Sexual Addiction Reports

[QUOTE=Hooter12;2396417]I know the feeling. Spent more than 5 k. Its call a sexual addiction which many of us here have.[/QUOTE]I don't know about anyone else, but I am addicted to sex have spent more than 5 k.

Over the years, some good investments, some rip offs, and some average. I have found that a good massage he provider, like charlee, or dezi, etc is one outlet, but expensive. I now do mostly SW and no sex, just bbbjs, and fiv. I can see a couple of providers for. 5-. 6 every couple of weeks and I have fed the monster. I am widowed, and do not want a fkin nagging ***** in my house, so dating civilians is not an option, cause, ALL of them want a relationship. You as well as the rest of us have options. Counseling, support groups, cause cold turkey does NOT work for most. Or figure out a way to get cheaper service less often. IMHO good luck man!

GR.

Yes it is an addiction. For me its not the thrill of the hunt because 99.5% of the time I only see girls that have been reviewed by others on this site that I trust. For the SB situation its a bit more tricky because these girls do not have reviews and I am taking a chance. I have only had one bad experience with it an that was with a 19 year old girl who wold go on dates and stuff but never would go farther, she just wanted the gifts, food and a loan here and there which ended up being gifts because she was not paying it back.

The joy in this is getting off when I want, how I want and not doing it myself. I NEVER bring a girl back to my place and I do not want a relationship so this is what I do.

Iv decided and I hope I can have the will power to do it, not to see a girl weather BP, AMP or SB until after my Vegas trip in June and even then I am hoping to have kicked the habit. Its going to be hard (no pun intended) but if I want to have a vacation I will enjoy, I NEED to save this money.

[QUOTE=Hooter12;2396417]I know the feeling. Spent more than 5 k. Its call a sexual addiction which many of us here have.[/QUOTE]There are good groups out there for those that struggle with it. Pm me for more info.

Just here now. I'm 65 been doing it 25 yrs I'm sure, strip clubs. AMPs, craigslist and now BP, well I got caught this past in a sting, that will fxxing wake you up, oh I'm horny but god I got to be careful now, can't ever trust a BP, if its not a cop could be an informant, she even said she wasn't a cop, 3 thugs throw me on bed handcuff's, 24 hrs in slammer, only sun in this cloud I was out of town, and it hasn't got to sig other. Addiction can kill us, I think the AMP is the safest way to go they have the cameras and always lock the doors. Good luck be careful guys.

Ok. Is it an addiction?

My father is a Psychologist. I am a former cocaine addict (beat that by myself). This shit we do is more addictive that any cocaine problem. I speak from experience. All of the exact Dopamine transfers, mood alterations, triggers, adrenaline rush, high intensity exhilarating emotions are duplicated in hobbying as are in drug addiction. I have experienced them (and continue to) while plying my craft. Hell even when the email flag pops up on a return request for a appointment gives me a major head rush (you know what I mean!

Yep. If your on this forum you are in an addiction! How is this. I have been spending about $2400 a month on this hobby. I love it. But pray for me.

[QUOTE=Dsrtp1;2308912]Oh my gosh, I feel even worse now. After reading many of your posts throughout the years, I would have sworn you were with a lot more providers. My best guess is I'm over 5,000 different providers and I'm also in my mid 40's. Am I an addict? Fuck yeah. I'm about to go get my second piece of ass of the day on Christmas eve.[/QUOTE]And I thought I had it bad. Wow! Those are staggering numbers. We'll have to talk sometime.

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Guys,

Ever go at it heavy for a while,. Lap dances, girl friend, wife, self stimulation etc. . and notice people kind of staring at your face the next day or two? I'm surprised this is not written or spoken about more often. Seems that the married women are the most quick to notice. What is it? A fatigue that causes the mouth to frown a bit? Or just an overall look of tiredness? I'm sure I'm not imagining it. Even a friend of mine who works at a fire dept. Can't get by the ribbing of the guys the next day after some good sex with his wife! The Guys know! Any supplements that would help with this or just a good week or two of good sleep and veggies? I'm surprised this is not mentioned more often. Any comments?

It ain't over til it's over; hopefully it finally is beginning tomorrow. Joining SA group and probably others in my area. Got married recently and want to honor that.

I'm fighting against 20-plus years of acting out and 2,500 posts on here over 13 years. But do I want to die like this? Rather not. Trying to rally in the 4th quarter. God help me.

Get in touch via PM if you're interested.

I went overseas when I joined the military. I was young and horny. I couldn't find any regular girls to date, even though I really tried. I went to the clubs with my friends and I couldn't get a single date. A friend told me about the red light district and for $20 (this was about 25 years ago) you could have your pick of the girls in the sex hotels. I did that for 2 years but when I got back stateside, I had many girlfriends and didn't have to pay for it. A few years later, I was working with a travelling construction crew and those guys showed me the ins and outs of trolling the streets and finding girls. I trolled whenever I didn't have a girlfriend. I was always faithful to my girlfriends over the years.

However, when I reached 34, my fiancee started using sex as a weapon against me and I found myself going back to the streets. I have been trolling the streets ever since. We broke up about 4 years ago and ever since then I have reached new lows in this hobby. I went from craigslist, to street girls, to homeless girls to approaching any girl that might be walking by. I spent a lot of time on the West coast and I was cruising and walking the streets, talking to girls and getting them to put out. I hung around methadone clinics, libraries, bars. Anywhere I thought I could find a girl who was down on her luck, homeless or addicted. I had about a 75% success rate in getting BBBJ or FS. There was even a girl in my apartment complex who had huge tits (what I was into at the time) and I wore her down and got her to blow me for. 20 . I'm not proud of those things, but I did become very adept at talking these girls into sex. Sometimes it only cost me a cheeseburger or a pack of cigarettes.

