My addiction.

[Dunkel]

Retirement time for me boyos after 30+ years. After two times where I couldn't finish, I've decided that it's not a good use of time, money and quite frankly my ego. I've had ED issues over the years, but the crew at ERS never failed me. But, after one HE massage and another 'dream' which included BBBJ and cfs, the failure to complete isn't worth the chase. Enjoy it while you got it and I'll check it once and a while to catch up on the happenings.

[Mister Quick]

Saw this topic and thouht of this.

[Thrillseeker2]

What spa is this can you PM me.

Dude, you REALLY need to learn to RTFF. Two mongers have already politely told you to RTFF but you can't take a hint and continue to ask question after question that has already been answered in these pages. Usually several times.

Had you read this particular thread you would know the that OP (and probably everyone else) finds it in poor taste to ask questions like yours in the addiction section.

Usually seniors with many more posts than me deal with newbs like you. Harshly. But maybe it's the Christmas spirit or for what ever the reason they went easy on you and your questions. Some even trying to help you via PM for reasons I don't understand.

TS2.

[Member #5363]

Made it only 6 days this cycle. Was driving thru the western burbs when I saw a sign for a spa. Never been to this one so I pulled in. Out comes a 30 ish hottie with a smoking body wearing a tight lbd and some heels. How much? 45 or 65. Asked her if she was fun and right there in the lobby she leaned over and flashed me her top along with a smile.

Into the room where I was waiting naked when she came back. She brushed against me and I smacked her ass and she giggled. Told her to turn out the light and come back over here. Off came her dress, bra and panties, just like that. No negotiating, no talking, no nothing. Within a minute she was on the table, on her back, with her legs spread wide open.

She didn't disappoint and neither did I.

I'm sitting here trying to figure out what happened that made me go off the wagon. When I saw the spa sign it was automatic. Instantaneously I pulled in and got out of my car. I've had that happen before and was able to turn around and leave. But not this time. The spa sign was like a huuuuge electro magnet and once I got in it's range I didn't stand a chance.

I left happy. And sad. And disappointed in myself. But I'll get over it.

I love this hobby. I hate this hobby.

What spa is this can you PM me.

[E6671]

Thats how many days I made it this cycle from the last time. Thats the longest I've gone without a visit to a whorehouse, or an AMP, or an EMP, or a strip club, or anywhere there are females willing to accept money for sex. And that also includes only one visit to a porn site which BTW didn't result in a happy ending. I've been doing this since the late 80's so I'm quite proud of myself.

I got to thinking this was achievable. That I could give this behavior up.

And then my birthday came. And I thought since nobody was baking me a cake or throwing me a party, and I didn't even hear from my daughter, that I should reward myself / have my own party.

So I splurged and went to my new goto. By the time I got there I was so excited that even the Great Wall of China couldn't have stopped me from going in. And in I went. My new atf greeted me and soon we were both naked and doing things that gave me great pleasure.

An hour later I'm on the way home and feeling guilty for going. But also proud. For staying away for 23 days!!

It's giving me hope that I may be able to do this. Just not this time.

I say CONGRATULATIONS. You have to remember even alcoholics and drug addicts have to start over many times. Also remember just like them you are an addict for life and you need to fight the battle every day. Maybe next time you will go 46 days, maybe only 4. Either way keep the faith.

[Head First]

Thats how many days I made it this cycle from the last time. Thats the longest I've gone without a visit to a whorehouse, or an AMP, or an EMP, or a strip club, or anywhere there are females willing to accept money for sex. And that also includes only one visit to a porn site which BTW didn't result in a happy ending. I've been doing this since the late 80's so I'm quite proud of myself.

I got to thinking this was achievable. That I could give this behavior up.

And then my birthday came. And I thought since nobody was baking me a cake or throwing me a party, and I didn't even hear from my daughter, that I should reward myself / have my own party.

So I splurged and went to my new goto. By the time I got there I was so excited that even the Great Wall of China couldn't have stopped me from going in. And in I went. My new atf greeted me and soon we were both naked and doing things that gave me great pleasure.

An hour later I'm on the way home and feeling guilty for going. But also proud. For staying away for 23 days!!

It's giving me hope that I may be able to do this. Just not this time.

[JolieThornDog]

Within the last 36 hrs I hit 1 SW, 1 AMP and 1 "friend that needs help".

I failed this week but I am ready to quit this. Going to try harder. I might not be around here much any more for obvious reasons. I am going to start my winter "trim down" at the gym early and plan some other stuff. Don't know what will happen but I have to try.

Wish I could afford to participate that much.

[Head First]

Within the last 36 hrs I hit 1 SW, 1 AMP and 1 "friend that needs help".

I failed this week but I am ready to quit this. Going to try harder. I might not be around here much any more for obvious reasons. I am going to start my winter "trim down" at the gym early and plan some other stuff. Don't know what will happen but I have to try.

Fall Down 7 Times. Get Up 8.

We're here if you need a little support.

Keep in touch.

[Head First]

What spa? What burb? Pm if you want.

Hop in your car and drive away from the City. It's the one with the neon OPEN sign on. You've probably been there done that and already removed it from your line up. But hey, it's new to me so I'm going to play it out till it's no fun anymore. I'm not naming names because I don't want it to get Belvideered just because I found it, albeit late. It's been there for years.

Also this. It took me this long to get to some sort of level headedness about your request for info from my post. Didn't you see what section it was posted in? If I wanted to share info about pussy and where to find it I would've posted in the massage section.

