The passing of Autumnskyy
Some of you may remember Autumnskyy a redheaded freckled provider from [URL]e.com[/URL] days and this board. She passed away recently from health issues that she has been dealing with for a couple of years. She was a recovering addict and had been clean for over 4 years and she passed away clean. She is an example of an addict that can make it. She is a great loss to humanity and a great loss to me.
The one thing that I learned from her death is life is too short. Too many regrets have resulted from her death and sometimes you have to just go with what the heart tells you instead of using logic and reasoning when making decisions. I loved her and I will miss her dearly. Please do not PM me with questions or condolences. One of the greatest examples of humanity has now moved on to another place.
One of my favorite quotes.
[QUOTE=FreckleFreak;2890370]Some of you may remember Autumnskyy a redheaded freckled provider from [URL]e.com[/URL] days and this board. She passed away recently from health issues that she has been dealing with for a couple of years. She was a recovering addict and had been clean for over 4 years and she passed away clean. She is an example of an addict that can make it. She is a great loss to humanity and a great loss to me.
The one thing that I learned from her death is life is too short. Too many regrets have resulted from her death and sometimes you have to just go with what the heart tells you instead of using logic and reasoning when making decisions. I loved her and I will miss her dearly. Please do not PM me with questions or condolences. One of the greatest examples of humanity has now moved on to another place.[/QUOTE]Of all time and both of you remember me of this:
The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.
Always remember the love, joy and happiness and the greatest gift you both gave to each other. LOVE.
Love outlives us all. Sending Hugs to you my friend and so sorry for your loss.
Always will have support.
[QUOTE=Sara8032;2890394]As many of you know in early November I was diagnosed with breast cancer something no woman ever wants to hear let alone figure in that I was a provider. I was devastated that my days as a provider would've been over but quite to the contrary. The continued support that I received from my clients whether on this board or not amazed me. Almost every day since that time I've had one or two people or more just checking in to see how I was doing which was so encouraging. Immediately following my surgery when I could not work several of you even help donate monetarily with no expectations of anything in return. Big shout out to go to Big Mack for moral support and efforts in raising funds, indyguy123, Freckle Freak, MMgeg, and voluptuous Jenele have all become personal friends. Countless more of you sent me occasional pm Just checking in and sending well wishes. Additionally several of you came to my defense when unkind comments were made about me on this board.
As of yesterday I am officially cancer free and I wish to give you all that have supported me a heartfelt thank you.[/QUOTE]Anytime you ever need anything I WILL always be there for you I'm so happy that you can breathe again and be able to have less to worry about One thing I have come to appreciate and respect is when one of us is in need whether it's just in moral support or in other ways. We are there. So happy for you my friend!
You could not be more wrong
[QUOTE=Mmgeg;2890598]Beautiful people do not just happen.[/QUOTE]I have been very fortunate to know several beautiful people. Not a one of them suffered the tragedies you describe. I would say that some people are just born that way but I'm sure you have a thesis somewhere that tells me I'm wrong.
Condolences, Congratulations, and the frailty of life
First, my condolences to Freckle Freak and the loss of Autumnskyy. I've never met either, and in fact I don't think I even heard of Autumnskyy until I read about her on the post about her passing. Truly sounds like I missed out.
And congrats to XNatalieX for staying clean. I have been very fortunate that I've never fallen into any substance abuse habits, so I really don't know how much guts it takes to admit to something like that, even on a somewhat anonymous forum, but I imagine it takes some. So that and staying clean definitely earns one some bragging rights!
And of course, congratulations to Sara8032 for beating cancer. I've had several relatives on my mom's side who have died from it. One of my aunts who never smoked died of lung cancer. All of them lived in the same area of Kentucky (about 30 miles south of Cincinatti), so I don't know if it's something in the environment, genetics, or a combination of both.
As for myself, I've struggled with depression for ages. It's nowhere near as bad as it used to be, but there were several times when suicidal thoughts crept in. Though I still get depressed from time to time (like we all do), I will say that having my life delibritatly put in danger made me keenly aware of two things: life can be over at any second, and I WANT TO LIVE.
No matter how big a pain in the ass things might be at times, at least we're here to deal with it. (Then there's so many awesome things I would have missed out on if I did take myself out).
I have seen proof that animals go on after they pass, so I have no reason to doubt that we do too. But I still want to ride it out as long as I can. I may change my mind when I'm 90 and drooling pudding on myself, but for now, strap in and see where these roads lead to.
