Sexual Addiction Reports

[Head First]

Made it only 6 days this cycle. Was driving when I saw a sign for a spa. Never been to this one so I pulled in. Out comes a 30 ish hottie with a smoking body wearing a tight L*B*D and some heels. How much? 45 or 65. Asked her if she was fun and right there in the lobby she leaned over and flashed me her top along with a smile.

Into the room where I was waiting naked when she came back. She brushed against me so I smacked her ass and she giggled. Told her to turn out the light and come back over here. Off came her dress, bra, and panties, just like that. No negotiating, no talking, no nothing. Within a minute she was on the table, on her back, with her legs spread wide open.

She didn't disappoint and neither did I.

I'm sitting here trying to figure out what happened that made me go off the wagon. When I saw the spa sign it was automatic. Instantaneously I pulled in and got out of my car. I've had that happen before and was able to turn around and leave. But not this time. The spa sign was like a huge electro magnet and once I got in it's range I didn't stand a chance.

I left happy. And sad. And mad. And disappointed. In myself. But I'll get over it.

I love this hobby. I hate this hobby.

[Midwt2006]

Wow Pison00 you're right, I do seem normal compared to you. Don't think I'll ever get to where you are. I have way to much to lose. But I am glad I've started to realize the potential risks and how easy it is to get swept up in this stuff. Be safe.

[Pison00]

Hey Midwt2006 What you said seems pretty regular and normal to me. I do occasional street hunting, Porn everyday, Masterbate everyday, I have atleast two minimum BP Apointments in a week 60-120 Each visit I will desperately go to to my next BP appointment in the same day if I wasn't satisfied most of the girls I see on BP have a ton of rules, and I'm a guy that hates them all, I love the street walkers the most AND less like for the strippers, and Escorts on BP tons and tons of rules. Some UTR's I visit I will make them Eat my A-hole and I will do Incredibly nasty fun things to them! I'm an old creeper that will hunt from 1-140 miles around my radius surroundings because I just simply can't Stop and the addiction I have since I was 29 and that was quite a lot of years ago. I love woman of all types of shapes, colors, race, and style. I love young and old I just can't quit this bad habit.

[Midwt2006]

I've spent a fair amount of $$ +on a stripper this past year, saw her twice the last week. Wednesday and Sunday. I'm a guy that likes a little fur, she shaved it off. Might make the break a bit easier. On a side note wife asked me about a credit card purchase. Told her the truth it was a porn site. See if she asks to see it. I'll probably never be a senior member but this site is a resource for both sides of the spectrum and I appreciate that. I love pussy!

[Pison00]

Glad I found this forum I'm a man that's incredibly Addicted to the trade or hobby. , I see a provider atleast twice a week, and masterbate often every Friday I go out hunting to find a provider or a street walker or anything that crosses my path really. I guess it's in a mans nature to seek the meat, Lost a wife I use to have because of my sexual desires have two older kids and just continuing life with this addiction, but on the bright side even if we do have this addiction I know alot of us are very good people by heart I would assume I am? ,and most of you as well. SADLY I have a girlfriend now, but as I tend to build the relationship and trust with this woman there's is no sexual action in the relationship yet because I tend to respect her as a woman and I don't want to ruin my chances by being creep to her. , Recently I invited her over to Stay the night with me and she grew suspicious of my idea. , Which was clear as day to her what my attentions were and She hit me back with the answer YES, but there's not going to be any sexual action involve in us sleeping together so as a man of my word and in order to grow her trust we had a good day / night took her to dinner, a movie came home slept and the rules were respected, but in between that time frame I went out to seek a provider to get some sexual relief and to get rid of the sex desire, so I can focus on the woman 100% and to give it all a man can do to be a gentleman it's been many years since I did this with any of my ex wifes.

I find no cure in this for me at all I've tried many things.

[Beachesnole02]

For guys trying to quit and have made it over a week, do you stop seeing providers or do you stop porn & fapping as well?

If you are looking at porn, you are going to go do it again.

[Moiz33]

For guys trying to quit and have made it over a week, do you stop seeing providers or do you stop porn & fapping as well?

[Head First]

14 days seems to be a wall for me. Twice in the past couple months and once to 13 days is as far as I've gotten before making a call for some relief. That's telling me it may be more physiological than psycological (big words). Years ago I remember making it 3 weeks but I was on anti depressants then too so that helped stretch it out. Don't want to go back on those so not sure what my next move should be.

