My addiction.

[Modena006]

I have been going to CLV and ERS since the 1980's. I don't do BP or CL etc. It is addictive but I control it by going no more than 2 or 3 times per month. Driving to Belvidere is about 50 miles one way. Take care.

[Kellster]

I have been in this "hobby" for about 5 years now. I no longer see it as a hobby, its an addiction and a very bad one at that. I'm going to share with everyone my heart felt story.

In only 5 short years this has caused me a divorce (sorta), near 100 k,2 stds (nothing permanent), and now my business and my daughters college fund. I really have no idea if anyone else is this bad but I am and I want everyone to know how bad it can be.

I spend around 500 bucks a week and sometimes more. Sometimes I go to multiple AMPs or places in a day! I have a girlfriend whos hotter then most everyone I see. Its like I can't control it and I just go go go.

When I first started it was like once every 2 weeks but grew to so much more. This really is like a drug and I need out. I have destroyed so many lives and now I am in so much debt with my business and I spent my daughters 25 k I had for college. I have no way to replace it. I will probably lose my daughters love and for sure respect. I have take out short term title loans before to pay for services, I have sold shit to pay for it.

I know many of you and even via pm I would love to hear if anyone else is in my position. I seriously feel like theres noway out. The shame and embarrasment is destroying me. The final nail in the coffin is how do I tell my daughter I spent her college fund? I'm so out of control!

Mma,

Don't be so hard on yourself. You're human. You made some mistakes. We all makes mistakes. Women, even if it's a wife or a steady girlfriend cost money- taking them out for dinners, movies, concerts, etc. Kids cost money- clothes, food, health care, etc. College tuition is very expensive. A parent who can't afford to send their kids to college doesn't mean they're lousy parents. A lot of people can't afford college. Maybe consider telling your daughter business isn't going well instead of the truth in this case to save your relationship with her. The economy has been tough for the past few years so hopefully she'll understand. She might need go to junior college for 2 years, get a job, and then take classes one at a time at a local four year school. Or ask for financial aid. School counselors have info on scholarships and financial aid info. Starbucks has a benefit where employees can take classes online for Arizona State and receive free tuition I think.

I don't go for FS because I'm afraid of STD risks but those same risks are out there if you meet a gal at the store and start dating. I would assume the risks are less since their not pros but it's still a risk. I would say what's done is done so it's best to focus on the future, but in the future you need to consider your girlfriend or wife's health and try to avoid FS to avoid passing any STD's onto them. I'm not judging it's just a suggestion. You have an attractive girlfriend and a great daughter- so those are positives to look forward to.

I'm not perfect. I have had some hard times too. I lost my best friend to cancer. The last few years have been tough for me. I've probably gone way more than I should for massages and to strip bars to escape my loss, and just get out of my place. Alcohol is a depressant so I try to avoid too much of that. Going to the gym is good for you and always makes me feel better as well as going for walks and eating a healthy dinner like seafood. Of course one of the reasons I need massages is because of my damn aching, older muscles I get from working out haha! Hang in there man!

[Sam Spade]

MMA, sorry to hear this. My suggestion to you is to stay off this forum, stay off Craigs, BP and everything else along those lines. You have close to 500 posts and you have provided great info to the rest of us. Thanks, but this speaks to how often you've done the Research for us. So lay off. Long term, how about you move to a state with a lot less opportunity? Northern Wisconsin, Iowa, Nebraska. All of these dull places offer great hunting and fishing and very little in the way of AMPs. Of course if you really look you'll find it, so don't look.

I don't mean to make lite of your situation, but it does remind me of a bit from Richard Pryor's concert film, Live on the Sunset Strip, when he was deep into his cocaine addiction. He joked that it got so bad that even his drug dealers didn't want to sell to him anymore. Maybe that's what you need. Mammasan's who will kick you the Hell out.

[IlDiavolo]

I have been in this "hobby" for about 5 years now. I no longer see it as a hobby, its an addiction and a very bad one at that. I'm going to share with everyone my heart felt story.

In only 5 short years this has caused me a divorce (sorta), near 100 k,2 stds (nothing permanent), and now my business and my daughters college fund. I really have no idea if anyone else is this bad but I am and I want everyone to know how bad it can be.

I spend around 500 bucks a week and sometimes more. Sometimes I go to multiple AMPs or places in a day! I have a girlfriend whos hotter then most everyone I see. Its like I can't control it and I just go go go.

When I first started it was like once every 2 weeks but grew to so much more. This really is like a drug and I need out. I have destroyed so many lives and now I am in so much debt with my business and I spent my daughters 25 k I had for college. I have no way to replace it. I will probably lose my daughters love and for sure respect. I have take out short term title loans before to pay for services, I have sold shit to pay for it.

I know many of you and even via pm I would love to hear if anyone else is in my position. I seriously feel like theres noway out. The shame and embarrasment is destroying me. The final nail in the coffin is how do I tell my daughter I spent her college fund? I'm so out of control!

Thanks for sharing your story MMA. I've only been in the game for 7 months but can see it heading to where you're at. I'm in therapy trying to put my situation at home back into perspective and deep down, I hope this is just a "phase" or acting out period for me. There is an emptiness in receiving services for money that leaves you feeling emotionally dissatisfied even if your physical needs are met, and that emotional emptiness, for me, is what keeps me coming back for more. I encourage you to seek the services of a therapist who can guide you to finding the emotional connection in your relationship so you won't have to seek it in cash for services exchanges. Please let me know how you're doing. Best luck man.

[Member #5933]

I have been in this "hobby" for about 5 years now. I no longer see it as a hobby, its an addiction and a very bad one at that. I'm going to share with everyone my heart felt story.

In only 5 short years this has caused me a divorce (sorta), near 100 k,2 stds (nothing permanent), and now my business and my daughters college fund. I really have no idea if anyone else is this bad but I am and I want everyone to know how bad it can be.

I spend around 500 bucks a week and sometimes more. Sometimes I go to multiple AMPs or places in a day! I have a girlfriend whos hotter then most everyone I see. Its like I can't control it and I just go go go.

When I first started it was like once every 2 weeks but grew to so much more. This really is like a drug and I need out. I have destroyed so many lives and now I am in so much debt with my business and I spent my daughters 25 k I had for college. I have no way to replace it. I will probably lose my daughters love and for sure respect. I have take out short term title loans before to pay for services, I have sold shit to pay for it.

I know many of you and even via pm I would love to hear if anyone else is in my position. I seriously feel like theres noway out. The shame and embarrasment is destroying me. The final nail in the coffin is how do I tell my daughter I spent her college fund? I'm so out of control!