Sexual Addiction Reports

[QUOTE=Harrywang;2167847]Simply put, I QUIT. I literally have to confess that I am a sex addict. I mean, shit, I spend a lot of time in a day doing sexual stuff by myself, with others, and fantasizing.

It is really really sad. It is a disease, it is really no different than smoking nicotine, or gambling, or whatever that is sinful but fun as fuck.

There was this post that lead me to start this thread. I was thinking along the same lines, but I think it is best to discuss this openly.

What I really want to know is how many of you are similar to me? Like, you lose count how many time you have masturbated in a day, or lost count on how many ho's have you bang in a month? Or just pretty much every woman you see on the street that is over a 5 you think how it would be to hit it while driving, walking?

There is a nature side of things, but fuck man, I am being destroyed by these thoughts every 7 seconds.

It is simply a disease, I need to cure it, and I don't really fucking have time to go to a so called rehab and fucking pay many grand to talk to retarded groups of people who need to open up.

I try to do as many things as I can throughout the day, but once I have free time, man fuck, the junior is thinking and that just fucking make me lose control. It is entirely biologically fucked to fight this.

Just like nicotine, I have no idea how many times I need to kick this habit. I know old fucks that are 85 years old want to fuck 18 year olds. Is it game over for me? Is it pretty much human nature to try to fuck and procreate till you fucking die?

I don't know man, this is fucking depressing. I have no self control, I check [URL]usasexguide.info[/URL] every day around midnight and hit with a freaking site that is either backing up and can't load shit, or it just said, ERROR.

What the fuck man, WHAT THE FUCK! I swear, I wish I have no money, and that way I will be starved sexually and maybe that will cure me. But fuck man, I have enough to do this every day and I wouldn't even notice it.

After awhile, I've already fucked every type of pussy, big, small, colored, not colored, fat, skinny, weirdos, flakers, smokers, drug addicts, you fucking name it.

So, why the fuck do I come back every time, to a fucking dirty ass place that literally is a door knob, everyone had a turn. Haha.

So this thread I hope will be a reminder that I FUCKING QUIT and see how long I can be fucking sober from this addiction.

H. W.[/QUOTE]So, have you quit quitting yet? I'ts been about an hour.

See you at the AMP's, dawg.

[QUOTE=Harrywang;2167847]Simply put, I QUIT. I literally have to confess that I am a sex addict. I mean, shit, I spend a lot of time in a day doing sexual stuff by myself, with others, and fantasizing.

It is really really sad. It is a disease, it is really no different than smoking nicotine, or gambling, or whatever that is sinful but fun as fuck.

There was this post that lead me to start this thread. I was thinking along the same lines, but I think it is best to discuss this openly.

What I really want to know is how many of you are similar to me? Like, you lose count how many time you have masturbated in a day, or lost count on how many ho's have you bang in a month? Or just pretty much every woman you see on the street that is over a 5 you think how it would be to hit it while driving, walking?

There is a nature side of things, but fuck man, I am being destroyed by these thoughts every 7 seconds.

It is simply a disease, I need to cure it, and I don't really fucking have time to go to a so called rehab and fucking pay many grand to talk to retarded groups of people who need to open up.

I try to do as many things as I can throughout the day, but once I have free time, man fuck, the junior is thinking and that just fucking make me lose control. It is entirely biologically fucked to fight this.

Just like nicotine, I have no idea how many times I need to kick this habit. I know old fucks that are 85 years old want to fuck 18 year olds. Is it game over for me? Is it pretty much human nature to try to fuck and procreate till you fucking die?

I don't know man, this is fucking depressing. I have no self control, I check [URL]usasexguide.info[/URL] every day around midnight and hit with a freaking site that is either backing up and can't load shit, or it just said, ERROR.

What the fuck man, WHAT THE FUCK! I swear, I wish I have no money, and that way I will be starved sexually and maybe that will cure me. But fuck man, I have enough to do this every day and I wouldn't even notice it.

After awhile, I've already fucked every type of pussy, big, small, colored, not colored, fat, skinny, weirdos, flakers, smokers, drug addicts, you fucking name it.

So, why the fuck do I come back every time, to a fucking dirty ass place that literally is a door knob, everyone had a turn. Haha.

So this thread I hope will be a reminder that I FUCKING QUIT and see how long I can be fucking sober from this addiction.

H. W.[/QUOTE]My ATF once warned me about being addicted, advised me to quit while she was feeding my addiction! How can you quit? Die. LOL. Plain and simple.

2 old men I know (in their 80's) at Waialae CC both told me if you cannot fuck "you might as well be dead". This after they were arguing about which ED drug was more effective, Viagra or Levitra.

So I am not going to try quitting again. Ain't going to work. I am an addict. If you go Thailand or China for fucking and sucking, FORGET IT. You are an addict.

This forum kinda helps feed this habit. When I read about a new girl somewhere and think the pictures are real or a bro tells me there's a new one somewhere, BOOM! I'm going to be thinking about her.

The worst thing you can do is have feelings for a provider. Once you cross that line you are dead meat. That I know for sure.

Don't try to fight it. Just try to control it and be reasonable with your expectations. No healthy male is going to stop thinking about a wet, sweet pussy. Especially with all the fucking tail walking around on the street these days!

Good luck HW!

MP Man.