Now, I pretty much troll the streets every day and my new thing is crack / meth girls. I like the super skinny look and I try to find girls with no teeth or false teeth for a better BBBJ. Sick right? I don't mean any harm to these girls and I feel bad for them, but I have to get my fix, which is usually a BBBJ. I've been single for a few years now and I've become obese, I'm severely balding, have erection problems and everything is not looking too good for me. I tried talking to a counselor about it, but they really didn't seem interested in helping me. One counselor even told me it was normal. Normal? Driving the streets at 2 am looking for crack girls is normal?

I don't know what to do anymore. The few legitimate dates I have been on, I didn't know how to even treat a normal girl anymore because I'm so used to dealing with street girls. Everytime I put my mind to it, to quit, I will just happen to see a homeless chick walking by and I feel like if I don't approach her, that I'm somehow losing out.

I'm pushing 50 and have always considered myself a Christian. I know this is wrong, morally and ethically (my opinion) and I think I should be trying to find a nice, normal girlfriend. Which has been very hard because of my obesity. On the other hand, I'm making real good money now and can afford to travel. I keep thinking about a trip to Thailand or other parts of the world, just to monger. I thought, maybe that is how I should be living my life, having sex with many random girls.

Thanks for reading, just wanted to share.

[QUOTE=RockStar60;2596312]...Everytime I put my mind to it, to quit, I will just happen to see a homeless chick walking by and I feel like if I don't approach her, that I'm somehow losing out.[/QUOTE]I know EXACTLY how you feel brother. It feels like an unrelenting compulsion.

Dr. Drew interviews a Sex Addict who was able to recover. There's hope for us all:

[URL]http://podbay.fm/show/592284993/e/1367822657?autostart=1[/URL]

I didn't know USASG had this thread regarding sex addiction.

For me, I could say that I like mongering.

However, in my case, it's just hard, very hard, for me to find a decent girlfriend, let alone, be in a non-platonic relationship.

So yes, I have been in some relationships. But none of them included sex. Boring. I also broke up with my ex GF five months ago, so hence, I am back to mongering.

Trying my best to stay away from this, but when loneliness and horniness creeps in, it's very difficult for me to withstand the temptation. =).

5 k,15 k, mere amateurs, shit I bet I'm over 30 k LOL.

So I am thinking I need some help I spend about 500 a month on the hobby why I have a wife and a young daughter. Tonight I went to a strip club and got head for 80 but just felt extremely bad on the drive back as I left thanksgiving with family to get a quick nut. In the past year I have probably spent 8 k in the hobby while I make around 38 k. If someone can link me up with a SA group in Louisville please send a PM.

[QUOTE=TipsTipsTips;2698433]So I am thinking I need some help I spend about 500 a month on the hobby why I have a wife and a young daughter. Tonight I went to a strip club and got head for 80 but just felt extremely bad on the drive back as I left thanksgiving with family to get a quick nut. In the past year I have probably spent 8 k in the hobby while I make around 38 k. If someone can link me up with a SA group in Louisville please send a PM.[/QUOTE]You have a wife you can chill with. Maybe see if she'll go to a swinger joint so you don't have to pay for working girls no more. It's a pain to stop but it can be done, just replace it with other activities.

[QUOTE=CephlapodLove;2767411]Hey, that s*cks, it really sucks! Sorry to learn about that "loss!" These girls are irritating at times and then they pull this garbage! Jeez. I've had that happen to me before and it stinks. What makes it worse is it seems so obvious, er, except when one is in the middle of it!

But I give you props for posting the bad experience and warning to others! Very few would do that, instead prefering to forgot the whole thing and wander off. So kudos for the report!

Don't quit over a bad incident. Just learn from it a go on! You'll be a better player in the future.

In fact, had a girl recently try to pull something like this on me and that caused me to create Rule #23!

[URL] http://www.usasexguide.info/forum/showthread.php?13919-My-Suggestions.-Rules-For-BackPage&p=2740120&viewfull=1#post2740120 [/URL][/QUOTE]I'm not ending my mongering career because of being ripped off, anyone that has done this for any length of time has probably gotten ripped off at some point or another, I actually chalk it up as part of the cost of doing business. My decision to call it quits has been a long time in coming, it's time for me. The main reason for my retirement is I recognize I have developed a serious addiction which has been intruding into all aspects of my life for some time now. All I think about these days is what piece of ass am I going to fuck today. Not a day goes by where I'm not checking out USA and BP to see what's available to satisfy my carnal urging's. These urging's over time have escalated, becoming increasingly risky and provocative. I've decided this isn't the way I truly want to live my life so I'm trying to make a lifestyle change. I know it's not going to be easy! I've quit addiction's to drugs and tobacco and believe this will be harder to walk away from then either of those put together times ten! So hard as a mater of fact I'm thinking about seeking professional help, something I never did with my past addictions. I've been on quite the rampage this last month or so in anticipation of my departure. I thought it would be nice to go out with a huge fuckfest and have done my best to fuck every atf who's still working and a number of new providers as well. I'm almost finished, just a few more and I'm done. Time to pass the torch to a whole new generation of mongers and of course there's still plenty of old mongers out there to keep the young bucks in line! Good luck and be safe my brothers. Oh, I will have a couple of last parting posts just to remind everyone Jdog had some game! JD.

