary halt. Day 19 day today but still prowling the sites. Did tear up my summary of the good and bad ladies today. Still lay awake at night thinking of the goods. And, of course, intrigued daily by new.

Sure would appreciate your support as I proceed onto Day 20 and beyond. This is not an easy, harmful habit to kick.

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2946677]Chin up, FunInOhio! If this was an easy habit to kick, we wouldn't need to be on here talking to each other.

Day 20 for me, but I made an appointment for this morning with a sexy spinner, then overslept and had to miss it. OK, so at least I didn't reschedule for this afternoon. That's half a victory anyway, right?

Tomorrow is 3 weeks.

Meanwhile I picture DarkSideOfMe on a beach somewhere with about 4 girls bent over in front of him, taking turns with one after another as he douses himself with pina coladas and Skittles. But maybe that's just me.

Stay safe guys.

JS2.[/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=MikeKemmer28;3047063]Hey guys,

I have been getting out of control lately. I use backpage at least 3-4 times a week. When I'm low on funds I even go to craiglist and get guys to help me out. I'm married and have 2 children and a great relationship, I just like to get off and have a variety of different people. My family does not know. How do I break the cycle? I tried jerking off, but that seems to make it worse.

Thank you for anything that you can help me with![/QUOTE]What do you mean you get guys to help you out? HL29.

Been going to Strip Clubs for about 6 years. I've spent a good amount of cash. I like to get a relationship and see what happens, always try and make it fun, LOL. Mostly good but recently been spending too much time and $ on one. I know I'm being played, looking to make a break. Reading previous posts have been most helpful. Thanks.

Ok so I'm trying to visit a little less. I've seen her 50 times so far this year. Last visit was a week ago Tuesday. She emailed me and asked if I could visit today. I think I may succumb. At least I'll only see her once this week. Small progress.

14 days seems to be a wall for me. Twice in the past couple months and once to 13 days is as far as I've gotten before making a call for some relief. That's telling me it may be more physiological than psycological (big words). Years ago I remember making it 3 weeks but I was on anti depressants then too so that helped stretch it out. Don't want to go back on those so not sure what my next move should be.

In the meantime I'm saving a bunch of green.

Also I'm continuing to get legit massages where I know there's no chance in Hell of leaving happy. But it's still relaxing. I feel sorta like a recovering alcoholic having an occasional O'Doul's.

Hmmm.

For guys trying to quit and have made it over a week, do you stop seeing providers or do you stop porn & fapping as well?

[QUOTE=Moiz33;3068667]For guys trying to quit and have made it over a week, do you stop seeing providers or do you stop porn & fapping as well?[/QUOTE]If you are looking at porn, you are going to go do it again.

Glad I found this forum I'm a man that's incredibly Addicted to the trade or hobby. , I see a provider atleast twice a week, and masterbate often every Friday I go out hunting to find a provider or a street walker or anything that crosses my path really. I guess it's in a mans nature to seek the meat, Lost a wife I use to have because of my sexual desires have two older kids and just continuing life with this addiction, but on the bright side even if we do have this addiction I know alot of us are very good people by heart I would assume I am? ,and most of you as well. SADLY I have a girlfriend now, but as I tend to build the relationship and trust with this woman there's is no sexual action in the relationship yet because I tend to respect her as a woman and I don't want to ruin my chances by being creep to her. , Recently I invited her over to Stay the night with me and she grew suspicious of my idea. , Which was clear as day to her what my attentions were and She hit me back with the answer YES, but there's not going to be any sexual action involve in us sleeping together so as a man of my word and in order to grow her trust we had a good day / night took her to dinner, a movie came home slept and the rules were respected, but in between that time frame I went out to seek a provider to get some sexual relief and to get rid of the sex desire, so I can focus on the woman 100% and to give it all a man can do to be a gentleman it's been many years since I did this with any of my ex wifes.

I find no cure in this for me at all I've tried many things.