[QUOTE=RottenOtto;2168212]So, have you quit quitting yet? I'ts been about an hour.

See you at the AMP's, dawg.[/QUOTE]Man, I jist woke up from a wet dream of a previous hot AMP girl giving me BBBJ and I couldn't cum. This is going to be hard!

[QUOTE=MiriKitani;2167865]I think this tread should be deleted by the admins it does not belong in this forum. Returning to this forum to post is only going to remind of what your missing. Its counter productive to what you want to achieve. IMHO.[/QUOTE]You are right but usasexguide to me isn't really entirely a source of "lets find out where the best and worse fucks are", I feel a sense of brotherhood community and this thread is really for me and for others (I highly doubt I am the 1st person on earth to consider this) to hopefully share experience and find help and advices.

Up to the admin really, I could have titled it different but I think it is a correct emotional title.

[QUOTE=Member#4201;2167849]Quitting cold turkey is hard. Try cutting back or restrict yourself to high quality girls and the money will make you cut back. BTW, I am up there and you never stop thinking about fucking young 18 year olds. Its a man thing.[/QUOTE]So, does your sex drive doesn't decrease, only the ability of doing so is? That seems like an evil way to design us.

Maybe I'm weird but I don't think you have a problem.

I think it's more of a societal imposed belief that you have excepted about yourself and you have let it get the best of you.

Kind of like the guilt you are feeling from the sexual thoughts fuels more guilt and thoughts of the same until your spiraling out of control.

What if you just excepted your sexual nature and realized it is part of your everyday life.

Nothing to fret about just keep it in check like 1 to 2 times a day 2 hour sessions each?

If you start needing more and more well weekend monger it and go for 3 to 4 a day 2 hour sessions, problem solved LOL.

All joking a side I'm half serious, fully embrace the inner monger and let him out to play (within acceptable reason) LOL.

Catch.

[QUOTE=Harrywang;2167847]Simply put, I QUIT. I literally have to confess that I am a sex addict. I mean, shit, I spend a lot of time in a day doing sexual stuff by myself, with others, and fantasizing.

It is really really sad. It is a disease, it is really no different than smoking nicotine, or gambling, or whatever that is sinful but fun as fuck.

There was this post that lead me to start this thread. I was thinking along the same lines, but I think it is best to discuss this openly.

What I really want to know is how many of you are similar to me? Like, you lose count how many time you have masturbated in a day, or lost count on how many ho's have you bang in a month? Or just pretty much every woman you see on the street that is over a 5 you think how it would be to hit it while driving, walking?

There is a nature side of things, but fuck man, I am being destroyed by these thoughts every 7 seconds.

It is simply a disease, I need to cure it, and I don't really fucking have time to go to a so called rehab and fucking pay many grand to talk to retarded groups of people who need to open up.

I try to do as many things as I can throughout the day, but once I have free time, man fuck, the junior is thinking and that just fucking make me lose control. It is entirely biologically fucked to fight this.

Just like nicotine, I have no idea how many times I need to kick this habit. I know old fucks that are 85 years old want to fuck 18 year olds. Is it game over for me? Is it pretty much human nature to try to fuck and procreate till you fucking die?

I don't know man, this is fucking depressing. I have no self control, I check [URL]usasexguide.info[/URL] every day around midnight and hit with a freaking site that is either backing up and can't load shit, or it just said, ERROR.

What the fuck man, WHAT THE FUCK! I swear, I wish I have no money, and that way I will be starved sexually and maybe that will cure me. But fuck man, I have enough to do this every day and I wouldn't even notice it.

After awhile, I've already fucked every type of pussy, big, small, colored, not colored, fat, skinny, weirdos, flakers, smokers, drug addicts, you fucking name it.

So, why the fuck do I come back every time, to a fucking dirty ass place that literally is a door knob, everyone had a turn. Haha.

So this thread I hope will be a reminder that I FUCKING QUIT and see how long I can be fucking sober from this addiction.

H. W.[/QUOTE]

Ok. All I can think about is my next massage.

I have a LTR with a freak in the bed that will do ANYTHING I want. BUT she doesn't really give a good massage.

Is it wrong that I keep searching BP for new massage?

I've never been to an escort for FS. Only massage.

[QUOTE=Harrywang;2168242]So, does your sex drive doesn't decrease, only the ability of doing so is? That seems like an evil way to design us.[/QUOTE]You are not alone, brother. If I don't bust minimum one nut a day, I can't function. Fucking disease with the cure being the problem! Anyway, got to go look for my next victim (s) for the evening.

Well, its been 2 years since I kicked the habit (see posts 354 and 341). It does get easier with time as the mind changes.

One big change I see in how my mind works: in my horndog days, I used to be motivated by memories of the good times, when an encounter went spectacularly well. But they were actually rare, and usually not all that good. Nowadays I mostly remember the bad times -- the great majority -- the dreary encounters, the occasionally deranged or high girl, the bad smells, the ripoffs, the police encounters, etc, etc. Fortunately I was never busted, never harmed, and had only 3 or 4 STDs all curable. Whew!

And I would never judge anyone on here because I had "been there done that" for a long time.

I shudder at the thought of street prostitution. And feel no desire for a cold liaison on BP. The only real temptation now is the Sugar Daddy scenario, which looks easy to arrange with many web sites now catering to that. But I've managed to convince myself I can't afford it, and I remember the bad feelings I often had from the few Sugar Baby relationships I had some years ago.