In the meantime I'm saving a bunch of green.

Also I'm continuing to get legit massages where I know there's no chance in Hell of leaving happy. But it's still relaxing. I feel sorta like a recovering alcoholic having an occasional O'Doul's.

Hmmm.

[Midwt2006]

Ok so I'm trying to visit a little less. I've seen her 50 times so far this year. Last visit was a week ago Tuesday. She emailed me and asked if I could visit today. I think I may succumb. At least I'll only see her once this week. Small progress.

[Midwt2006]

Been going to Strip Clubs for about 6 years. I've spent a good amount of cash. I like to get a relationship and see what happens, always try and make it fun, LOL. Mostly good but recently been spending too much time and $ on one. I know I'm being played, looking to make a break. Reading previous posts have been most helpful. Thanks.

[HuntLadys29]

Hey guys,

I have been getting out of control lately. I use backpage at least 3-4 times a week. When I'm low on funds I even go to craiglist and get guys to help me out. I'm married and have 2 children and a great relationship, I just like to get off and have a variety of different people. My family does not know. How do I break the cycle? I tried jerking off, but that seems to make it worse.

Thank you for anything that you can help me with!

What do you mean you get guys to help you out? HL29.

[CaptivaHeat]

Hey Joey and Chin up, your comments are so honest and helpful as I just found this link. Have been realizing over past couple of months that I have the addiction. Not easy, when I have known others with drug / alcohol addictions and felt myself so above any bad behavior that is hard to stop.

The past year I retired and found my occasional hobby going to a weekly basis. After nearly 50 Backpage "dates," started making a list of the bad and good along with the expenditure tally. Sobering, but still wanting to play and prowl daily on the BP site and others. Then, busted a few weeks ago by my beautiful, sexy wife of 10 years! Already had decided to stop, at least temporarily until returning from vacation in mid-September. Had called off a Sugar Daddy relationship that started last May which I can give you some details if wanted.

But after reading your guys' accounts here, this is a bad addiction requiring tough work and not a temporary halt. Day 19 day today but still prowling the sites. Did tear up my summary of the good and bad ladies today. Still lay awake at night thinking of the goods. And, of course, intrigued daily by new.

Sure would appreciate your support as I proceed onto Day 20 and beyond. This is not an easy, harmful habit to kick.

Chin up, FunInOhio! If this was an easy habit to kick, we wouldn't need to be on here talking to each other.

Day 20 for me, but I made an appointment for this morning with a sexy spinner, then overslept and had to miss it. OK, so at least I didn't reschedule for this afternoon. That's half a victory anyway, right?

Tomorrow is 3 weeks.

Meanwhile I picture DarkSideOfMe on a beach somewhere with about 4 girls bent over in front of him, taking turns with one after another as he douses himself with pina coladas and Skittles. But maybe that's just me.

Stay safe guys.

JS2.

[MikeKemmer28]

Hey guys,

I have been getting out of control lately. I use backpage at least 3-4 times a week. When I'm low on funds I even go to craiglist and get guys to help me out. I'm married and have 2 children and a great relationship, I just like to get off and have a variety of different people. My family does not know. How do I break the cycle? I tried jerking off, but that seems to make it worse.

Thank you for anything that you can help me with!

[Head First]

I bookmarked it. Thnx MWiggly2.

http://www.sexualcontrol.com/

Day 8 for me.

[FunInOhio]

I've hit an all time low. I haven't posted much on here because I've been so busy fucking as many as I can daily that I have no time to write. I've been fucking 2-3 providers a day. 2016 I've already spent over $50,000. My latest thing is bareback full service and how I can convince them. What dollar amount is each girls number has become a challenge for me. I have no regard of my health and I cum inside them not knowing if they're on the pill. I don't care. I feel invincible and I even pickup civilians at gas stations because I feel so empowered and confident. I fucked one over the weekend in a forest bareback. Went and got another one the same day and made her give me a BBBJ without showering in between to see if the second one would notice the pussy juice on my cock. In between fucking her in different positions I took off the condom and fucked her bareback without her realizing it and pretended I just needed a new rubber because I told her the old one was coming off. I'm fucked up.

Not judging your sexual craving, but you got to stop sneaking about removing the cover to go BB if she has not agreed. Take A Break man. Talk to someone. Take CARE man.