And this. One thing I've learned about recovery is that 99% of the time, an addicts first thoughts are wrong. This reply is about my 7th thought on the subject. Next time you should keep your fucking nose and questions out of this section unless you have something (on topic) to add.

Not cool to be fishing for pussy in the 'My Addiction' section. About on par with losers scanning the obits for leads with surviving spouses or going to SA meetings to get dates.

[ReadyForRub]

Made it only 6 days this cycle. Was driving thru the western burbs when I saw a sign for a spa. Never been to this one so I pulled in. Out comes a 30 ish hottie with a smoking body wearing a tight lbd and some heels. How much? 45 or 65. Asked her if she was fun and right there in the lobby she leaned over and flashed me her top along with a smile.

Into the room where I was waiting naked when she came back. She brushed against me and I smacked her ass and she giggled. Told her to turn out the light and come back over here. Off came her dress, bra and panties, just like that. No negotiating, no talking, no nothing. Within a minute she was on the table, on her back, with her legs spread wide open.

She didn't disappoint and neither did I.

I'm sitting here trying to figure out what happened that made me go off the wagon. When I saw the spa sign it was automatic. Instantaneously I pulled in and got out of my car. I've had that happen before and was able to turn around and leave. But not this time. The spa sign was like a huuuuge electro magnet and once I got in it's range I didn't stand a chance.

I left happy. And sad. And disappointed in myself. But I'll get over it.

I love this hobby. I hate this hobby.

The identification of this spa will help the weak avoid temptation, and a report of the expenses will help enthusiasts keep good places open.

[Al Melrose]

What spa? What burb? Pm if you want.

I wanted to write the same comment, but wimped out.

[E6671]

Made it only 6 days this cycle. Was driving thru the western burbs when I saw a sign for a spa. Never been to this one so I pulled in. Out comes a 30 ish hottie with a smoking body wearing a tight lbd and some heels. How much? 45 or 65. Asked her if she was fun and right there in the lobby she leaned over and flashed me her top along with a smile.

Into the room where I was waiting naked when she came back. She brushed against me and I smacked her ass and she giggled. Told her to turn out the light and come back over here. Off came her dress, bra and panties, just like that. No negotiating, no talking, no nothing. Within a minute she was on the table, on her back, with her legs spread wide open.

She didn't disappoint and neither did I.

I'm sitting here trying to figure out what happened that made me go off the wagon. When I saw the spa sign it was automatic. Instantaneously I pulled in and got out of my car. I've had that happen before and was able to turn around and leave. But not this time. The spa sign was like a huuuuge electro magnet and once I got in it's range I didn't stand a chance.

I left happy. And sad. And disappointed in myself. But I'll get over it.

I love this hobby. I hate this hobby.

Read the previous post again and again. If you trip and fall start AGAIN.

The other thing you have to admit to yourself is, Do you really want to quit? Just my opinion but if you are not ready to quit mentally, you never will.

[Chicago Monger]

Made it only 6 days this cycle. Was driving thru the western burbs when I saw a sign for a spa. Never been to this one so I pulled in. Out comes a 30 ish hottie with a smoking body wearing a tight lbd and some heels. How much? 45 or 65. Asked her if she was fun and right there in the lobby she leaned over and flashed me her top along with a smile.

Into the room where I was waiting naked when she came back. She brushed against me and I smacked her ass and she giggled. Told her to turn out the light and come back over here. Off came her dress, bra and panties, just like that. No negotiating, no talking, no nothing. Within a minute she was on the table, on her back, with her legs spread wide open.

She didn't disappoint and neither did I.

I'm sitting here trying to figure out what happened that made me go off the wagon. When I saw the spa sign it was automatic. Instantaneously I pulled in and got out of my car. I've had that happen before and was able to turn around and leave. But not this time. The spa sign was like a huuuuge electro magnet and once I got in it's range I didn't stand a chance.

I left happy. And sad. And disappointed in myself. But I'll get over it.

I love this hobby. I hate this hobby.

What spa? What burb? Pm if you want.

[Head First]

Made it only 6 days this cycle. Was driving thru the western burbs when I saw a sign for a spa. Never been to this one so I pulled in. Out comes a 30 ish hottie with a smoking body wearing a tight lbd and some heels. How much? 45 or 65. Asked her if she was fun and right there in the lobby she leaned over and flashed me her top along with a smile.

Into the room where I was waiting naked when she came back. She brushed against me and I smacked her ass and she giggled. Told her to turn out the light and come back over here. Off came her dress, bra and panties, just like that. No negotiating, no talking, no nothing. Within a minute she was on the table, on her back, with her legs spread wide open.

She didn't disappoint and neither did I.

I'm sitting here trying to figure out what happened that made me go off the wagon. When I saw the spa sign it was automatic. Instantaneously I pulled in and got out of my car. I've had that happen before and was able to turn around and leave. But not this time. The spa sign was like a huuuuge electro magnet and once I got in it's range I didn't stand a chance.

I left happy. And sad. And disappointed in myself. But I'll get over it.

I love this hobby. I hate this hobby.

[JolieThornDog]

The important thing to remember is when you have a set back, you must start again. Like anything else, this will take hard work and dedication. I agree with a few others that have posted on your issue especially since you are a VET. Seek help through the VA.

If you trip and fall start AGAIN. And find some support so that when you get the itch and can talk / visit someone else to occupy your mind and do something else. Good luck.