[QUOTE=Snake27;2246271]Well, its been 2 years since I kicked the habit (see posts 354 and 341). It does get easier with time as the mind changes.

One big change I see in how my mind works: in my horndog days, I used to be motivated by memories of the good times, when an encounter went spectacularly well. But they were actually rare, and usually not all that good. Nowadays I mostly remember the bad times -- the great majority -- the dreary encounters, the occasionally deranged or high girl, the bad smells, the ripoffs, the police encounters, etc, etc. Fortunately I was never busted, never harmed, and had only 3 or 4 STDs all curable. Whew!

And I would never judge anyone on here because I had "been there done that" for a long time.

I shudder at the thought of street prostitution. And feel no desire for a cold liaison on BP. The only real temptation now is the Sugar Daddy scenario, which looks easy to arrange with many web sites now catering to that. But I've managed to convince myself I can't afford it, and I remember the bad feelings I often had from the few Sugar Baby relationships I had some years ago.[/QUOTE]Snake, with all due respect if you're really out of the hobby why are you trolling on these sites? That's like a crackhead just hanging around the crackhouse. See'Mon. Man.

[QUOTE=Dsrtp1;2251025]Snake, with all due respect if you're really out of the hobby why are you trolling on these sites? That's like a crackhead just hanging around the crackhouse. See'Mon. Man.[/QUOTE]Actually I am out of the hobby and feel pretty good. Now, I am obviously anonymous here, so you never really know, do you? But at least I have been fairly consistent here the last few years.

I think this thread is an interesting topic and serves a useful purpose for some. For a small minority of forum members.

With all due respect, I don't think the comparison can be made to crack.

[QUOTE=Snake27;2256178]Actually I am out of the hobby and feel pretty good. Now, I am obviously anonymous here, so you never really know, do you? But at least I have been fairly consistent here the last few years.

I think this thread is an interesting topic and serves a useful purpose for some. For a small minority of forum members.

With all due respect, I don't think the comparison can be made to crack.[/QUOTE]I don't mean to be argumentative but I was curious about your thought process. I've considered quitting the hobby and have taken extended leaves of absence. I can only speak from my experience and conclude that whenever I log on and stay connected to these sites, forums, etc. It makes it more difficult to quit. If it's working for you, I'm glad. Good luck.

[QUOTE=Dsrtp1;2256615]I don't mean to be argumentative but I was curious about your thought process. I've considered quitting the hobby and have taken extended leaves of absence. I can only speak from my experience and conclude that whenever I log on and stay connected to these sites, forums, etc. It makes it more difficult to quit. If it's working for you, I'm glad. Good luck.[/QUOTE]Fair enough, and we're cool. I see this tiny corner of the USASG as possibly helpful and therapeutic to some, though possibly annoying and judgemental to most, so I try to be cautious and not seem to proselytize.

Looking back, I see the process of quitting took about 10 years, with a gradual mitigation of risk and a reduction of involvement, interspersed with relapses. I never really saw this forum as a cause for relapse. Porn was a much bigger influence, though I have grown weary of it now.

The tipping point was 2 years ago due to a convergence of factors, namely dissatisfaction, becoming "mature" (older and calmer, though still functional), and the onset of poverty caused by several issues and priorities unrelated to the hobby. If I won the lottery I might have a relapse and find a nice sugar baby, but the odds are that I am done. The more I am away from it, though, the more pride and resolve I feel, as it is a triumph of the mind.

After many years in this game and only a short time on USA pages, (2 years) (188 post), I must ask, am I a addict? I have been married to a great woman (40 years) who I love, but can't complete a rewarding sex act with any longer (no cumming, oral, hand)! Spend more time on USA, then most. Have to much invested (money, kids, grand kids,) them most, to just leave, so I look to pick up the pieces, from the outside world. (BP, craigs list, USA post). When ever I hookup, its like a high that can't be explained, for days, weeks, dreaming of the girls I just fucked, and wanting more (2,3 a day) when I'm playing this sick dangerous game. I work hard and have the $$s to spend, so I can DREAM as much as I want. I'm not hurting anyone? Right? I don't know how much longer I can play, before it all falls down on me, and I lose ever thing?? Stay safe DRKSD.

[QUOTE=DarkSideOfMe;2258321]After many years in this game and only a short time on USA pages, (2 years) (188 post), I must ask, am I a addict? I have been married to a great woman (40 years) who I love, but can't complete a rewarding sex act with any longer (no cumming, oral, hand)! Spend more time on USA, then most. Have to much invested (money, kids, grand kids,) them most, to just leave, so I look to pick up the pieces, from the outside world. (BP, craigs list, USA post). When ever I hookup, its like a high that can't be explained, for days, weeks, dreaming of the girls I just fucked, and wanting more (2,3 a day) when I'm playing this sick dangerous game. I work hard and have the $$s to spend, so I can DREAM as much as I want. I'm not hurting anyone? Right? I don't know how much longer I can play, before it all falls down on me, and I lose ever thing?? Stay safe DRKSD.[/QUOTE]I'm not sure if you're an addict. The answer may be that you're simply a man. I believe most of us are wired like you've described and the minority isn't. I don't think it's natural to fuck the same woman for 40 years and expect to get that same high from fucking a 20 or 30 something hottie you've just met. IMHO, as long as you're not hurting your family and their well being, you're not doing anything wrong. On the contrary, you're a true American helping the economy. It sounds like you have a lot to lose, so be extra careful. Unfortunately, society doesn't find this behavior acceptable. I wish we would just legalize prostitution, regulate it, tax it, make providers get tested, and accept it because it's never going to disappear.