[QUOTE=JaxDog;2768057]I'm not ending my mongering career because of being ripped off, anyone that has done this for any length of time has probably gotten ripped off at some point or another, I actually chalk it up as part of the cost of doing business. My decision to call it quits has been a long time in coming, it's time for me. The main reason for my retirement is I recognize I have developed a serious addiction which has been intruding into all aspects of my life for some time now. All I think about these days is what piece of ass am I going to fuck today. Not a day goes by where I'm not checking out USA and BP to see what's available to satisfy my carnal urging's. These urging's over time have escalated, becoming increasingly risky and provocative. I've decided this isn't the way I truly want to live my life so I'm trying to make a lifestyle change. I know it's not going to be easy! I've quit addiction's to drugs and tobacco and believe this will be harder to walk away from then either of those put together times ten! So hard as a mater of fact I'm thinking about seeking professional help, something I never did with my past addictions. I've been on quite the rampage this last month or so in anticipation of my departure. I thought it would be nice to go out with a huge fuckfest and have done my best to fuck every atf who's still working and a number of new providers as well. I'm almost finished, just a few more and I'm done. Time to pass the torch to a whole new generation of mongers and of course there's still plenty of old mongers out there to keep the young bucks in line! Good luck and be safe my brothers. Oh, I will have a couple of last parting posts just to remind everyone Jdog had some game! JD.[/QUOTE]Cheers to your step towards sobriety my friend!

[QUOTE=JaxDog;2768057]I'm not ending my mongering career because of being ripped off, anyone that has done this for any length of time has probably gotten ripped off at some point or another, I actually chalk it up as part of the cost of doing business. My decision to call it quits has been a long time in coming, it's time for me. The main reason for my retirement is I recognize I have developed a serious addiction which has been intruding into all aspects of my life for some time now. All I think about these days is what piece of ass am I going to fuck today. Not a day goes by where I'm not checking out USA and BP to see what's available to satisfy my carnal urging's. These urging's over time have escalated, becoming increasingly risky and provocative. I've decided this isn't the way I truly want to live my life so I'm trying to make a lifestyle change. I know it's not going to be easy! I've quit addiction's to drugs and tobacco and believe this will be harder to walk away from then either of those put together times ten! So hard as a mater of fact I'm thinking about seeking professional help, something I never did with my past addictions. I've been on quite the rampage this last month or so in anticipation of my departure. I thought it would be nice to go out with a huge fuckfest and have done my best to fuck every atf who's still working and a number of new providers as well. I'm almost finished, just a few more and I'm done. Time to pass the torch to a whole new generation of mongers and of course there's still plenty of old mongers out there to keep the young bucks in line! Good luck and be safe my brothers. Oh, I will have a couple of last parting posts just to remind everyone Jdog had some game! JD.[/QUOTE]JD, I applaud your decision to walk away. I know where you're at as I have been in the same place for quite some time. I've been chasing providers now for more than 24 years. If I had saved the tens of thousands of dollars spent on satisfying my primal urges I'd be able to retire today. But that was a choice I made and while I've enjoyed myself I do have regrets. I wish I could walk away to and many times I've sworn off seeing providers. But the thing is, with my hand held devise, I haven't been able to. Everyday I find myself checking out the providers on backpage and reading up on the postings on this site. I sometimes think the only way to stop is to get rid of my devise. No, I'm not transferring blame, I'm accountable, but I feel strongly that my devise has hindered overcoming my own personal demons.

Anyway, I think the only way to really quit is to make up your mind and quit. You said you have quit tobacco and drug addiction's without help. That has to be because you have some self discipline. Use that same self discipline in your quest to walk away from this addiction. Just do it, walk away and be strong enough to STOP yourself from surfing the Internet and dialing up that provider. You can do it! I for one understand and am pulling for you. I hope I can find the inner strength to do the same.

Good luck JD!

[QUOTE=HuntDog30;2768778]JD, I applaud your decision to walk away. I know where you're at as I have been in the same place for quite some time. I've been chasing providers now for more than 24 years. If I had saved the tens of thousands of dollars spent on satisfying my primal urges I'd be able to retire today. But that was a choice I made and while I've enjoyed myself I do have regrets. I wish I could walk away to and many times I've sworn off seeing providers. But the thing is, with my hand held devise, I haven't been able to. Everyday I find myself checking out the providers on backpage and reading up on the postings on this site. I sometimes think the only way to stop is to get rid of my devise. No, I'm not transferring blame, I'm accountable, but I feel strongly that my devise has hindered overcoming my own personal demons.

Anyway, I think the only way to really quit is to make up your mind and quit. You said you have quit tobacco and drug addiction's without help. That has to be because you have some self discipline. Use that same self discipline in your quest to walk away from this addiction. Just do it, walk away and be strong enough to STOP yourself from surfing the Internet and dialing up that provider. You can do it! I for one understand and am pulling for you. I hope I can find the inner strength to do the same.

Good luck JD![/QUOTE]Thanks HD, once my grand exit is complete my first order of business is going to be deleting my USA account and blocking Backpage viewing on my computer. Then I'm going through my phone deleting every provider contact I have stored, I counted over thirty the other day and I hadn't come close to being finished. I'm also trying to think of another hobby I can replace my mongering hobby with, that's going to be a tough one. This hobby or whatever it is you'd like to call it has a lots of attraction, you have the hunt phase, the initial contact phase, lots of excitement here building to the actual meet up where there's anticipation as well as trepidation, what's actually going to greet you when that door opens? Then there's the sexual act itself and what can I talk her into, BBBJ, FS, anal etc. Building to my ultimate goal of sexual release. This addiction like most addictions starts out innocently enough but then grabs you and sucks you in until you can't control it any longer, it controls you. I'm not sure when that all happened but it did indeed happen. Recognizing the addiction is a good first step in any attempt at giving it up but I'm not by any means deceiving myself thinking this is going to be easy, it will not be easy. But I've said enough about this subject and I'm sure everyone is tired of hearing me go on about it so this will be my last post about my sexual addiction. JD.

