Reunion with UTR Victoria
Also in recent news, I reconciled and reunited with my old UTR Victoria. How could anyone forget her? She is the one I potentially knocked up.
Rewind back to the fall, she was my main provider after I stopped seeing Lauren and Amanda. Then Victoria told me she was pregnant by me and had me take her to get a "fake" abortion pill, then we stopped talking, ironically only a couple days later she had her accident in which she fell from the 3rd floor window and broke her pelvis (right on Thanksgiving eve, the night before Thanksgiving). She almost died from the accident and will never be fully recovered, she has titanium in her legs and pelvis now. Anyhow a few weeks ago, she contacted me on facebook and we briefly talked, then the other night, she wrote me telling me how since she the accident she has changed for the goof and wanted to let go and I agreed, telling her to start anew, so we reconciled. Same night she asked me to give her ride home from visiting an ill family member in a nursing home, because she was stuck, which I did and we had nice talk (she is in Albany now, not Saratoga anymore).
We talked and discussed the possibility of seeing each other again for "dates" like before. In fact, she asked to come along swimming with me yesterday, but had to cancel at last minute.
But anyhow, don't know if she is a provider anymore or not, but we are at least friends again somewhat and I can confirm she definitely is not pregnant. I asked her about that, now she is telling me that she never was pregnant, it was some kind of ovarian cyst and irregular period that made her think she was pregnant. Do not know if she is telling the truth or if she lost the baby in the accident, like I thought all along. Saratoga Sky's boyfriend Tarry (whom I am friends with) told me a different story, that she was pregnant and the baby daddy could been me or that other guy Shawn (50/50 that it was either one of us), but lost baby in the accident. Who knows and at this point who cares, old news now, so now I can finally move fwd and forget that whole ordeal.
But anyhow this goes to show that I do sometimes reconcile with former providers and am not out to ruin their careers always, like many of you think. Perfect example here and as far as I know she is not providing we have not discussed that yet as we want to take things slow first to see if we start seeing each other again as UTR. As far as other clients she sees, I have no idea.
Ps she plays for the other team. To simplify she dates and likes other girls
No it's just plain autism
[QUOTE=Cetacean;5938611]The attention seeking individual craves attention, even insults and negative attention is better than none. When they are denied attention they will seek it elsewhere. Having worked in mental health for decades makes it possible for me to come up with a tentative diagnosis. His history of violent acting out behavior is clear. He probably disrupted the ER at Ellis Hospital and I'm quite sure he's been in restraints, probably four point, hands and feet secure by straps and cuffs. He's assaulted his family members and likely nurses and aides in the ER. He's not psychotic or delusional. His thoughts and affect are consistent with what we called jokingly an attention *****. You've probably all known borderline people. Ignore him or if you must tell him to call his counselor and work on his abandonment issues and his lack of impulse control.[/QUOTE]No I do not have borderline personality. My issues are plain autism and me acting like a spoiled brat who never grew up and always wants his own way and won't take no as answer. Of course my mom catered to me, which didn't help. Looking back I feel like I was raised like Eric Cartman on South Park with his mom catering to him.
Whenever I flip out, there's always a cause. I don't just for no reason flip out. Usually something gets me off, like when a provider doesn't get back to me, I get anxious and panic or when something doesn't go my way, I tantrum. I have the attitude, I want things my way and I want it now. Huge difference from borderline.
Like how I got in trouble at work back in December, when they re-enacted the mask policy. I have problem where I can’t tolerate Covid masks and refuse to wear them, I would wear a plastic face shield during the mandate or just violate the policy maskless. At work when I found out the mask policy was going back, I suddenly flipped out and made a bad scene, I yelled “fuck Covid”, “I don’t care if everyone died from Covid back in 2019” and I planned to wear a shirt that reads “fuck Covid”. My point being my tantrum wasn’t no reason, it was me reacting to the mask policy cuz I couldn’t get my own way - proof right there I’m not borderline and my tantrums are just me wanting to control the world - classic autism. Oh and cuz of my little fit, I got brought up on 17 charges at work by HR and almost lost my job. (Not just my outburst, I also talked about me going to prostitutes at work to my coworkers and bragged how I catfished that guy - all reported during the HR investigation and resulted in 17 charges). I took a plea settlement and was reassigned to a different office unit with a 3 year probation period (I can’t have any incidents thru Feb 2025 or I’m out) - the only reason I have kept my job is cuz I work for the state which is very hard to get fired from. If I worked private sector, I would have been fired long time ago.
And no I have never been in handcuffs or restrains. I have never been arrested and was only hospitalized once when I was 13 at Ellis Adolescent Unit and I never got violent with any staff there. Once again false untrue assumptions about me.