[QUOTE=Snake27;2258023]Fair enough, and we're cool. I see this tiny corner of the USASG as possibly helpful and therapeutic to some, though possibly annoying and judgemental to most, so I try to be cautious and not seem to proselytize.

Looking back, I see the process of quitting took about 10 years, with a gradual mitigation of risk and a reduction of involvement, interspersed with relapses. I never really saw this forum as a cause for relapse. Porn was a much bigger influence, though I have grown weary of it now.

The tipping point was 2 years ago due to a convergence of factors, namely dissatisfaction, becoming "mature" (older and calmer, though still functional), and the onset of poverty caused by several issues and priorities unrelated to the hobby. If I won the lottery I might have a relapse and find a nice sugar baby, but the odds are that I am done. The more I am away from it, though, the more pride and resolve I feel, as it is a triumph of the mind.[/QUOTE]I'm kind of jealous of your triumph. I can't do it right now. When you find that special gem and spend a few hours with her, Drkplace is right about chasing that first high. I'm at peace and happy at that moment. I guess that's what life is about. Grabbing small moments of happiness. I treat providers good and with respect so I don't feel guilty about it. I'm sorry when I come across a provider who obviously doesn't want to be there and has substance abuse problems. That's the dark side. But I've found with the higher end providers it's more fun but obviously more expensive.

[QUOTE=DarkSideOfMe;2258321]After many years in this game and only a short time on USA pages, (2 years) (188 post), I must ask, am I a addict? I have been married to a great woman (40 years) who I love, but can't complete a rewarding sex act with any longer (no cumming, oral, hand)! Spend more time on USA, then most. Have to much invested (money, kids, grand kids,) them most, to just leave, so I look to pick up the pieces, from the outside world. (BP, craigs list, USA post). When ever I hookup, its like a high that can't be explained, for days, weeks, dreaming of the girls I just fucked, and wanting more (2,3 a day) when I'm playing this sick dangerous game. I work hard and have the $$s to spend, so I can DREAM as much as I want. I'm not hurting anyone? Right? I don't know how much longer I can play, before it all falls down on me, and I lose ever thing?? Stay safe DRKSD.[/QUOTE]By the way, how are you still a regular member and not senior after 188 posts and 2 years?

Count me among those who wants to "quit," who's tried to quit, who's done sex addiction recovery work (back in the 90's and early 00's), who still wants the high of a score, who's had marriage wreckage, etc. I've been active on here for many years, with more than 2,500 posts since 2002, which was a year before my 2nd marriage ended.

I'm engaged to and have been with #3 for a few years, but save for the past 3 weeks have still been seeing anywhere from 1 to 5 girls a month. I've never done so much, so secretly, and not been discovered. My compulsion for porn is as bad. It's periodic for me, but never far from my mind. Every drive in my car is wandering eyes, my monger mind is always going.

My story is so long I hardly know where to begin. I'm wanting to change my private legacy but still find the high so hard to resist.

I just took the sexual addiction test. Most addicts are an average 6. I scored a 11. I'll point out that I was sexually abused by my babysitter and I haven't been the same since I guess. I'll have sex with multiple women because I'll get bored with the same one. Sorry if I am rambling guys, but this is a surprise to me.

Try the test.

[URL]https://www.recoveryzone.com/tests/lib/UCCASSv1.8.1/survey.php?sid=53[/URL]

[QUOTE=MeatMan;2278839]I just took the sexual addiction test. Most addicts are an average 6. I scored a 11. I'll point out that I was sexually abused by my babysitter and I haven't been the same since I guess. I'll have sex with multiple women because I'll get bored with the same one. Sorry if I am rambling guys, but this is a surprise to me.

Try the test.

[URL]https://www.recoveryzone.com/tests/lib/UCCASSv1.8.1/survey.php?sid=53[/URL][/QUOTE]Fuck, I scored an 18.

[QUOTE=TwistedBrother;2278737]Count me among those who wants to "quit," who's tried to quit, who's done sex addiction recovery work (back in the 90's and early 00's), who still wants the high of a score, who's had marriage wreckage, etc. I've been active on here for many years, with more than 2,500 posts since 2002, which was a year before my 2nd marriage ended.

I'm engaged to and have been with #3 for a few years, but save for the past 3 weeks have still been seeing anywhere from 1 to 5 girls a month. I've never done so much, so secretly, and not been discovered. My compulsion for porn is as bad. It's periodic for me, but never far from my mind. Every drive in my car is wandering eyes, my monger mind is always going.

My story is so long I hardly know where to begin. I'm wanting to change my private legacy but still find the high so hard to resist.[/QUOTE]I get it. You're not alone. My mind is always on pussy hunt mode. It's very, very bad. Tough to change behavior. Even when I think there's a chance, I get bored and fall into the same routine.