[QUOTE=JaxDog;2769131]Thanks HD, once my grand exit is complete my first order of business is going to be deleting my USA account and blocking Backpage viewing on my computer. Then I'm going through my phone deleting every provider contact I have stored, I counted over thirty the other day and I hadn't come close to being finished. I'm also trying to think of another hobby I can replace my mongering hobby with, that's going to be a tough one. This hobby or whatever it is you'd like to call it has a lots of attraction, you have the hunt phase, the initial contact phase, lots of excitement here building to the actual meet up where there's anticipation as well as trepidation, what's actually going to greet you when that door opens? Then there's the sexual act itself and what can I talk her into, BBBJ, FS, anal etc. Building to my ultimate goal of sexual release. This addiction like most addictions starts out innocently enough but then grabs you and sucks you in until you can't control it any longer, it controls you. I'm not sure when that all happened but it did indeed happen. Recognizing the addiction is a good first step in any attempt at giving it up but I'm not by any means deceiving myself thinking this is going to be easy, it will not be easy. But I've said enough about this subject and I'm sure everyone is tired of hearing me go on about it so this will be my last post about my sexual addiction. JD.[/QUOTE]I wish you good luck! You'll need it. It's not what you're addicted to. It's that you have the disease of addiction. I know. I have it. Only you can know if you do too.

Finger.

May have hit rock bottom the other week. Bacame so desperate to talk to and see my all time favorite. Spent more than $4,000 on her last year alone. Known her for almost 2 years.

We had a falling out (Several actually over last 6 months), but my feelings for her clouded my judgment.

I put up with a lot of her shit from October last year thru February this year because I liked her and her body so much.

I could have seen others, and I did, but I was addicted to her. She did some shitty things to me over past 6 months so in my passion for her, my affection for her, and my frustration for her I said some stupid things. I also reached out to her via a fake client account just to see if she would reply to "him" while she was ignoring me.

She figured it out and I felt like a piece of shit ever since. Tons of back story here, but trying to move on here.

Last summer was amazing with her and I wanted to keep that going, but I think she was growing tired of me. She would never say, but her actions proved differently.

I closed mist of my hobby accounts and email our of shame and guilt, but I think it may have been a catalyst for me to move on from her and the hobby.

I do wish and want nothing but the best for her. I feel so worthless and stupid and empty.

[QUOTE=FunInOhio;2815467]...I do wish and want nothing but the best for her. I feel so worthless and stupid and empty.[/QUOTE]Obviously I don't know you or that woman personally, but if she's like 99.999% of the other women out there taking money from men for time & sex, then she probably hasn't given you a moment's thought other than missing your money. So from personal experience, I can say that I was a dumb ass for feeling worthless and stupid while my fave probably forgot my name the day I stopped calling.

Don't beat yourself up man.

[QUOTE=Knucklebuck;2819420]Obviously I don't know you or that woman personally, but if she's like 99.999% of the other women out there taking money from men for time & sex, then she probably hasn't given you a moment's thought other than missing your money. So from personal experience, I can say that I was a dumb ass for feeling worthless and stupid while my fave probably forgot my name the day I stopped calling.

Don't beat yourself up man.[/QUOTE]Sometimes that temptation to act out is so strong. I want to see other women too, but I know I need a break and to prioritize my life.

[QUOTE=VegaMan924;2668679]5 k,15 k, mere amateurs, shit I bet I'm over 30 k LOL.[/QUOTE]It can consume a lot of money. From the early1980's through mid last decade when AMP's started getting closed down all over I'm very familiar with averaging close to a thousand a week. Now that AMP's are scarce and or the attendents are usually unattractive women in there 50's I've saved a bundle over the last 10 yrs. Would have saved more had I not learned of similar experiences provided by a few Chinese and Korean American students at a local University.

[QUOTE=FunInOhio;2815467]May have hit rock bottom the other week. Bacame so desperate to talk to and see my all time favorite. Spent more than $4,000 on her last year alone. Known her for almost 2 years.

We had a falling out (Several actually over last 6 months), but my feelings for her clouded my judgment.

I put up with a lot of her shit from October last year thru February this year because I liked her and her body so much.

I could have seen others, and I did, but I was addicted to her. She did some shitty things to me over past 6 months so in my passion for her, my affection for her, and my frustration for her I said some stupid things. I also reached out to her via a fake client account just to see if she would reply to "him" while she was ignoring me.

She figured it out and I felt like a piece of shit ever since. Tons of back story here, but trying to move on here.

Last summer was amazing with her and I wanted to keep that going, but I think she was growing tired of me. She would never say, but her actions proved differently.

I closed mist of my hobby accounts and email our of shame and guilt, but I think it may have been a catalyst for me to move on from her and the hobby.

I do wish and want nothing but the best for her. I feel so worthless and stupid and empty.[/QUOTE]Dude, you are not the first person to make this mistake. Glad you walked away. I did a way worse mistake years ago and blew way more money than you on a chick. I thought it was me for a long time, but finally. Came to the realization that I had been played. Just walk away. You'll be much happier.

Disappointing trip to #18 today. I only dabble every month or two, so when I do, I get ramped up and maybe expect too much. Decent looking, but breathe was horrible, and the closer I looked at the massage progressed the worse she looked to me. I couldn't even finish with the wrapped popsicle action, usually I can. Had prolonged handy work until finally it was over. Very deflating.

Here is my big issue, my wife is better looking than any provider I have encountered, and she is fairly accommodating. Every couple nights I get from her what would cost at least $300 out there. I have a great job, head turner of a wife. I should be more than happy, so why is it I do this? Every time I am risking my whole life, but I do it anyway.