[QUOTE=Dsrtp1;2279354]I get it. You're not alone. My mind is always on pussy hunt mode. It's very, very bad. Tough to change behavior. Even when I think there's a chance, I get bored and fall into the same routine.[/QUOTE]OK So I don't have many posts, mainly due to the sheer depravity of my dreams with SPs which are much too embarrasing to disclose. I scored an 18 as well LOL. I have spent countless hours and $ on therapists, SLAA, the whole enchilada, all to no avail. Sooner or later, whatever my bottom looks like, just like a druggie, when and if I hit it maybe I will stop out of utter necessity. Until then, for a few or many of us this addiction will not go away and I simply get to wait until my body parts won't function and maybe then it won't matter so much IMHO.

OK guys, I was bored and was reading some of the posts here. They forced me to comment so here goes.

First off the statistics currently in on people having sex outside of marriage are like this.

54% of men and like 48% of women now do it. So why are you guys beating yourselves up? Sex is the second most powerful drive in the world, right after hunger. Everything else is just an illusion to allow us to get more of one of the two above. Our society in particular has been trying to emasculate men for decades now. Why? Well men who are highly sexual also tend to have higher testosterone levels which relate also to not being able to be led around easily. Experiments were done by both the German's and the Japanese during the second WW on what types and amounts of foods, would make the prisoners more compliant. We did the same thing only using chemicals and we also did, and are, doing it to our own population.

Have you ever looked at the number of wives / mistresses that conquers took when they conquered a village in the olden days? Sex has been, was, and IS the reward for being a successful male in ANY society. Look at athletes, how many women did Wilt Chamberlain sleep with. His reckoning was 20,000 during his career. WTF? Anyways this is just my rambling. Whether or not you have an addiction is strictly up to you. YOU know if you have one. Some intellectiod does not have to give you a test to determine it. The difference was that in the past, men were rewarded for being a man, now we are punishing them for being men. So with that said, It is all about values, You have to determine which will bring you the better rewards in life. Having a family, and remember that it may be your wife who leaves YOU for some other guy. 50/50 chance, or you doing what is biologically programmed into each of us. Your call. Oh and you guys worried about not being madly attracted to your wife of 40 some years. Do you ever see honey bees looking to pollinate an old fruit tree that has no nectar? Just saying. We are biologically programmed guys. Oh and a FYI. Why do women quit looking at men in their mid 40's. Same reason. We no longer exude the scent of a young virile male. Sometimes we can make up for it for awhile with money and success that shows how virile we are. But in the end, that sweet thing will be hitting on the pool boy EVERY time.

This is of course all IMHO and feel free to comment, contradict, or PM me if you would like.

G2.

I think much of the desire to quit is because it's affecting productive aspects of our lives. I reflected and accepted that I enjoy the hobby. But when I'd rather be trolling the city at night for the second or third girl rather than preparing for an early morning presentation. Well that's a problem. I'd also note the sheer amount of resources consumed.

Yes, I enjoy the hobby. But I still have to find a way to bring it under my control. Even if that means cutting it out.

[QUOTE=Genghis2;2299732]OK guys, I was bored and was reading some of the posts here. They forced me to comment so here goes.

First off the statistics currently in on people having sex outside of marriage are like this.

54% of men and like 48% of women now do it. So why are you guys beating yourselves up? Sex is the second most powerful drive in the world, right after hunger. Everything else is just an illusion to allow us to get more of one of the two above. Our society in particular has been trying to emasculate men for decades now. Why? Well men who are highly sexual also tend to have higher testosterone levels which relate also to not being able to be led around easily. Experiments were done by both the German's and the Japanese during the second WW on what types and amounts of foods, would make the prisoners more compliant. We did the same thing only using chemicals and we also did, and are, doing it to our own population.

Have you ever looked at the number of wives / mistresses that conquers took when they conquered a village in the olden days? Sex has been, was, and IS the reward for being a successful male in ANY society. Look at athletes, how many women did Wilt Chamberlain sleep with. His reckoning was 20,000 during his career. WTF? Anyways this is just my rambling. Whether or not you have an addiction is strictly up to you. YOU know if you have one. Some intellectiod does not have to give you a test to determine it. The difference was that in the past, men were rewarded for being a man, now we are punishing them for being men. So with that said, It is all about values, You have to determine which will bring you the better rewards in life. Having a family, and remember that it may be your wife who leaves YOU for some other guy. 50/50 chance, or you doing what is biologically programmed into each of us. Your call. Oh and you guys worried about not being madly attracted to your wife of 40 some years. Do you ever see honey bees looking to pollinate an old fruit tree that has no nectar? Just saying. We are biologically programmed guys. Oh and a FYI. Why do women quit looking at men in their mid 40's. Same reason. We no longer exude the scent of a young virile male. Sometimes we can make up for it for awhile with money and success that shows how virile we are. But in the end, that sweet thing will be hitting on the pool boy EVERY time.

This is of course all IMHO and feel free to comment, contradict, or PM me if you would like.

G2.[/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=MeatMan;2278839]I just took the sexual addiction test. Most addicts are an average 6. I scored a 11. I'll point out that I was sexually abused by my babysitter and I haven't been the same since I guess. I'll have sex with multiple women because I'll get bored with the same one. Sorry if I am rambling guys, but this is a surprise to me.

Try the test.

[URL]https://www.recoveryzone.com/tests/lib/UCCASSv1.8.1/survey.php?sid=53[/URL][/QUOTE]I scored an 8. But a lot of those questions ask if you are feeling guilty about your behavior (which raises the score). I only wish I was getting more pussy and I don't really care who knows that. LOL.

After reading all the personal insight in this forum it makes you take a step back and look at what you're doing and how you're living. I enjoy the hobby and it is a big part of my life and by choice. I am in my mid 40's, no kids, no wife or ex wives and working a job that I love and very well compensated for and allows me to enjoy a life of luxury and travel. My money is not shared with any one and I choose to do as I will. The hobby works for me and I get what I want t and the providers get what they want. I get to walk away without any drama or misunderstandings. I choose the girls I spend my time with and not the other way around. Sure I would love to be married one day and have the house the kids and the dog but for now it not in the cards yet. I dated so many women that I got tired of the games, sure I've spent thousands on my hobby but try taking a couple different women out a few night s a week and see how much you spend and at the end of the night you leave alone and have to go take the cold shower. Not for me and I treat some of the providers very well and more than a few occasions have taken them on trips with me even business dinners to help close a deal when a special client needs that distraction of a beautiful woman and at the end of the night without a doubt I will be getting some with no questions or complaints.

I grew tired of so many women out there looking for that wealthy man for a marriage but don't bring anything to the table but maybe good looks and a hot body and those looks will not last forever. So for now I choose this life style. Of my 800 plus reports, I would guess at least 600-650 are about the women I have spent time with and it's not bragging it's just a fact of my life that I live and can afford to live without hurting anyone. So am I sexual addicted? You bet your ass I am.

Lex.

Regarding my addiction, I really didn't regard it as a problem as much when I was "alone." At that point, the concerns were whether I spent too much money, took time away from work or made overly risky choices. Sometimes I did and sometimes I didn't. But unfortunately, I also want the best of both worlds. So now I've been with a gal for 5 years and plan to marry her, which will be my 3rd (and would have married a few years ago with her if not for a particular financial consideration about her kids in college). I've been fortunate not to get caught or have my hobby adversely affect our relationship as much as it did with the first two. But after some particularly active stretches and some other types of consequences and a lot consideration, I've stopped -- at least for now. It's been about 7 weeks now "sober." Been a few times I really wanted to and almost did, but so far no.

Not sure whether to be proud or embarrassed, perhaps both?

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I don't believe I have a problem, why do I feel like I have hit a line of coke, after, before, doing the hunt??I have not hurt anyone. Drksd.

[QUOTE=Dsrtp1;2258468]By the way, how are you still a regular member and not senior after 188 posts and 2 years?[/QUOTE]I have been on this board for a only short time and you are the only one to ask that question!! I am a bad, bad, boy that's way, just ask, A1,A2, Drksd.

[QUOTE=Popeyemadison;2306388]Not sure whether to be proud or embarrassed, perhaps both?

[ATTACH=CONFIG]357325[/ATTACH][/QUOTE]The good news is in this hobby of ours. That's A Perfect Score!

The bad news is in real life. Thats A Perfect Fail. !

I scored a 17.

On a side note while out shopping over the weekend I picked up a book on Sexual Addiction. But instead of reading it I set up a late night massage last night with a young new Asian doing in calls at her condo. Way more fun than reading.

Welcome To The Jungle where I'm afraid "You can check out but you may never leave. ".

[QUOTE=LexintonLuther;2302241]After reading all the personal insight in this forum it makes you take a step back and look at what you're doing and how you're living. I enjoy the hobby and it is a big part of my life and by choice. I am in my mid 40's, no kids, no wife or ex wives and working a job that I love and very well compensated for and allows me to enjoy a life of luxury and travel. My money is not shared with any one and I choose to do as I will. The hobby works for me and I get what I want t and the providers get what they want. I get to walk away without any drama or misunderstandings. I choose the girls I spend my time with and not the other way around. Sure I would love to be married one day and have the house the kids and the dog but for now it not in the cards yet. I dated so many women that I got tired of the games, sure I've spent thousands on my hobby but try taking a couple different women out a few night s a week and see how much you spend and at the end of the night you leave alone and have to go take the cold shower. Not for me and I treat some of the providers very well and more than a few occasions have taken them on trips with me even business dinners to help close a deal when a special client needs that distraction of a beautiful woman and at the end of the night without a doubt I will be getting some with no questions or complaints.

I grew tired of so many women out there looking for that wealthy man for a marriage but don't bring anything to the table but maybe good looks and a hot body and those looks will not last forever. So for now I choose this life style. Of my 800 plus reports, I would guess at least 600-650 are about the women I have spent time with and it's not bragging it's just a fact of my life that I live and can afford to live without hurting anyone. So am I sexual addicted? You bet your ass I am.

Lex.[/QUOTE]Oh my gosh, I feel even worse now. After reading many of your posts throughout the years, I would have sworn you were with a lot more providers. My best guess is I'm over 5,000 different providers and I'm also in my mid 40's. Am I an addict? Fuck yeah. I'm about to go get my second piece of ass of the day on Christmas eve.