I really need to walk away, any advice?

[QUOTE=PerimanFord;2846198]Disappointing trip to #18 today. I only dabble every month or two, so when I do, I get ramped up and maybe expect too much. Decent looking, but breathe was horrible, and the closer I looked at the massage progressed the worse she looked to me. I couldn't even finish with the wrapped popsicle action, usually I can. Had prolonged handy work until finally it was over. Very deflating.

Here is my big issue, my wife is better looking than any provider I have encountered, and she is fairly accommodating. Every couple nights I get from her what would cost at least $300 out there. I have a great job, head turner of a wife. I should be more than happy, so why is it I do this? Every time I am risking my whole life, but I do it anyway.

I really need to walk away, any advice?[/QUOTE]Have you considered that maybe you are addicted? Google sexual addiction therapist or support group in your area. You should talk to someone.

My addiction is similar. Plus I am crazy about a provider who now hates me. Can't stop thinking about her. PM me if you want to chat more.

[QUOTE=PerimanFord;2846198]Disappointing trip to #18 today. I only dabble every month or two, so when I do, I get ramped up and maybe expect too much. Decent looking, but breathe was horrible, and the closer I looked at the massage progressed the worse she looked to me. I couldn't even finish with the wrapped popsicle action, usually I can. Had prolonged handy work until finally it was over. Very deflating.

Here is my big issue, my wife is better looking than any provider I have encountered, and she is fairly accommodating. Every couple nights I get from her what would cost at least $300 out there. I have a great job, head turner of a wife. I should be more than happy, so why is it I do this? Every time I am risking my whole life, but I do it anyway.

I really need to walk away, any advice?[/QUOTE]Here's a long response, apologies in advance.

I would be VERY interested in chatting in an open forum such as this. I too struggle with this addiction -- for I believe that's what it is, at least for me -- and I would like to stop. I think it would help me to stop if I could share and receive support from others who can understand my situation.

Here's my story: I am in my early 50's, very happily married to a lovely woman who is still looks great. Nine years ago I was in London on business and hooked up with an insanely hot, 24 year old Polish girl in a bordello. That was all I needed. Next day it was a Danish girl. I struggled with guilt, fears for my health, etc, and went home to my wife in the US. I managed to stay out of the hobby for 2 years, chalked it up as an aberration. Then we moved to an area with lots of action and I started in with local girls.

In the past 7 years I have been with providers 96 times. 68 different girls, all types, but I prefer brunettes with big tits. Some are heavy, some aren't; some are smiley and cheerful, some are sulky and indifferent, I don't really care. If they open their legs, I'm game. I am especially fond of Latinas and mixed girls -- nice skin, accommodating personalities. I am a quick finisher so I typically go for quick visits that last less than 20 minutes. I tend to pay. 8 to $, but have paid as much as $$ for a really beautiful girl. Standing mish is my preferred position so I can look down at them underneath me. If they have an amazing ass, I might go for standing doggie.

Each year I've seen more and more girls, spent more and more money, and worried more about my health. I've gone for testing a couple times when I was sure I had something but all my tests were always negative. In 2009 I was with providers 2 times. In 2015 I saw providers 40 times. In summer 2014 I was banging a hot, fleshy hourglass of a girl when the condom broke and I came inside her. Felt terrific of course but I was terrified of disease. Got tested, nothing. But the experience scared me away for four months and I thought I was finally done. I remember feeling free because nothing would get me to go back; I threw away my burner phone and everything. This feeling lasted 4 months before I caved and saw another girl. She was so-so but I went to others and pretty soon I was doing more than ever before. In 2015, like I said, I was with providers 40 times, and this is after the incident with the broken condom. Last summer my wife and I went to London, where you can have a hot European blonde for. 35 and I had 12 girls in 5 days for about $$ $$ total. My wife would go off shopping or something while I went to a "museum" or a "music shop. " Or maybe I'd "hit the pub for a pint. " Because I'm so quick I could see 2 or even 3 girls in a couple of hours, then we'd meet up later and I'd concoct some story about where I'd been.

After the London trip I again laid off for a few months. At this point I am seeing a provider on average once a month. This is still too much. For one thing, I have changed jobs and I now have the best job of my life, once that I love, find rewarding, and that pays pretty well too. I'm not a young guy anymore and don't expect that I would ever be able to replicate this type of job situation. So getting caught by LEO would immediately result in termination (I'm a state employee now) and that would seriously ruin me. Moreover, my wife would leave me in a heartbeat. I have no illusions about this. She is hot blooded and passionate and would probably run me over in her car on the way out. So fear of destroying my life in multiple ways lies at the heart of my wanting to stop. Then too there are concerns about diseases (I'm very careful, no BB anything and I always wash and sanitize immediately after but you never know) and of course the financial side. Even though I tend toward quickies for $, when you add up 100 encounters more or less I'm sure I have spent well over 10 K. That's a fair amount of money for me. I know there are plenty of guys who have spent much more, but I have to just look at my own situation.

So those are 4 good reasons to stop: marriage, job, health, finances. So why is it so FUCKING hard to stop?

Well, here's one reason:

[URL]http://springfield.backpage.com/FemaleEscorts/highly-reviewed-perfect-4-breakfast-hows-ur-appetite-early-bird-gets-the-worm/33829396[/URL]

I fucked her twice in December, then she left the area and now she's back. If you can't understand why she is a temptation, then I can't explain it to you. (The pics are real BTW and she is totally my type, notwithstanding the blonde dye job.).

Here's another one:

[URL]http://springfield.backpage.com/FemaleEscorts/young-sexy-brazilian-babe-eager-to-meet-you/33485119[/URL]

I've been with her 4 times. Brazilian, real pics.

So, I really want to call one of these girls, give her money and fuck her. Instead, I am sitting on the couch typing this, while my wife sits across the room, reading a book. I am doing this hoping that one of you guys will respond back with your own story so we can start to figure out what the hell we're doing with these girls and how we can try to stop. Basically, to become each other's sponsors. I don't know, maybe it's a dumb idea? But maybe not.

One thing I have started doing: keeping a list of days that I DON'T see providers. Today is day 17. My goal right now is to go 4 months, because then I go on a vacation with my wife (not to London FFS) where I won't have opportunity to screw escorts. I'm hoping at some point the habit will be so broken that I won't even be tempted anymore. But I don't know. I've been at the point where I thought I was over it, and then boom, I see a pretty girl in the market, and I think of a provider I saw once or twice, and then I'm checking ads, and then I'm in a hotel room with some girl half my age or younger lying on the bed with her legs open. At that point, all the good intentions in the universe aren't going to stop biological necessity. So I'm hoping arrest things before they get to that point.

Thanks for listening, brothers. And whatever you do, stay safe and treat the girls well.

JS2.

[QUOTE=VegaMan924;2668679]5 k,15 k, mere amateurs, shit I bet I'm over 30 k LOL.[/QUOTE]Fuck I'm into the $100,000 mark plus! I'm a PRO. 30 years of game, its the price we pay! Drk.

I am in the same boat with you.

Every pretty girl I see, I will turn into some action eiher contacting a provider or answering some ads.

I think it is the Nearderthal genes in me that drives me to essentially need to urge to reach out.

For me it is the variety thing and like brunettes more than blondes.

Perhaps it is something that our SO does not satisfy that we need to look elsewhere.

For instance, one experience I had where the privder was performaing oral on me. I have never had the same experience with my SO.

No matter how many times I have tried to train her.

Or perhaps it is at times that I like to go down and splurge a bit on the p*ssy. A shaven one.

My SO does not shave hers, so at the rare moments or craving, I look for one provider and reach out.

I need more time, but will write soon.

Hang in there.

I too am trying to keep stick marks for days without seeing. I fucked up today so tomorrow is day no. 1.

Be back when I can. Leaving for vacay tomorrow.

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2850168]Here's a long response, apologies in advance.

I would be VERY interested in chatting in an open forum such as this. I too struggle with this addiction -- for I believe that's what it is, at least for me -- and I would like to stop. I think it would help me to stop if I could share and receive support from others who can understand my situation.

Here's my story: I am in my early 50's, very happily married to a lovely woman who is still looks great. Nine years ago I was in London on business and hooked up with an insanely hot, 24 year old Polish girl in a bordello. That was all I needed. Next day it was a Danish girl. I struggled with guilt, fears for my health, etc, and went home to my wife in the US. I managed to stay out of the hobby for 2 years, chalked it up as an aberration. Then we moved to an area with lots of action and I started in with local girls.

In the past 7 years I have been with providers 96 times. 68 different girls, all types, but I prefer brunettes with big tits. Some are heavy, some aren't; some are smiley and cheerful, some are sulky and indifferent, I don't really care. If they open their legs, I'm game. I am especially fond of Latinas and mixed girls -- nice skin, accommodating personalities. I am a quick finisher so I typically go for quick visits that last less than 20 minutes. I tend to pay. 8 to $, but have paid as much as $$ for a really beautiful girl. Standing mish is my preferred position so I can look down at them underneath me. If they have an amazing ass, I might go for standing doggie.

Each year I've seen more and more girls, spent more and more money, and worried more about my health. I've gone for testing a couple times when I was sure I had something but all my tests were always negative. In 2009 I was with providers 2 times. In 2015 I saw providers 40 times. In summer 2014 I was banging a hot, fleshy hourglass of a girl when the condom broke and I came inside her. Felt terrific of course but I was terrified of disease. Got tested, nothing. But the experience scared me away for four months and I thought I was finally done. I remember feeling free because nothing would get me to go back; I threw away my burner phone and everything. This feeling lasted 4 months before I caved and saw another girl. She was so-so but I went to others and pretty soon I was doing more than ever before. In 2015, like I said, I was with providers 40 times, and this is after the incident with the broken condom. Last summer my wife and I went to London, where you can have a hot European blonde for. 35 and I had 12 girls in 5 days for about $$ $$ total. My wife would go off shopping or something while I went to a "museum" or a "music shop. " Or maybe I'd "hit the pub for a pint. " Because I'm so quick I could see 2 or even 3 girls in a couple of hours, then we'd meet up later and I'd concoct some story about where I'd been.

After the London trip I again laid off for a few months. At this point I am seeing a provider on average once a month. This is still too much. For one thing, I have changed jobs and I now have the best job of my life, once that I love, find rewarding, and that pays pretty well too. I'm not a young guy anymore and don't expect that I would ever be able to replicate this type of job situation. So getting caught by LEO would immediately result in termination (I'm a state employee now) and that would seriously ruin me. Moreover, my wife would leave me in a heartbeat. I have no illusions about this. She is hot blooded and passionate and would probably run me over in her car on the way out. So fear of destroying my life in multiple ways lies at the heart of my wanting to stop. Then too there are concerns about diseases (I'm very careful, no BB anything and I always wash and sanitize immediately after but you never know) and of course the financial side. Even though I tend toward quickies for $, when you add up 100 encounters more or less I'm sure I have spent well over 10 K. That's a fair amount of money for me. I know there are plenty of guys who have spent much more, but I have to just look at my own situation.

So those are 4 good reasons to stop: marriage, job, health, finances. So why is it so FUCKING hard to stop?