I am very happy to see like minded people. I hope this hobby will be accepted by all one day as this is the only secret I have. Everything else in my life is by the book but I am single and hate all of the drama and hard work of a relationship especially when she gets older and fatter. I like to stay in shape to I prefer younger energetic happy women with great bodies. Plus it is great when I work hard, make a lot of money that I get to keep, go out and meet a hot woman for a great time, then go back home and go to sleep without any of the problems. I scored a 13 on that test by the way.

Am I still an addict? It was 7 weeks without porn, mastb, sex! Do I like the feeling I have now? Fuck no, no real sex drive, no sense of the feeling of a women touch. This is my only vice and I hide it very well, I thought I could leave it but I can't, I have decided to be an addict for now, I'm in my 60's and happy with it and the feeling it leaves me with, need, want more pussy now, then when I was in my 20's! I only scored a" 7-8", still may have hope. . I'm going to LV. This weekend, going, to FUCK as many as I can, take it for the team!! I'm I a addict? Fuck yaa. Drksd.

[QUOTE=Dsrtp1;2308912]Oh my gosh, I feel even worse now. After reading many of your posts throughout the years, I would have sworn you were with a lot more providers. My best guess is I'm over 5,000 different providers and I'm also in my mid 40's. Am I an addict? Fuck yeah. I'm about to go get my second piece of ass of the day on Christmas eve.[/QUOTE]The post count that I mentioned is only that I now write reviews of the women I currently have seen in the time frame that I have joined this review board, A totally of women I have seen privately (girl friends, One night stands, etc) I don't know that number. The professionals I have encounter in my adult life I would be afraid to guess that total number because I have been in this hobby for well over 20 years and travelled the world while doing so. By no means am I " "Wilt Chamberlain" or make his claims of fucking over 20,000 women but I will say we could sit for a few hours and exchange stories..lol

Lex.

[QUOTE=DarkSideOfMe;2340783]Am I still an addict? It was 7 weeks without porn, mastb, sex! Do I like the feeling I have now? Fuck no, no real sex drive, no sense of the feeling of a women touch. This is my only vice and I hide it very well, I thought I could leave it but I can't, I have decided to be an addict for now, I'm in my 60's and happy with it and the feeling it leaves me with, need, want more pussy now, then when I was in my 20's! I only scored a" 7-8", still may have hope. . I'm going to LV. This weekend, going, to FUCK as many as I can, take it for the team!! I'm I a addict? Fuck yaa. Drksd.[/QUOTE]Welcome back to jungle. Once you've entered deep, it's hard to escape. Happy hunting in LV. Please do share any stories as the only thing I enjoy nearly as much as experiencing myself is reading about others' adventures.

[QUOTE=LexintonLuther;2340818]The post count that I mentioned is only that I now write reviews of the women I currently have seen in the time frame that I have joined this review board, A totally of women I have seen privately (girl friends, One night stands, etc) I don't know that number. The professionals I have encounter in my adult life I would be afraid to guess that total number because I have been in this hobby for well over 20 years and travelled the world while doing so. By no means am I " "Wilt Chamberlain" or make his claims of fucking over 20,000 women but I will say we could sit for a few hours and exchange stories..lol

Lex.[/QUOTE]I certainly enjoy reading your posts. You are a great writer and have come to enjoy and actually look forward to reading your posts. Happy hunting and be safe!

I'm really at the point that I want to find a new vice. I love seeing girls, I love having sex and love the feel of a women against my body. Iv been a single guy for quite a few years so this is a good way to get laid and not have a commitment. The last two girls iv seen, one I have not written a review by request has been great, especially the one I seen today, her attitude and skill was near the top.

Problem is I am starting to find it affecting my everyday life. I obviously am not made of money but I am spending it like I have it to burn. I'm a single parent, I need to provide for my children. I make a good living, but I can say I just looked at my bank records for the past year and I have spent well over $5000 in the this hobby and I usually only go for the $60 short stay or AMP's. That obviously is not pocket change and its money I need to save somehow.

As stated, today I seen an awesome provider but its been requested that a review not be written. But I am sitting here thinking "man, she was worth every penny" but then I realize that I have been into my savings which I am saving for a vacation to Vegas. Everything for the trip is paid for, but if I keep dipping into the funds, I will get to Vegas and be broke and then what would be the point. Actually Vegas got me into this hobby, its where I seen my first provider.

My bills are paid, my kids are fed and we all have clothes on our backs and a nice house in a great neighborhood. I have a good job but this vice of mine is starting to get to be financially to much and out of control. I come home and kick myself when I do this because I am spending money, getting laid but when I look at my bank account I have nothing to show for it. The only positive is I get laid when I want with no obligations to know their name or buy them breakfast in the morning.

I need another outlet that is not so costly. I think I will get back into photography, maybe start working out, something to occupy my time so that I am not getting the urge to troll BP or CL or hit up an AMP. Its going to take willpower and I am not sure I can do it, I know the girl I seen today has me wanting to come back again and again but at $100 a pop, that can kill any savings I have.

I know this site is about making reports but I needed an outlet to vent. Neither my friends nor my Co-workers know I participate in the hobby and I just have no other outlet to vent I guess. First thing I need to do is quit coming to this board but damn its fun reading the stories.

I cannot say I know what my future is going to hold, but I need to find a way to not spend so much money on these girls. I just did the math for what I have spent since Jan 1 and if I keep going, I will spend 15 k this year, so between what I spent from last year and on track for this year, I could pay off my car loan.