Well, here's one reason:

[URL]http://springfield.backpage.com/FemaleEscorts/highly-reviewed-perfect-4-breakfast-hows-ur-appetite-early-bird-gets-the-worm/33829396[/URL]

I fucked her twice in December, then she left the area and now she's back. If you can't understand why she is a temptation, then I can't explain it to you. (The pics are real BTW and she is totally my type, notwithstanding the blonde dye job.).

Here's another one:

[URL]http://springfield.backpage.com/FemaleEscorts/young-sexy-brazilian-babe-eager-to-meet-you/33485119[/URL]

I've been with her 4 times. Brazilian, real pics.

So, I really want to call one of these girls, give her money and fuck her. Instead, I am sitting on the couch typing this, while my wife sits across the room, reading a book. I am doing this hoping that one of you guys will respond back with your own story so we can start to figure out what the hell we're doing with these girls and how we can try to stop. Basically, to become each other's sponsors. I don't know, maybe it's a dumb idea? But maybe not.

One thing I have started doing: keeping a list of days that I DON'T see providers. Today is day 17. My goal right now is to go 4 months, because then I go on a vacation with my wife (not to London FFS) where I won't have opportunity to screw escorts. I'm hoping at some point the habit will be so broken that I won't even be tempted anymore. But I don't know. I've been at the point where I thought I was over it, and then boom, I see a pretty girl in the market, and I think of a provider I saw once or twice, and then I'm checking ads, and then I'm in a hotel room with some girl half my age or younger lying on the bed with her legs open. At that point, all the good intentions in the universe aren't going to stop biological necessity. So I'm hoping arrest things before they get to that point.

Thanks for listening, brothers. And whatever you do, stay safe and treat the girls well.

JS2.[/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=FunInOhio;2850569]I need more time, but will write soon.

Hang in there.

I too am trying to keep stick marks for days without seeing. I fucked up today so tomorrow is day no. 1.

Be back when I can. Leaving for vacay tomorrow.[/QUOTE]FunInOhio: Hang in there RIGHT BACK ATCHA. Those stick marks are helpful. This is Day 18 for me and it really helps to have someone to report to.

Have a great vacation. I hope you're not going to Amsterdam, Bangkok or Vegas. .

Crow999: I hear you about the shaved puss. The first time I saw one outside of porn film was with my first provider in 2007. What can I say, when I was in college none of the girls did that. Now it's to the point where Bush is a real turn off. I got my SO to at least trim hers down, which helps a bit but not as much as, oh, an endless stream of 20 somethings.

Of course you're right that the main thing is just variety. One of my favorite parts of my addiction, apart from the sex of course, is keeping a running list of every provider I've seen. It's on a thumb drive and it has a quick summary of the encounter, photos from the online ad, sometimes photos that I've taken myself. So after I see the girl I add her to the list, and in the process I go through my whole provider history. It's an ENORMOUS turn-on and a really baaaad habit. So I'm trying to break it but it's not easy. It's no secret that guys are wired to have sex with as many women as possible. I used to fantasize about hitting 1,000. Now I'm trying not to set those kinds of goals, but it ain't easy.

I even have categories of girls by ethnicity on the list, along with charts for positions used, month of each visit, year of each visit etc. I guess it's kind of anal but it's just a way to try to look at the encounters from as many different angles as possible. To prolong the pleasure I think.

Anyway: Day 18, and counting.

Stay safe,

JS2.

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2850168]Here's a long response, apologies in advance.

I would be VERY interested in chatting in an open forum such as this. I too struggle with this addiction -- for I believe that's what it is, at least for me -- and I would like to stop. I think it would help me to stop if I could share and receive support from others who can understand my situation.

[/QUOTE]I dunno, I don't have a SO to deal with, so my situation is different.

That said, under the category of there is more than one way to skin a cat.

I checked out "the lifestyle" or swinging as a way to get variety. It is a b*tch for single males (SMs) because of the way they generally treat the ladies. But on occasion I have had girl friends that were in or open to the lifestyle and that provided some fun and variety. If I find a permanent GF going forward, this would have to be a possibility.

But the key for the lifestyle as a couple is top-notched communication. Using it as a way to save a marriage usually results lots of drama. Dudes who would love to scr*w numerous women, freak out when they see someone with their wife, the mother of their children. Or when she makes a noise she doesn't make with him or has a bigger orgasm than she ever had with him. The male mind is a funny thing / place.

Perhaps that State sponsored health insurance covers some counseling? There are probably some issues that lead to such that could be uncovered and help one to find success?

[QUOTE=Crow999;2850292]I am in the same boat with you.

Every pretty girl I see, I will turn into some action eiher contacting a provider or answering some ads.

I think it is the Nearderthal genes in me that drives me to essentially need to urge to reach out.

For me it is the variety thing and like brunettes more than blondes.

Perhaps it is something that our SO does not satisfy that we need to look elsewhere.

For instance, one experience I had where the privder was performaing oral on me. I have never had the same experience with my SO.

No matter how many times I have tried to train her.

Or perhaps it is at times that I like to go down and splurge a bit on the p*ssy. A shaven one.

My SO does not shave hers, so at the rare moments or craving, I look for one provider and reach out.[/QUOTE]I can relate. My wife is better looking than most providers I see but the sex game at home isn't the same.

She can't give me head as good as alot of providers, I've tried to show her what I want and how I like it but she just can't get it.

Plus its a rarity, she thinks that she's giving me something that is priceless and the rare occasion that she catches or swallow she believes that she just gave me a gift I should cherish for a lifetime.

Little does she know I can get way better for a benjamin.

On the other hand enjoy DATY and I know she enjoys it as much I like giving it, but I've been reluctant to do it now since I don't get the same treatment in return.