I know, you guys are thinking there is no way I am spending that much, but I do not report all the time. I try to keep some on the DL, some of these are Sugar Babies and those are really draining on the account.

[QUOTE=JustHereNow;2396205]I'm really at the point that I want to find a new vice. I love seeing girls, I love having sex and love the feel of a women against my body. Iv been a single guy for quite a few years so this is a good way to get laid and not have a commitment. The last two girls iv seen, one I have not written a review by request has been great, especially the one I seen today, her attitude and skill was near the top.

Problem is I am starting to find it affecting my everyday life. I obviously am not made of money but I am spending it like I have it to burn. I'm a single parent, I need to provide for my children. I make a good living, but I can say I just looked at my bank records for the past year and I have spent well over $5000 in the this hobby and I usually only go for the $60 short stay or AMP's. That obviously is not pocket change and its money I need to save somehow.

As stated, today I seen an awesome provider but its been requested that a review not be written. But I am sitting here thinking "man, she was worth every penny" but then I realize that I have been into my savings which I am saving for a vacation to Vegas. Everything for the trip is paid for, but if I keep dipping into the funds, I will get to Vegas and be broke and then what would be the point. Actually Vegas got me into this hobby, its where I seen my first provider.

My bills are paid, my kids are fed and we all have clothes on our backs and a nice house in a great neighborhood. I have a good job but this vice of mine is starting to get to be financially to much and out of control. I come home and kick myself when I do this because I am spending money, getting laid but when I look at my bank account I have nothing to show for it. The only positive is I get laid when I want with no obligations to know their name or buy them breakfast in the morning.

I need another outlet that is not so costly. I think I will get back into photography, maybe start working out, something to occupy my time so that I am not getting the urge to troll BP or CL or hit up an AMP. Its going to take willpower and I am not sure I can do it, I know the girl I seen today has me wanting to come back again and again but at $100 a pop, that can kill any savings I have.

I know this site is about making reports but I needed an outlet to vent. Neither my friends nor my Co-workers know I participate in the hobby and I just have no other outlet to vent I guess. First thing I need to do is quit coming to this board but damn its fun reading the stories.

I cannot say I know what my future is going to hold, but I need to find a way to not spend so much money on these girls. I just did the math for what I have spent since Jan 1 and if I keep going, I will spend 15 k this year, so between what I spent from last year and on track for this year, I could pay off my car loan.

I know, you guys are thinking there is no way I am spending that much, but I do not report all the time. I try to keep some on the DL, some of these are Sugar Babies and those are really draining on the account.[/QUOTE]Dude I feel exactly the same way you do. It's not easy to quit this shit, I have tried several times and I blow through my money as well. I try to tell myself that I'll cut back and only see 1 girl a month but that's impossible for me. I think part of it is the thrill of trying to find that gem because honestly most of these girls suck. Stay strong man and good luck.

[QUOTE=JustHereNow;2396205]I'm really at the point that I want to find a new vice. I love seeing girls, I love having sex and love the feel of a women against my body. Iv been a single guy for quite a few years so this is a good way to get laid and not have a commitment. The last two girls iv seen, one I have not written a review by request has been great, especially the one I seen today, her attitude and skill was near the top.

Problem is I am starting to find it affecting my everyday life. I obviously am not made of money but I am spending it like I have it to burn. I'm a single parent, I need to provide for my children. I make a good living, but I can say I just looked at my bank records for the past year and I have spent well over $5000 in the this hobby and I usually only go for the $60 short stay or AMP's. That obviously is not pocket change and its money I need to save somehow.

As stated, today I seen an awesome provider but its been requested that a review not be written. But I am sitting here thinking "man, she was worth every penny" but then I realize that I have been into my savings which I am saving for a vacation to Vegas. Everything for the trip is paid for, but if I keep dipping into the funds, I will get to Vegas and be broke and then what would be the point. Actually Vegas got me into this hobby, its where I seen my first provider.

My bills are paid, my kids are fed and we all have clothes on our backs and a nice house in a great neighborhood. I have a good job but this vice of mine is starting to get to be financially to much and out of control. I come home and kick myself when I do this because I am spending money, getting laid but when I look at my bank account I have nothing to show for it. The only positive is I get laid when I want with no obligations to know their name or buy them breakfast in the morning.

I need another outlet that is not so costly. I think I will get back into photography, maybe start working out, something to occupy my time so that I am not getting the urge to troll BP or CL or hit up an AMP. Its going to take willpower and I am not sure I can do it, I know the girl I seen today has me wanting to come back again and again but at $100 a pop, that can kill any savings I have.

I know this site is about making reports but I needed an outlet to vent. Neither my friends nor my Co-workers know I participate in the hobby and I just have no other outlet to vent I guess. First thing I need to do is quit coming to this board but damn its fun reading the stories.

I cannot say I know what my future is going to hold, but I need to find a way to not spend so much money on these girls. I just did the math for what I have spent since Jan 1 and if I keep going, I will spend 15 k this year, so between what I spent from last year and on track for this year, I could pay off my car loan.

I know, you guys are thinking there is no way I am spending that much, but I do not report all the time. I try to keep some on the DL, some of these are Sugar Babies and those are really draining on the account.[/QUOTE]I know the feeling. Spent more than 5 k. Its call a sexual addiction which many of us here have.