And I know what you mean about shaving her cat, I don't understand why she won't do it for me if she knows what I want.

I have a voracious sexual appetite with a mediocre sexual partner, that's the main reason why I'm out here. For all you single guys out there keep that in mind before you tie the know.

[QUOTE=JoeySmth2;2851362]One of my favorite parts of my addiction, apart from the sex of course, is keeping a running list of every provider I've seen. It's on a thumb drive and it has a quick summary of the encounter, photos from the online ad, sometimes photos that I've taken myself. So after I see the girl I add her to the list, and in the process I go through my whole provider history. It's an ENORMOUS turn-on and a really baaaad habit. So I'm trying to break it but it's not easy. It's no secret that guys are wired to have sex with as many women as possible. I used to fantasize about hitting 1,000. Now I'm trying not to set those kinds of goals, but it ain't easy.

I even have categories of girls by ethnicity on the list, along with charts for positions used, month of each visit, year of each visit etc. I guess it's kind of anal but it's just a way to try to look at the encounters from as many different angles as possible. To prolong the pleasure I think.

Anyway: Day 18, and counting.

Stay safe,

JS2.[/QUOTE]Uhm not for nothing becareful with that thumb drive, your wifes divorce lawyer will have field day with that in court, I would destroy all evidence despite how tempting it sounds.

Way way back in the days I used to do the group chats to try to pickup girls, then I got married and would still venture into some online when internet was young. Back in the days of AOL, LOL.

My wife found an email I had with a list of all the girls I used to and still kinda chatted with on the computer. I played it off as just friends.

But that email also had some fake accounts I used to communicate and she saw some of the interactions. Again I played it off as just fun and fantasy and that I never seen anyone of them but it was a slippery slope to be on.

[QUOTE=JayPlay42;2853855]I can relate. My wife is better looking than most providers I see but the sex game at home isn't the same.

She can't give me head as good as alot of providers, I've tried to show her what I want and how I like it but she just can't get it.

Plus its a rarity, she thinks that she's giving me something that is priceless and the rare occasion that she catches or swallow she believes that she just gave me a gift I should cherish for a lifetime.

Little does she know I can get way better for a benjamin.

On the other hand enjoy DATY and I know she enjoys it as much I like giving it, but I've been reluctant to do it now since I don't get the same treatment in return.

And I know what you mean about shaving her cat, I don't understand why she won't do it for me if she knows what I want.

I have a voracious sexual appetite with a mediocre sexual partner, that's the main reason why I'm out here. For all you single guys out there keep that in mind before you tie the know.[/QUOTE]I hear ya. The lady I was with did not shave either. Once in a while she trimmed which was nice. She also did not want daty. Did it with her a couple times through her panties, but she felt too oppressed or something. She said she did not feel comfortable with it.

She wa passionate at times, but mostly was slow and passionate. Not very sex crazy wild. She also dealt with depression. Which can severely decrease sexual desire as well can the meds used to treat depression. Sigh.

I started in the hobby host out of college. Only had a couple of steady GFs prior and was tired of jerkingoff.

I may detail my story and entry into the hobby later. I participate in hobby to where my finances allow, but I don't settle for any pussy. I am picky and have some preferred choices. Local BP does not offer babes as some of your cities (maybe 1 on 20 ads are worth checking out) so I mostly go for independent providers who advertise in a local city (detroit).

I could list some amazing beauties and reviewed them on ter, but I don't keep a file on computer or thumb drive.

I Became Infatuated AND obsessed with one lately which lead me to realize I need to chill and reevaluate my life and reasons for being in the hobby. I could not get enough of her. I did not like who I became or how I handled my business. She walked all over me and I allowed it because I wanted her so bad.

It was less about the hobby and more about wanting to spend my time with her. I fucked up and lost sight and perspective.

[QUOTE=FunInOhio;2856822]

I Became Infatuated AND obsessed with one lately which lead me to realize I need to chill and reevaluate my life and reasons for being in the hobby. I could not get enough of her. I did not like who I became or how I handled my business. She walked all over me and I allowed it because I wanted her so bad.

It was less about the hobby and more about wanting to spend my time with her. I fucked up and lost sight and perspective.[/QUOTE]Yeah, Rule #1 of the hobby is NEVER fall in love with, get too attached to or obsess over a girl in the business!

Now that said, anyone who has been in the hobby knows. At times that is nearly impossible. So yeah, we all have been there and done that. Thankfully in my case, I had a fellow monger beat me about the head and shoulders until I quit with the obsession!

So good that you were able to step back and self center!

[QUOTE=JayPlay42;2853855] I have a voracious sexual appetite with a mediocre sexual partner, that's the main reason why I'm out here.[/QUOTE]I can relate. It's not even so much mediocrity, it's just monotony. I've been married 25 years, that's thousands of times with the same SO. Is it any wonder a guy craves variety?.

And looked at that way, the 100 or so times I've been with providers is really just a tiny percentage compared to the times I've been with my wife.

But anyway. This thread is about trying to KICK the HABIT. So then:

Today is day 31 of going without providers. Last one I saw was on March 9. Somebody give me a chip LOL.

Cravings not too bad today but still there. Was with my SO this morning which helped. Still was fantasizing about a provider from a year ago but the SO will never know.

Wish me luck over the next month. In my experience, the 6-to-7-week stretch is rough, I've fallen off the wagon several times around that time. I think I get complacent and let my guard down. I think "Oh I can handle it" and then scroll through BP and find some honey I can't resist. Also, next week I'm traveling for business and that's always tough for me too, opportunity leads to temptation and so forth.

Good luck with the brothers who are trying to quit. And everybody, stay safe.

JS2.